My Pink Shoelace

I want you stay
Never go away from me
Stay forever
but now, now that you’re gone, all i can do is pray for you
to be here beside me again

*Why did you have to leave me?
when you said that love would conquer all
Why did you have to leave me
When you said that dreaming was good as reality

and now i must move on
trying to forget all the memories
of you near me
but i can’t let go of your love that has taught me
to hold on
(repeat from the beginning)
(repeat *)

I want you to stay never go away from me, stay forever
I want to stay but i have to go my way…
oooooo ahhhhh-ooo

I was with Druggie and Eds awhile back at Hebrews, a coffee shop over at IT Park and I must admit the internet connection is pretty impressive.

~ Carbonara over @ Hebrews ~

~ Eds seriously working on something ~

~ Druggie – the gothic fairy behind lakbaydiva.com ~

The food was good over at Hebrews Coffee Shop and I cannot wait to go back and sample their other dishes and hopefully with my laptop with me so I can enjoy the free wi-fi. Yohoooo … so I have taken photos of the two crazy people I have met at work. Eds has become more of an extrovert kinda person who loves to point and shoot [we're talking photography here, don't get any other ideas] and Edwin a crazy lunatic I met at work if you are in need of a good laughter then call him.

Isn’t it gorgeous??!! I looooovveee the design and the stone on it. I’ve always been fascinated with loose diamonds; it’s a wonderful and one exquisite stone that is said to be every woman’s desire. I must admit I love them and would love to have a diamond engagement ring someday somehow. Whooohoooo … a diamond necklace, bracelet or earrings would prolly be the perfect ensemble.

Part of life’s cycle of aging is the many illnesses some of which we can prevent, delay from occurring or curing at the onset of impact. Usually as a result of proper health care and healthy lifestyle these illnesses could be overcome; several people with rheumatoid arthritis have managed to get back on their feet, socialize and live their lives as close to normal as possible which is endearing, takes a whole lot of courage and discipline. Tales like these from real people overcoming this illness render great strength for those who are currently dealing with it. For those who are not sure how to proceed or are in need of help then there are several counseling groups and therapeutic centers to help them out.

I have been asked several times what my profession is and instead of saying … am a licensed elementary school teacher, I’d end up saying, “I am licensed to corrupt minds”. So I have the license card to prove it but none of the experience that’s suppose to go with it.

I had this conversation with the Dean of Commerce back in my 3rd year in college … I was typing out some documents for her in the office and she was very busy with the upcoming review for the licensure exams when I asked ..

Moi: Ma’am Rose, how does your PRC ID look like?

So the dean took her wallet from her bag and showed me her ID … it says “Certified Public Accountant”

Dean: When you pass the board exams soon your ID would have “Professional Teacher” on it.

I made a face which made her laugh and asked why, I said … mine would sound so ordinary so plain while hers well it was classy at least I thought so when I was 18.

So 3 years ago I took the exams and passed got my ID and looked at my face staring back at with the inscription beneath, Professional Teacher; since I still think it’s pretty ordinary when anyone ask what am licensed to do … I’d always say … I’m Licensed to Corrupt Minds.

There sounds better. Nyahahahaaahaha.

A photo of her in a toga and graduation cap was printed and distributed as what her mom would like to call photo graduation announcements and it also serve as the invitation to attend her graduation come third week of March. Thank goodness my mom was not as flamboyant as hers or I would have died of sheer embarrassment; the photo didn’t do her justice … lol she’s way prettier in person guess she’s not photogenic. Nyahahaa *evil laugh*

This basement dehumidifier is perfect accessory for the basement part of my dream house. Whoooppeeee … ok so that by itself is a long shot but still I have already pictured out my dream house in my head that it involves a lot of Japanese and Chinese art, wood and incense plus pink and brown schemes in at least one room. Am still not sure what color goes to the basement.

Back in my high school days I have been curious [for the lack of a better word] with wicca and everything that goes with it. I couldn’t find any occult shops here and now when I finally got my own set of tarot cards with a matching book to boot. Weeeeeeee lets take a look at them, shall we?

One of the many reasons why a friend and I are still with the company is the insurance benefits that came with the package. Medical insurance most importantly has been a major life and pocket saver for her and me that though work sucks literally, we hang on to it as it’s our major lifeline. Both of us are working part time online and we have been keen to promote that and make it full time but unless it comes with some sort of online life insurance policy then I think it’ll have to stay in the back seat.

Sewing like cooking is not my cup of tea … something I do once in a blue moon when I get all lunatic and just wacked out. So last Thursday I went to the mall and bought a sewing kit … the last time I saw these things was when I was in my Junior year, Home Economics where they ask you to sew Aprons and what not …

I am in a swap over at swap-bot which was really crazy and something I would never have done in a million years but for some god forsaken reason I signed up and ended up sewing what I believe is a dotee doll.

[http://oflettersandbeyond.blogspot.com is my swapping blog]

It wasn’t so bad at all, I actually had fun doing it … I guess Share was right when she said we might be surprised to find out that we might like it after all. I think I might make some more though I have no idea what am gonna do with them. They don’t hold a candle to the ones made by pros over at swap-bot and flickr but heck, I made it and its the effort and the thought that counts.

New Year’s Resolution per say lol.

By December 2010

- I should no I must [yikes!] be able to watch and understand “Turn Left, Turn Right” with the sub titles off.
- I should be able to sing with complete comprehension Sun Yan Zi’s Yu Jian [crossing my fingers]

By April and May

- Attend Language school in Kumming

Hmmm … how I go about fulfilling them is something I still haven’t figured out … but am crossing my fingers.

You know how there are several shops along the streets of Colon selling DVD’s? well I went there and asked if they still have a copy of Meteor Garden. The look on their faces before bursting out laughing was unbelievable until finally one managed to ask, “Where have you been when they were popular?” Ah … they were popular when I was in my first year or second year in college which made me what 17? … I replied, “I must have been asleep”.

So talk about a 7 year set back huh …lol Oh well my head was buried in books that time and yes I can still remember my classmates and neighbors going bananas about it and it never affected me. I know am weird but am watching Meteor Garden now all because of a totally different reason. This show is in Mandarin and by year’s end I should be able to watch and understand it with the subtitles off; though I must admit it’s sort of funny.

Run across a free trial version of an antivirus software online and am wondering if its any good. At the moment I am using Windows Live Essentials which comes as a free download from the Microsoft site and works great with Windows 7. The name of the software is Vipre which is said to come with antivirus and antispyware protection; it has been given a 5 star rating over at download.com and has gotten quite rave reviews from users and editors alike.  Now I did mention it has a free trial version that lasts for 30 days and its quite simple to obtain, just fill the registration form and you got the software to test out. It’s said to have little to no impact as to the computer’s performance, some software actually slow down the pc when they are loaded but not this nifty one which I think is a really major plus.

I’d better do a bit of reading before downloading the program, don’t want to run into some problems on my pc.

*sigh* I loooooove one lol. A pink Sony Vaio that is; my second choice after a macbook only problem is this beauty is very expensive *sigh* I guess I’ll just have to just continue looking at it every time I pass by the Sony store at SM … Yikes!

2009 was a blast both in a good and bad context … people always wanna hear the bad things first so let’s do a quic recap  ..

March – I had a major skin allergy [like super major ... I cringed at the memory. I was itching all over and was on SL for close to 4 weeks!]

Later part of the year found me dealing me close to daily asthma episodes which caused me to miss the comprehensive exam and a very messed up scorecard … beyond repair, ouch!

As for the good … heck I’ve been to several places Hong Kong, Macau, Singapore, Baguio and Bangkok in a span of three months! It was amazing … the places, the food, the shopping and most of all the people were worth it.

Looking forward to another round of trotting across Asia … weeeeeeeee

- wedding rings and moi???  not quite! -

Technically she’s still 24 when she tied down the knot yesterday and she’s the first in the group to settle down [or so they say]. Well I got invited to attend my friend’s wedding, back in high school we have this circle of friends, there’s like 17 of us [15 girls and 2 boys] we parted ways when we went to different colleges but still get in touch and gather for Christmas party every year [am almost always missing in these gathering but nonetheless].

So Ann tied down the knot yesterday. Heck I don’t even know the guy [some friend huh?!!] Well we are not “close” per say,  it’s  big group what’d you expect? true all of us are friends but within that group you’d always have your own close friends right?.

So I watched her walk down the aisle in a princess like wedding gown and wondered, there she was settling down at the age of 24 and here I am at 24 still waiting or shall I say still trying to grow up. Heck! What happened in the “growing up” phase? A friend said just because she’s getting married doesn’t mean she has matured already … but then marriage is a HUGE thing, it’s not a trial and error kinda game that you could just walk out of the moment you realize it’s no longer working for you especially since there’s no divorce here.

The wedding was a classic scene and I just hope she’s getting married for all the right reasons and not because circumstance forced them too. Creepy One always said I am a cynic, so what … love in this day and age is highly overrated. I’d prolly cause foreheads to frown on that last sentence but what the heck  … bite me!

Am such a bad photographer … yikes! But that’s the view every 2 AM when I stood by the street waiting for a cab to go to work. Every Christmas season they would hang Christmas lights on every tree and the way it illuminates on a dark silent street is just peaceful and mysterious in a way, especially if you’re like me whose head is almost always in space then yeah … you’d think something this nonsense to be something worthwhile.

I noticed the lights on the Christmas of 2008 and I’ve been meaning to take a photo of it since then but I never got to not till last night. It’s not something but I finally got to do what I’ve been procrastinating to do … talk about a year’s setback.

So there goes my view every 2AM while waiting for a cab to take me to the office.

With the evolution of technology several companies have developed software which made transaction smooth and hassle free.  A windows based software called Q-Check gives merchants the capability to receive check by phone; all legal and doesn’t require the signature of the depositor just perfect for the busy merchant.

That was the question Jenny asked when she saw me outside the house on my way to the grocers. She said, “Te Wena, your hair is uneven, what’d you do?” I replied, “I cut it after I came out of the shower”.  She grinned. I’ve always had long hair … waist long curly hair that I almost always wear in a tight bun or in a pony tail. When I do cut it it’d always be longer than shoulder length and I don’t mind it much; would only notice it has grown waist long again when a friend comment on it. Bena would always say to have it cut because it’s already very long already … but going to the salon is my least favorite thing to do. It’s like cooking … something I do once in a blue moon. So scissors let me use you to cut my hair and ta … da!

- hair be gone lol -

I’m not saying I have arthritis but I know of quite a few people around my age who seem to be suffering from this symptom every once in a while. arthritis treatment is common, quite affordable and over the counter though what you’d see buying these types of treatment most of the times would be those aging folks, the very reason why it bugs my friend a lot to go and buy them herself. Thanks to Mrs. Lopez [the housekeeper] she doesn’t have to do it all on her own.

I have been sickly most of my adult life and speculations have it that my work environment is not helping at all so I was advised to take some vitamins to help supplement whatever food I take … assuming I take any lol. So given the advise of my quack, I am supposedly taking the best multivitamin ever created … beats the A-Z from Centrum. Yikes!

Those who know me personally would ask, “Has the world turned upside down?” if they found out that I tried my hands in the kitchen in attempts of “cooking” something edible. I have spent the last two years since mom died eating out coz am a disaster in the kitchen and when there are times when am too lazy to go out to eat then it’s either instant noodles or good ol coffee. [Not good for the health, ... oh well, I should marry a chef!]

- It’s fried bolinao [baudnon] with lots of onions and tomatoes -

I haven’t eaten this viand for 3 years … this reminded of two things:

1st: the summer of 2001 where I spent training to become a CAT officer. Everyone had to bring their own lunch and the first time I brought this everyone liked it so we made a deal that I’ll ask my mom to prepare one every week. We all share our food back then and it was fun.

2nd: it reminds me of mom, I love this dish for what its worth and would always grab the opportunity to ask her to prepare it whenever possible. The way she mix sugar and vinegar then spread it all over the fried bolinao then top them with lots and lots of tomatoes and onions is just … amazing.

So today, I went on VGH as usual and went to the grocers, came home and cooked … and for the first time in my 24 years I made something edible. Not burnt or half done. Just cooked.

I miss my mom *sigh*

I cannot get this song off my head. Ever since I saw “Drive Me Crazy” starring Melissa Joan Hart and Adrian Grenier, that song was played on a bar scene and it took me what seemed like a month to find out what the title was and who sang it. It even seemed like forever to download the song online.

Up until now I still cannot find the lyrics online but I am able to download the entire album “Somewhere Over the Radio” by Deadstar. I love it and wished they haven’t disbanded, it would be great to hear new albums from them.

Run Baby Run by Deadstar

I have been terribly busy with my swaps over at swap-bot and not to mention my getting sick every now and then, nothing minor just the usual asthma episodes and flu. Anyways, am snagging this pic over from my swapping blog; three altered matchboxes.

On the 9th of December would be mom’s second death anniversary but why does it still feel like yesterday? I have been a complete jackass since she left, I’ve completely lost my way, did stupid things to try and forget, I’ve been a loner all and through but I’m feeling more lonely and lost than before. Guess I haven’t really moved on.

Several companies often employ call center services for their customer service and technical support rather than setting up an in house department for those services. Ever wonder why? I have and one of the explanation given to me was that in house support is more expensive than contracting an off shore call center to do the job for you. Many huge companies in the US have set up contract with different BPO’s on the other side of the globe to be their customer service and tech support lines.

Most people I know believe that the online freebies you see on email advertisements which usually appear on the junk folder are just nothing but pure unadulterated adverts. But safe to say there are actually several companies and sites that do offer real freebies, some in the form of contest prizes, some for the promotion of new products. If you google for like it win it freebies it would give you several search results, or if you go for win free stuff online, it would give you several blog sites that actually offer those goodies for free if you join and win in their blog contest.

Do check them out, you might win a couple if luck is on your side.

I have always been fascinated with school and all the things you could learn lets just say am a geek, with the advent of the internet several transactions are now possible online, from banking to shopping and now one could just enroll to an online university to get a degree. Must be cool to be sipping pina coladas and at the same time attending an online school. I should try that sometime.