My Pink Shoelace

Diva and I went to the main post office after shift yesterday and of the 13 parcels | packages for me one of them was from Bobbie [Lavender72004 via swap-bot] and it contained this …

I am glaeken via swap-bot

At first I thought this was for one of the swaps am in but no it was a birthday gift … and it’s very cute! I received a tag from her for one of the forum tags at swap-bot couple of weeks back but this was totally unexpected. Another birthday gift I received … [they sure arrived days ahead of my birthday] was from Cari, she’s my swap partner and she included a birthday gift for me on her package for our swap, something she made herself, so sweeeet.

I have met so many wonderful and artistic ladies via swap-bot and though Jovie said I have “no life” outside of home and work but I found great friendship online … it was more than I could ask for. These presents arrived unexpectedly … something I didn’t ask for which is  really really nice  …..

I dunno what to say … really, she thought I was out of earshot and called me a “B!tch”. You should have seen how round my eyes went … like flying saucers.  Brat I can handle or shall I say am used to but “B!tch” it’s totally unexpected and as am typing this am saying the word over and over it doesn’t sound right coming out of my mouth. It has this sour aftertaste.

Now you might ask, what have you done this time Weng? … we’ll she was someone I knew from college we were school mates or should I say classmates? urrrrghhh, can no longer remember but I think she was in one of my classes back then. And I think she misunderstood my silence back then, I’ve always been the aloof one. I only speak when addressed to and I only hang out with my close friends … like a small circle of goofies.

Or maybe I should just think of it this way … maybe this is what she meant .  lol come on … who am I kidding??!!!! waaaaaaaaaaaa. Oh well, I must have offended her somewhere somehow and after all these years she finally manage to let me know what she thinks though unintentionally. She’s all smiley and friendly when we are facing each other … I just pray I won’t bump into her in the next few days. I might just live up to being a “B!tch” and tear her eyes out.

Seeing this online reminded me of that time I saw one in Singapore, somewhere in Orchard Road there’s this huge Sports Boutique and on the display showcase they had a wide array of colorful golf clubs, I stopped in front of the pink one and my auntie rolled her eyes at me. Saying that I don’t even know how to play golf so it’s no use, lol, it’s not like I wanna buy it … I was just attracted afterall it’s P!nk … heheheh. So when Lizzie said they might go avail of the many Myrtle beach golf packages next month I readily showed this image to her, she said it’s very cute and pretty but asked … do they have purple???

I just adore her! I have managed to download several of her music videos as well as live performances, the way she moves her body is just amazing. Only very few ladies in this world have such perfect body without an ounce of belly fat, unfortunately am not one of them …lol. Was told learning how to belly dance is a good way to lose that flab in your tummy, yikes! I seem to have a pair of left feet bwahahaha. Guess I’ll just feast my eyes on the gorgeous Shakira.

Not me that is … am just in one of my many wishful thinking mood lol. But seriously wouldn’t you wanna spend a couple of days maybe weeks there? I know I’d love too especially during holidays when several hotels in orlando are doing major slash on their rates. Take for instance that hotel on the pic, it’s inside Disney itself and is less than a hundred dollars per night, isn’t that a bargain or what??!!!

I have seen the 2004 movie starring Gerard Butler as Erik, Emmy Rossum as Christine and Patrick Wilson as Raoul on the big screen and bought the DVD copy of it as well … I just finished watching it for the nth time and it still makes me teary-eyed.  I have been obsessed with this theatrical piece ever since I can remember, I have not read the original by Gaston Leroux but has read “The Phantom” by Susan Kaye over and over, I love it. So when the 2004 rendition came to the big screen I was very excited.  This part gives me the chill every time I watch it …

Here’s a stunning tv performance of the song “All I Ask Of You” by Emmy Rossum and Patrick Wilson, I find it amazing how calm he looks while singing … and Emmy is just … perfect! I love them both.

Hopefully one day I’d be able to watch it on stage … *sigh* what I’d give to be able to do that now, I know you might think am the emo/goth/rock chick but I do have a flair for Broadway and the musicals, this being just one of ‘em.

The Phantom of the Opera reminds me of Belle and the Beast the major difference is it had a happy ending and they live happily ever after … but then The Phantom of the Opera won’t be as dramatic, as haunting, as tragic as it is if Christine chose Erik now would it? … *sigh*

This rendition of the song “Phantom of the Opera” by the Finnish band Nightwish, old Nightwish that is with Tarja Turunen on the lead vocals is an absolute favorite of mine … I love it more than the Sarah Brightman and Antonio Bandera’s version. When they kicked her out and replaced her with Anette Olzon, the band declared that they will never play this song live ever again and I can imagine why. It wouldn’t sound right if Tarja’s not singing it. Her voice is just powerful.

Lets just say am one of the many fans who love old Nightwish more than the new one. These guys rock!

I thought am over it but one incident and I snapped … you know like one of those people who just got out of rehab for something to start anew only to snap and break at some point then the vicious cycle would begin all over again.

It started with a teeny weeny neglect on my part, during my last break I headed straight to my locker to get some pain reliever … my head has been hurting since 9AM, it hurt so bad I thought its gonna burst. Unfortunately there weren’t any in my med kit [I always have one with me] so I headed to the clinic where the nurse on duty ushered me to have a word with the doctor. I didn’t know that my file was rather thick what with all the accumulated med certs and when the doctor checked on my file she asked about my suppose to be admission last week. It was then when I told her that I didn’t go through it and explained my reasons.

She gave a whole lotta lecture … I told her I cannot admit myself to the hospital because I don’t have anyone to look out for me … to process the papers and run the errands. She mistook that as me being a transient here where my family is in the province or something and insisted that friends are always there.

I snapped and broke down when she said, she doesn’t want it to come to a point where the clinic has to call my family about my condition. I almost yelled at her and said there’s no one to call. Can’t you see? I said I am alone … a one man army. I could be hit by a car on my home or drop dead in the middle of the street and there’s no one to call.  She apologized but the damage was done and it dawned on me that though it’s close to two years am still not over it.

I was one hell of a mess when I got back to the floor … on the elevator ride I was composing reasons to explain my suddenly bloodshot eyes and to explain why I was way over break … Good thing there was VGH and I went home but I guess I still have some explaining to do to Te Kate … she saw my eyes and knows that something bad must have happened for me to cry like I did. *sigh* And here I thought am f^ck!n strong and well adjusted only to realize that I’d have to start rehab again and work on achieving emotional stability.

So much for being nonchalant and for the happy facade.

One of the many things you can’t do where am at lol. Snow, winter and white christmas … not here. But seeing movies with ski vacation themes and scenes makes me wonder what it must be like. I was told if you want to feel what snow’s like then just scrape the building ice on the walls of your freezer and that’s it. Tugs! But I wonder if I’ll ever get the chance to learn how to ski … maybe … someday.

and there might just be a third … lol. Okay so I filed for leave [unpaid! as always] on the 23rd and the 24th and on the 29th all the way to the 5th of December. Doi was right if I cannot find someone to accompany me on my “laags” then I’ll go on my own … what are these feet for??? nyahahaha.

But really am crossing my fingers that all of ‘em would get approved … work has been work … and there are several faces I prefer not to see and bump into the halls but as Bena said, we gotta endure, I gotta endure for the fulfillment of my plans.

So Weng, quit being stingy! yikes!

I still have my school textbooks from kindergarten all the way to college and I guess right now I am willing to let go of those really old ones like the ones from my preschool years . I didn’t let them go before thinking that someday I might have a need for them but right now they are taking up much space and are collecting dusts that I think donating them to one of those donate a book cause would be a good idea.

For the first time in 3 years I was actually smiling at something work related.  As you might already know I am under new management, female management this time and I have made a promise to myself that should I be transferred to her team [I did beg her to take me] that I would give her a shot. I have always been partial with female team leads but this time I vow to give it a positive outlook. I was taking calls earlier when the goodies above were distributed … since my team lead was around she convinced the OM and SOM to start distributing these goodies to the agents and our team was the first to get ‘em. Whopppeeee!!!

This is a first for Microsoft and I must say this surely made all of the agents happy … when Windows Vista was released we were hoping we’d be given promotional kits but given that the OS in itself is very very expensive it became just a dream … when Windows 7 was still in the making … some of us did wish to be given a copy but given my experience with the Vista launching, I didn’t think so.

The tech support for Windows 7 did get these goodies first and I thought it was rather fitting for them to be given one but as for us “human switchboards” it was too fancy to be true. Microsoft has been very generous this time and provided everybody our very own copy of a full version copy of Windows 7 Ultimate! not Home Premium but Ultimate … whooooohooooo.

Everybody’s happy and I guess this was the morale booster … everybody has been looking for. They’ve really outdone themselves this time … sure the blankets, mugs, bags and shirts were okay but they were well pretty generic but this … definitely exceeds expectations!

Will they give us promotional kits when Office 2010 gets released???? Crossing my fingers …. lol

I am one of the many younger people out there who’s in favor and thankful for the internet era which gives us the opportunity to study anywhere at anytime so long as you have your laptop and there’s internet connection. A friend of mine said she can take that vacation in Hawaii and at the same time take the LSAT prep class she found online. Afterall who says you can’t sip pina colada in a two piece while reading your online course material by the beach somewhere in Hawaii??

I’d love to have one of those fancy tv stands you see in the malls, I saw some online and I cannot believe the rather huge price difference. My friend said to think of the difference as the sales and import tax … toinks! I guess she’s right but still if I could figure out how much the shipping and handling would cost I’d prolly opt to buying one online. Hmmm … we’ll see, Christmas is fast approaching and this one sure is on my list.

Oh well … that’s the name of one of the swaps I joined in on swap-bot and though the word “happy” is a bit too much for me. lol But I liked the idea of the swap so I’ve made my list. I was not contented on just writing it on a paper or on just printing it. I’ve posted some of the pics I’ve taken on my other blog but I guess I’ll post a few of ‘em here too.

Given the fact that I am very fickle-minded the things in this lists comes in no specific order.

1. Coffee [herbal that is as am asthmatic and caffeine is not good for me]
2. Sunrise and Sunset [being a mooshy mushy person, one of the things that'd take my breath away is seeing the sun rise and set by the beach]
3. Heavy rain [so long as am at home]
4. A surprise envie from a total stranger [no chain letters though]
5. A perfectly served order from any fast food [special order: plain rice and scrambled eggs]
6. Vacation Leaves [even if it's just staying at home tinkering with my notebook]
7. Internet [am a certified web junkie, my life is mostly online]
8. A pink surprise
9. The chance to get on my skateboard and skate away in the streets in the middle of the night with no one watching
10. A signature hot choco from Starbucks
11. The neighbor’s cat purring at my feet while I try to find my keys to open the house.
12. Curling up in the sofa with a good book on a rainy Friday night.
13. School [I love school, must be coz am a geek lol]
14. Books, books, books [I spend most of my time in the mall on the books section wishing I have a huge library with all those books]
15. Watching my favorite animes over and over
16. Restdays [I don't like my work but it pays the bills]
17. Scrapbooking [this gives me peace and a sense of being detached from everything else]
18. Being able to go to another country where no one knows me and to the eyes of the people am just another tourist.
19. A silent cab ride [I hate talkative cab drivers! I want a ride in silence]
20. Rainy friday nights
21. Dinner with friends.
22. Stationeries [I have a lot but I just can't get enough of them]
23. Perfume [I collect the bottles especially those with unique shapes]
24. Stilletos  [am addicted to 'em]
25. Bags [am addicted to 'em]
26. Koalas, pandas, teddy bears, dolphins and unicorns
27. Faeries [stickers, postcards, atc's, stationeries]
28. Fantasy stories
29. Romantic comedy movies
30. A simple text message from someone special
31. The chance to be able to visit Japan
32. A trip to Xiamen and Beijing.
33. Reminiscing of the good ol days
34. A purchase from my ebay store
35. A sweet comment on my profile
36. Sales and good finds at flea markets
37. Being remembered on my birthday
38. A pink and black skateboard
39. Dinner at Big Mao
40. Talk of things not work related
41. No asthma attack for one straight week [impossible to come by these days]
42. Whimsy jar of scrapbooking goodies
43. A pink and brown themed matchbox
44. An altered journal
45. Anything Monokuro Boo
46. Anything Emily The Strange
47. Ribbons, ribbons, ribbons, ribbons and lots of scrapbooking ribbons.
48. Not having to see the face of my boss [impossible really!]
49. An uneventful day at work [no sup calls, no developer calls and most of all no sarcastic team leads]
50. Early out or voluntary go home at work [meaning I get to log off way ahead of my end shift]
51. The sound of Maaya Sakamoto on my iPod.
52. Being left alone to do my thing [no nagging please]
53. Working on Christmas Eve and New Year’s Eve [thats prolly the only times I look forward to working, I don't celebrate Christmas and choosing between spending Christmas at home and work, I chose work]
54. The silence of midnight all the way to early dawn.
55. Full moon
56. A long uninterrupted sleep
57. A simple act of kindness
58. A smile from a total stranger
59. Making an elderly smile
60. Memories of mom
61. Fulfilled promises
62. Alex Band [I just love him!]
63. A stamp album [can't find one here]
64. smell of hot choco
65. Envy by Gucci
66. Diddl [letter pads, letter sets, memo pads, note pads]
67. Pink Luggage trolley
68. Pink shoelaces
69. Chuck Taylor
70. Deco Tapes
71. Huggables
72. Paper Goodies
74. Stickers, Stickers, Stickers, and lots of stickers
75. Macbook
76. Band shirts
77. Pink and Brown matchbox
78. Card stocks
79. Die Cuts
80. Note cards [lots of 'em]
81. A 12×12 scrapbook album
82. Castles [postcards, letter sets, stickers]
83. Anything Kawaii
84. Dawn
85. Starbucks Mug
86. Pink Address Book
87. Pink ink Pens
88. Pink socks [ankles only]
89. alterned journal
90. keepsake box with teeny weeny compartments for teeny weeny things
91. buttons [for scrapbooking that is]
92. embellishments
93. cupcake goodies
94. manga [old and new]
95. notebooks [i just love them]
96. A Sweet Valley pocketbook [am working on collecting all novels staring from SV Kids all the way to University]
97. Anything of Emily the Strange
98. Any of Brandon Boyd’s books and paintings [he rocks! and am a huge fan]
99. Butterflies
100. Whimsies

His wish list is just impossible, he wants one of those plasma tvs you see on commercials. Impossible … especially when the worth of our exchanging gift is just 500 bucks. Thankfully am not the one who got his name and he doesn’t have anything else on his list. Can you imagine??!!! Such an a$$hOl3 … lol. Anyways as for me … the usual, books and books. I just hope whoever got my name would be able to find at least one of the titles am looking for.

Everything about her rocks!!!! I am currently on the lookout for everything Emily the Strange, the next time I drop by Fully Booked, I’ll check if they have the books and will definitely get ‘em. Whew!

She rocks!!!! An Emily the Strange skateboard would definitely make my day …. uhmmm my birthday’s fast approaching … anyone???? lol

Hahaha that’s what I’d like to think of my situation now lol. The doctor’s recommendation was that I be admitted but I don’t want to so she said the next best thing is to have me stay at home and rest so HOUSE ARREST bwahahahah.

I will have a new team lead starting next week, an obsessive compulsive female who normally would have cause my insides to go upside down but given the several choices of the available team leads on the floor she’s okay. I mean she was my friend first before she becomes my team lead and we’ll see how this goes otherwise there’s always the option to leave. My resignation letter is just one print away; and oh they bloody issued an NTE for me … for not calling in when I was absent for a day.

When you’re breathing is not as normal like most people and the air around you seems to run out calling the office is the least of your worries but then management is always management and being the lowly agent that I am all I can do is bow down and curse all of ‘em under my breath.

Isn’t it cute?? Hehehe I think it is and its part of the Holiday Fun Eyeglasses shipment part of the New Arrivals of the well known $8 Prescription Zenni Glasses. They have several cute and new designs all in time for the holiday seasons and right now I am thinking of getting a new one just like the one on the picture above … or maybe I could an Emily the Strange designed frame lol. My last glasses were of a Mickey Mouse designed frame … its time to go frame hunting!

ADVISED FOR ADMISSION to the hospital. That’s what my doctor said but being the stubborn brat that I am I said NO WAY. But truth be told, I don’t want to be admitted because I have no one to look after me, am a one man machine you know. If I’m gonna be admitted no one’s gonna run errands for me like buying the prescription from the doctor or processing the papers, no one’s gonna do that for me. So NO WAY am I gonna go admit myself.

What pissed me off were the stupid questions someone from work asked.

Me: I left my med cert in the office earlier today, do I have to call in every day am absent.

Person on the other line: Okay and Yes, I’m afraid you’d have to. What’s wrong with you again?

Me: [didn't you just read my med cert? It's on your f^ck!ng table] Asthma attacks again.

Person on the other line: Are you still having that condition?

Me: [*sigh* dum dum] Yes

Person on the other line: Can’t you come on in today?

Me: [bloody hell! you sure are stupid, aren't you???!!!] No, I can’t.

Person on the other line: Oh I see….. blah blah blah blah

For someone I thought rather decent and cute this person sure sounded stupid earlier. It was clearly stated, Doctor’s Recommendation: ADVISED FOR ADMISSION.  Now you reader, if you read the doctor’s recommendation,  would you still ask that person if he/she can come on in to work????!!!!

So the shoebox was given to me by Lovely on the Christmas of 1998, we were in our 6th grade, inside the box was the stone and a handmade journal. It was my first ever keepsake box and I have kept it since then. I was going through my stuff when I found it safely tucked away amongst the things mom considered [childhood memories]. It held all of the things I considered precious back when I was 12, letters [from her and RJ], birthday cards [from the rest of Magic 17] and what not.

I was told that the friends you meet in college are the ones who’d be your friends for life … I beg to differ, these two whom I met when I was in the elementary grade are my best friends for life and though we part ways [we did with college] we’d always find our way back.

Here’s a list of things I hope to accomplish for this week’s rest days: [Am crossing my fingers to get them all done!]

- Visit Mom [Priority 1; Severity 1!]

- Mail out all the envies [for my swaps, tags and sales]

- Update my ebay store and the rest of my blogs.

- Go to the Chinese Embassy and process a Tourist Visa

- Email someone [I have been neglecting his mail for the past two weeks now, lol. Am dead!]

- Sort out my stuff [stickers and what not]

- Scrapbook [here we go again!]

- Finish my swap-bot organizer [I need to have this done ASAP!]

- Get ready for the launch of Windows 7 [I can't believe I just f^ck!ng said that ... tugs!]

- Clean up my cluttered [hard disk drives]. Files are just everywhere.

- Try to stay WELL, I mean NO ASTHMA ATTACKS pls. [but with these past few months, a day without one is like a miracle from heavens!]

Did I just tell you am busy??? No wonder am the oldest 23 year old I know!

Am not gonna say Sunday … not the band that is lol. Okay what am about to write is the freakin cast off heated mattress pads she gave me [against my will that is, mind you] last last year right after winter solstice but guess what she’s asking for it again! With the nonchalant approach that goes like this, hey remember that matty I gave you say last year??? well … can I have ‘em back please. I was like, I puked and peed on it … you still want it. She looked at me in the eye with the blank stare of a lunatic. Is it me or has the world gone haywire?

Back in September before RJ and Vince leave for Cagayan and stay there for over a year the three of us [Rose, RJ and moi] had lunch at Bigby’s in Ayala. we’re sure gonna miss her but then again each of us have to go our separate ways and follow the road that life takes us. For her and Vince [we just adore him too] that’d be spending a year with RJ’s dad in Cagayan as a nurse in one of the public hospitals there while processing their papers for Canada. Meanwhile Rose and I are still in Cebu, though Rose would prolly be leaving for Dubai pretty soon and join her Mom and Dad who are pretty much established there. That’d leave me … alone … again … on my own … in the city I grew up in. *sigh*

- my strawberry milkshake -

- RJ’s order … forgot the name lol -

- French Fries -

- Carbonara for Rose -

- That’s for me but I totally forgot the name lol -

- the beautiful RJ -

- the shy Rose -

- My Left Over lol -

So no photos of moi as am the one taking them! Waaaaaaaaa tugs! Anyways, the food was yummy though as usual I was not able to finish up all of mine [this is rather normal so they're used to it]. RJ and Vince are already in Cagayan safe and sound, and we missed her terribly. Thank God for Facebook, YM and IM … communication is just a few clicks away lol.

I have been a member at postcrossing for 5 months now and have received several wonderful postcards from people all over the world. Today I got this postcard from Germany, isn’t it lovely???

Well, ever since I lent my phone to Vince, I haven’t had any for I dunno close to a week now. lol. I have another phone, the one given to me by RJ [one of my best friends] way back in college. It’s a teeny weeny phone actually, a silver flip phone. I have not used it for three years now and I dunno am just feeling rather lazy in charging it. I’m not a mobile person, I don’t text a lot … literally it’d be surprising for me to send more than 5 messages in a day, most days I don’t touch it. Tugs!

But I might have to charge it and start using it especially as am going back to work, I almost always text Bena the cab’s plate number on my way to work. Speaking of work … *sigh* work sucks!

What’s suppose to come next to that phrase is the word “affection” right?? I mean typically that’s the common word but not with him. I always thought they look good together and after seeing them all sugary sweet one time I thought that was the real deal. Unfortunately it wasn’t and many of us wondered why … they just drifted apart from the sugary sweetness to the cold “hi and hello” kinda thing. Without knowing fully well why I kept on teasing him senseless and he’d say, “We gotta talk about that” … and I was like yeah … what really happened???

We never got to talk about it … we only did just a couple of weeks ago and I’ve been teasing him for months!!! Now what turned out to be the object of his affection turned out to be the very person who’s now making him wanna puke! Can you imagine???!!!!!

This is what happens when love turns ….. sour!

I run across this word while googling for a 1906 one peso Philippine coin, I want one .. we’ll am looking forward to starting a 1900 and onwards collection of the one peso coins and though that’s gonna mean a whole lotta money but am pretty excited about it.

Am on leave since the 12th and won’t be back till the 18th supposedly so I could study for the comprehensive exam but life took on a different course and I didn’t make it to the application deadline. So yeah, another wasted year for me … I didn’t go out of the country [I'd love to] because I don’t anyone to accompany me. What’s keeping me busy these days are the following:

I am back on track with fb’s and what not and ever since I joined swap-bot I’ve been addicted since then, met really nice folks who loves getting mails like I do. I’m also working on my ebay store, my scrapbook, and other altered stuff. I found another outlet and am loving it, wish I could just stay where I am and not go back to work … and deal with … nevermind.

Leslie and her family are on the move again, this would prolly be there 5 for this year. It must suck to have to go move to another city every so often. Her father’s job is taking them everywhere that she must have attended several schools already and have really form real deep friendship over the course of the years right now they are moving to another state and so her mom’s looking for long distance movers to help them out move their stuff. Good luck Les!