My Pink Shoelace

Saw this tag on OneAttitude.com; and being the meme lover that I am, I grabbed it and answered it. Here it goes:

1. Name one person who made you laugh last night?

• I was crying the whole of last night so this isn’t applicable

2. What were you doing at 0800?

• pondering

3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?

• writing

4. What happened to you in 2006?

• Finished college with flying colors, got hired for my first and current job

5. What was the last thing you said out loud?

• I’ll skin you alive if you hurt her.

6. How many beverages did you have today?

• Countless and that’s coffee.

7. What color is your hairbrush?

• I don’t brush my hair

8. What was the last thing you paid for?

• My credit card

9. Where were you last night?

• At home crying

10. What color is your front door?

• Dunno … am color blind.

11. Where do you keep your change?

• In my lil coin purse.

12. What’s the weather like today?

• dunno

13. What’s the best ice-cream flavor?

• cookies and cream

14. What excites you?

• Am numb so couldn’t feel anything

15. Do you want to cut your hair?

• no

16. Are you over the age of 25?

• nope

17. Do you talk a lot?

• Online yeah … am such a blabbermouth

18. Do you watch the O.C.? No.
19. Do you know anyone named Steven?

• Yes. A good friend living and hunting in Tennessee

20. Do you make up your own words?

• yeah.

21. Are you a jealous person? Yes very … to say am possessive is true
22. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘A’.

• Alrose

23. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘K’.

• Keith

24. Who’s the first person on your received call list?

• Bob

25. What does the last text message you received say?

• Are you alright?

26. Do you chew on your straw? No.
27. Do you have curly hair? Hell yeah.
28. Where’s the next place you’re going to?

• The office to see someone and someone else.

29. Who’s the rudest person in your life?

• My bestfriend’s ex-girlfriend

30. What was the last thing you ate?

• crackers

31. Will you get married in the future? If he ask me to marry him, damn I’ll marry him anytime and anywhere.
32. What’s the best movie you’ve seen in the past 2 weeks?

• Nah …

33. Is there anyone you like right now? Yep yep yep … like is not even enough to describe it
34. When was the last time you did the dishes?

• Just now.

35. Are you currently depressed? A bit I guess.
36. Did you cry today? Yeah, bucketful of tears.
37. Why did you answer and post this?

• I love memes and I’d grab and answer anything I can find.

Tears are falling nonstop from my eyes as of writing this … I just got home after spending the afternoon with people from work; in my drunken state of mind when am at my lowest and weakest state of being it was a miracle I got home safe and sound.

What I witnessed when I got home crashed what’s left of my spirit, my mom was crying. Crying like I’ve never seen her before , I’ve never seen her so scared, so helpless. They were having a fight my drunk uncle and her, they never got along ever since they were lil but this time she said he was threatening to kill her. Closing the oxygen tank, even for just two minutes would render her dead. I was so mad no that’s not the word I was furious. I could have killed him myself … you can take anything and anyone from me just not her. The last thing I want to see is her tears, am drunk and so is he I yelled, cursed, cried and screamed at the same time.

Am the only one earning for the three of us the least you can do is make things peaceful for me at home, to set aside your differences and live as adults ought to be. I keep telling him he has to be patient and has to bear with my mom, she’s sick damn we all know she’s dying the least you can do is make the last remaining days easier for her.

I was scared of what he can do, of what he might do when am not around, I hate the idea of my mom in constant fear of him and what he can do. I was happy with his presence as he made it easier for us to change my mom’s tank but now … now with what he’s done am just plain scared.

Told him if you’re gonna kill her then do us both otherwise I’ll skin him alive.

They were forced to send me home, after lunch I’ve been puking my guts out … less than 5 minute interval of my trip to the restroom. I puked what I ate, I told my TL that he told me to ask DM to let me go but the as we were queuing he said no. When my TL saw me he asked how it went I said they can’t coz its queuing. But then I can’t take calls when I puke every once in a while and there seems to be something sour constantly stuck in my throat . He send me home dunno what he’s done but he was able to send me home, I certainly can’t take calls feeling like this.

1. Two names I go by: Wena and Weng
2. Two things I am wearing right now: pink pyjamas and pink sleeveless blouse
3. Two things I want (or have) in a relationship: what kind of relationship? Hehehe I want love and affection.
4. Two things I like to do: cuddling and shopping
5. Two things I want very badly in this moment: his voice and his smile … in short his presence. *sigh*
6. Two things I did last night: slept in preparation for work early morning
7. Two things I ate today: sandwich and coffee
9. Two things I am doing tomorrow: work and lunch with my team mates
10. Two favourite days of the week: Saturday and Sunday
11. Two favourite holidays: Christmas and New Year
12. Two favourite beverages: Coffee and Iced Tea
13. Two things about me that you may not have known: Am falling fast with someone who doesn’t seem to realize it and am almost always lonely.
14. Two jobs that I have had in my life: English tutor, customer service rep.
15. Two movies I would watch over and over: The Phantom of the Opera and The Count of Monte Cristo
16. Two places I have lived: Cebu
17. Two of my favourite food: Lasagna and French fries
18. Two places I would rather be right now: Anywhere in the world as long as am with him.Am passing this tag on to a good friend and workmate : Eds (congratz bro … so happy for yah, you deserve it.); to mah bro Lex (can’t thank you enough …); to Vera (mah friend, nurse, ate all rolled into one.)

 ‘Twas Sunday, November 24, 2007 where Eds, Lex and I had our share of pizza marathon. After shift Eds and I waited for Lex at Chow King and ate … long before she arrived we were able to finish chao fan and rice toppings and siomai. When Lex arrived we moved to Shakeys and ordered Family Deal #1 which was a combination of one whole pizza, a platter of spaghetti, a basket of garlic bread and a pitcher of iced tea.

Over those food, we talked about work, the issues at work, who’s with whom and what’s with what. Then we talked about blogging and the whole blogging industry, from the rising mogul herself we learned a couple of valuable tips. People who’ll over hear us would most probably think we’re nuts from outer space, seems like we’re talking alieniesie when we’re on Earth. Heheheh I had fun and a full stomach, which was fine … it doesnt happen all the time.

There were pics taken but as Lex and Eds wants anonymity then I’ll just store them in my hard drive for memory’s sake.

Was at work … being the weekend shift, call volume was that low, wait time was around 10 to 15 minutes. Visited my imeem account, and played this song. So emoooo … am waiting for a call too … a call I know will never materialize. Why? Cause though he has my phone number and my mobile number he doesn’t have any reason to call at all. *sigh*When emotions are unrequited and you know you’re left hanging but still you continue to hang on hoping against hope that someday, someday things will turn ou

ur way.

Your Call by Secondhand Serenade

Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry 

Call I'm desperate for your voice 

Listening to the song we used to sing 

In the car, do you remember 

Butterfly, Early Summer 

It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet 

I was born to tell you I love you 

And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine 

Stay with me tonight 

Stripped and polished, I am new, I am fresh 

I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh 

Because every breath that you will take 

when you are sitting next to me 

will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy? 

What's your...

I was born to tell you I love you 

And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine 

Stay with me tonight 

And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home 

x4 

(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have) 

I was born to tell you I love you 

And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine 

Stay with me tonight 

I was born to tell you I love you 

And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine 

Stay with me tonight 

(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have) 

Traditional
Sagittarius Traits

Optimistic and freedom-loving
Jovial and good-humored
Honest and straightforward
Intellectual and philosophical

On the dark side….

Blindly optimistic and careless
Irresponsible and superficial
Tactless and restless

Sagittarians are incurable and lovable optimists, and tend to inject all those around them with their infectious enthusiasm. He/ she is ideal company when you’re down and will bring back positivity and joy in your life.

Sagittarians are also blessed with the gift of the gab and can talk the hind leg off a donkey. They’re usually full of philosophy and worldly wisdom, searching for the true meaning of life, and will ponder on problems all through their existence. Faith and belief is all important to these Archers. Sagittarians are ruled by Jupiter and because it’s the largest planet in the heavens, it gives some of these people ideas. This can be a terrific trait, because it simply means that the Sagittarian is always striving for better things.

This is the universal sign, and all Archers are tantalised by travel and the thought of far flung corners of the globe. This desire to get out and see the world for themselves can be the making of positive Sagittarians. They tend to make the most of every opportunity that arises, and their brilliant perception and vision can often spot a chance when others don’t think it’s there.

All Sagittarians need challenges, so don’t expect life to be one long lullaby if you fall head-over-heels with these romantic and expressive individuals. Love may mean never having to say you’re sorry to some folk, but to an Archer it means: “You go your way, and I’ll go mine.” Sagittarians hate to be tied down, either by people or places. They need to feel they’re free, though they demonstrate their caring streak by lending you their favourite books on planning an adventurous trip with you. Because Sagittarians have many friends, they’re always out and about and have different mates to do different things with.

Travel, is most definitely, the perfect profession for them, as Archers have to be active and roam about the globe meeting new people and experiencing various things. Books is another one of their obsessions and that can mean reading about far flung places or becoming immersed in something philosophical or literary. Astrology is one subject which can really get them going and they have to delve deeply into it.

This is an intellectual sign and Sagittarians can be real clever dogs, blessed with plenty of brain-power. Their 9-to-5 jobs are the happiest when they don’t know what the next hour will bring. They are very hot tempered at times and hurt many a people.

- It made me smile reading through this article coz it basically is true … as if reading my personality from the lines of my palm or something like that. -

Source: http://www.healthmantra.com/ashwita/astsa.htm

Spent the whole afternoon at Ratsky with my team mates, we had team lunch, team snack and whatever you might call it. From 2 till sun down, almost everyone was there I think … it was unlimited pizza of tuna, sausage, and mushroom variety and a choice of draft beer, coke or ice tea. I must have eaten a lot coz my tummy complained and I puked everything that I ate in 4 puking sessions …

Ronmar said I must be bulimic … uhmmm I dont binge eat and puke after … I eat normal rations and normal hours but then I still puke not by will but by nature.

‘Twas fun nonetheless … had fun with the antics of my team mates both sober and drunk. Penny had a pink cast on his foot and our scheds have changed.  I requested for it given my whole day class schedule on Saturdays, I need to have the Friday night off.

What could be worst than people doubting your words? Couldn’t think of anything else, after all the same scenarios I’ve come across in 22 years of existence I thought I would have hardened up but damn they still hurt, when the people you least expect to question what you just said did the unexpected. *sigh* …

Disappointing and crashing … but then again this is just another example of a lesson learned. Not to put too much belief and confidence in people you just met, not too believe in words which could have been sugar coated.

Hahay …. Yeah another disappointment on the day I turned 22. Whew!

… I was sick … fever and flu … though the nurse gave me meds to take but that didn’t alleviate whatever it was am feeling. My nose was stuffy, my throat hurts when I talk, am always on a spin … and my head hurts. I told you about it but you just laughed at me … I even said you can touch me if you’re in doubt but you laughed it off … alright … whatever you say.  I thought you’d believe me but obviously you didn’t, the very last person I expected to laugh on my face did the unforgettable and the unexpected. Now life is truly full of surprises and I certainly got my own dose. Ouch!! That hurts … when all these time I thought you cared, but eventually you didn’t. When I thought you’d understand and you won’t doubt what am gonna say or what I feel but I was damn so wrong. Lesson learned. And I can safely say you’re just like everyone else … another disappointment.  

    Girl meets Boy. Boy asks Girl out. Girl accepts. Boy asks Girl out again. Girl accepts again. Girl asks Boy out. Boy accepts. So, they start going out regularly. And everybody is happy. This goes on for a very long time. But Boy is mum. He keeps his cards close to his chest. And Girl imagines boy is waiting for the right moment.

    In the meantime, Girl starts building her hopes. And everyday, her heart beats a little bit faster in anticipation of the future. One day, unable to endure the unknown, she gathers the courage to ask Boy about the future. Boy is stunned. Boy declares he feels only friendship for her. Girl is crushed. What were all those months and years about?  

    Indeed, why do men and women go out with each other for prolonged periods of time with neither direction nor commitment? Well, although or two may be waiting for the right moment, the majority are simply not ready for direction of commitment so they cruise along in a safe, enjoyable and commitment-free relationship until the bubble bursts.

     Almost always, it is the woman who gets hurt because it is usually the women who make the most emotional investment in any relationship. And while men can go out with women and enjoy their company for prolonged period of time with little emotional attachment, women are not as emotionally detached and indifferent.

      I think that men and women could avoid so much pain in their lives if they treat each other with greater decency. Most of the time, we know when one is falling in love with the other and whether or not these feelings can be reciprocated. I have always believed that it is no sin to spend one’s time with someone who is also enjoying our company. But it is a great sin to continue to spend time with someone we know fully well is falling in love with us or is already in love with us when we know we can never see this person in the same light.

     We may cherish this person’s company. But we cannot continue to spend time with this person. We cannot build hopes of someone we know we can never fall for and or grow to love in the same manner. Decency dictates that we must sever the friendship to save the other, greater pain in the future.

     Why do men and women go out with each other for prolonged periods of time without direction and commitment? Because it is convenient. And it’s like having your cake and eating it too. It provides intimacy without commitment. Each can walk out anytime with little fuss and guilt. Because when no words are said and no feelings are declared, the relationship is not deemed binding although more descent human beings would beg to disagree.

     I think that these kinds of relationship can serve their own purpose at a particular point in time but only when both parties are fully aware of where they stand. After all, when there are no expectations of each other, there is a little cause of pain. But we don’t live in a perfect world where emotions can be programmed. Even spinsters can fall in love on mad, moonlit nights.

-          I posted this on the other site … but can’t help posting it here too … in my private thought space … this post … whoever created this in the first place perfectly shows the “cowardice” of men when it comes to emotional attachment. The very reason why I tread on tip toes when it comes to relationships and who knows what else. Somehow its easier if at the onset both parties knew it’d only be platonic till the end … when expectations are set from the beginning, friends nothing more nothing less. True to what the post says … its almost always the girl at the losing end. Why? Coz as much as we wanna  detach ourselves emotionally we can’t for long … eventually we’re bound to invest in feelings unsure of to be reciprocated and that’s what really sucks.

-          Building up hopes … dreaming of what the future might bring … rationalizing that the guy is just waiting for the right time when the truth is it never cross his mind. Maybe it did at one point but then he changed his mind for reasons only him knows.  When you both knew there’s more to it than what meets the eye … when you both knew there’s more to it than the friendship you’ve shared but then again the guy never has the guts to take the initiative and let the relationship move forward.

-          Here I go again … ranting? Nah … its just another day … and there are no calls … I’ll be sleeping in a bit so I can get to work, which has by the way become suffocating … when the only reason I have for going to work is to see Creepy One giddy … to tell Wafa this and that … to tell he who must not be named to just freakin shut up … to stop telling me … am aggressive otherwise the teasing and the issue wouldn’t have cropped up … to just shove it in his face that he has no f^cking right to say the things he just said coz he doesn’t even know me to begin with …

-          Am pissed? Hell yeah … seating beside him yesterday brought out the bitch in me … he was irritating, judgmental, annoying and just abnormal … hate him …

-          This should be on another post but heck I can’t seem to stop typing.

Am writing this from work … low call volume due to the holidays in the US . Was looking for creeepy one coz TL just asked us to log off and go team meeting.

Since I was unable to locate him, I asked her the person sitting closest to me where he is. If I could paint or if it was in my capacity to capture the look on her face that would have been a masterpiece.I dunno, she was looking at me when I approached her but the moment I voiced out my question she looked down … dunno where she’s looking at … but she did answer my question while eyes were so intent on her screen and she was smiling.

Whew! Definitely a change … nyahahah … and I thought it was only creeeepy one thats affected … well its good to know that its not just my friend thats affected by the “virus”. I’ve come to accept the fact that he’s gonna continue what he has started with her and I think its only fair given that the girl is expecting it. Just glad to know that with the other one … they’re becoming “platatonic” waheheh … I know its platonic but thats what he used when describing us …

So for the moment I can safely say am happy for him and for the other girl … and yeah I’ll support him with her … and maybe just maybe I’ll be comfortable with her. Am crossing my fingers hoping or shall I say wishing for the best.

Blessed be …

Creeepy One was just plain happy … always grinning and is so damn busy with “outlook support”. Nyahahah what with 3 gals to respond to then you add me to the list *the assuming wife* accdg. to him. We talked via outlook, it was only there that somehow I get to speak my mind … I’ve never been good at talking … cant say he’s confused but is somewhat torn between the two … he said what his friends have to say do matter and me expressing my outright vote on someone else all the more made it buffling for him. We’re not close with the other one … the one whose got my vote, the one who seems to be more complicated, heck we’re not even friends. But why she got my vote … cant say. Aside from the fact that she’s cute … I like the way she thinks … creeepy one did let me read a few lines she said during their email exchange and damn! I so agree on what she has to say …

Creepy One forwarded a specific line she said … on her stand about courtship and the whole bs … just told him what she said made me like her more. *haaaayyyy* … If I had my way it should be them and not the other one, don’t have anything against her its just that when it comes to the “love lives” of the people I care about my hunches were never wrong … the very reason why am careful … why I tread on tip toes when it comes to mine.

But then this gal I like for him is “taken” … so? I told him … that doesn’t mean she can’t look for someone else. Am not pro on stealing girlfriends … but then if you think you can love that person more than anyone else can then you gotta show it. Stealing is bad but proving your intentions to be as real or more than anyone else certainly doesnt hurt. Shouldnt say he’s a coward but am on the verge of thinking he is … the girl is taken … so let it be it.  Hahay … why do most people think that way?

The way I see it the gal likes her too … but being the girl … she certainly cant come up to him and say ” hey you know what, I really like you … care to take this platonic relationship to the next level? ” … I’d worship the ground she walks on if she can muster the nerve to say that … even I can’t do it … the pride … the embedded nature of being a girl would stop me from doing so.

Arggghhh… the agony of being a girl … of waiting for what might and what might not be.

I did tell creepy one to finish what he’s started coz the other girl’s expecting it … he asked “how do you know? are you speaking from experience?” … laughed at him and said … “never mind that creepy one … am a girl and I should know” … he was like … “somehow what you’re saying makes sense.”

Nyahahah … what am saying almost always makes sense its just that the party listening is either too stupid to make out whats emaphasized between the lines or is too numb to even care.

Am I ranting? No … just blabbering … why does love have to be so confusing … is it even love he’s feeling? Toinks .. good question … can’t ask him that … don’t have the right to after all I myself never knew how that feels … its a commodity  so hard to come by and somehow people are just too occupied to spare some.

‘Twas raining hard accompanied by strong gust of wind, it was around 1 in the afternoon and I need to go out of the house and buy grapes for my mom. So I went out armed with my umbrella … now on the way home with my small grocery bag and waiting for a cab or a jeepney which was hopeless. Every cab or jeepney that pass by is full so I decided to walk all the way home after all what are these feet for. Coz of the strong wind I was forced to throw my umbrella, it was useless and it got damaged. My plight caused me to smile while walking and the old lady I came across asked me in an annoyed tone why am smiling and what’s there to smile about when the weather is hellish. I said am smiling coz its raining, told her I love the rain.

Am bound to get sick eventually to say I was wet is an understatement, I was soaking wet. Heheheh my phone was wet yet miraculously it still played nonstop, mom was pissed coz not only am I gonna get sick but my bills are wet too … heheheh …

She said, you really are twisted … weird things tend to make you smile. Nyahahahah … not weird things ma, simple things, things people somehow took for granted is what make me happy. If I had my way I would have played patintero and run wild along the sidewalk outside our place. But then that’d mean our neighbors talking bout me losing my mind. Heheheh

Don’t care if I get sick, I already am what with yesterday’s sport fest under the rain. Though I didn’t participate in the activities but I still got wet.

Just got off the phone with Creepy One … I’ve never heard him so happy. Heheheh that made me happy too. He texted me asking if am awake then when I said yes, he asked for my home phone number … next thing I knew he was calling me and was such a blabbermouth. We talked nonestop about this girl he likes … though I dont like her for him coz I like the girl for someone else and there’s someone else I like for him … but who am I to intervene? I’ve always believed in doing whatever makes you happy … no matter what the cost is. Happiness is so hard to come by now a days that whenever it presents itself then it shouldnt be taken forgranted. So where was I …we talked for more than an hour I think and just cant miss the laughter and happiness in his voice. Told him to continue what he’s started and told him that though am not all out support for the girl but am all out support for him and whatever makes him happy. Then if she makes him happy then go … hehehe … The whole time we were talking it was a combination of laughter and the usual bickering … with a serious note.Love … or whatever it is thats taken its toll on him sure made him happy and brought out the child in him. Heheh if I’d have a brother I’d want it to be just like him. Funny and childish and plain creepy.Am smiling as I type this .. cant wait to see his face tonight. Another reason why I changed my mind about going absent

Fun Under the November Sun … thats whats written on the banner welcoming us to the beach. Yeah right november sun, more like november rain … in the cold november rain. Attended the company’s sportsfest yesterday w/o any sleep and with a major headache. Dragged myself from the pc to the event coz I promised Wafa and the Creepy One that I’d go … what’d I get in return? Hehehe a major flu, a gnawing headache, friendship with a cute gal (bound to be my classmate soon), and I get to talk to Mik. The guy is just so dense to the point of being annoying, he definitely needs coaching on girlfriend 101. I’ve never seen Wafa so tired, she also informed me that bookie’s sched has changed and that he’d be working on Saturday … so there goes our plan of going to Malapascua. Hate it!! I was a bit skeptical too with the kind of weather we have and with my classes on Saturday. *sigh*

I had fun looking at the people having fun … hehehe … lil gurl said, “Weng, lets not join in the games … all we’re here for is the photo shots”. Creepy One was busy too … what with battery, ipod and mentos all in one bus, whew! must have been to much too handle. Mykerts and I liked the same gal for him … she gives justice to the word cute and pretty. Hehehe … and we’d be more than happy if he chose her instead of anyone else. Saw this girl looking at him and it definitely means something, I mean it’d be the kind of look I’d give to someone I like. Way to go girl! I’ll talk to her one of these days … heheheh … can’t help but intervene.

My thoughts … no my mind is always on a spin. Was thinking my shift is still at 1:30 AM … it was that way the past 4 days so am assuming it has not changed, didn’t check on my sched as well yesterday after my shift ends.

Had a busy day after shift , from school to home then back to school again just so I can complete my enrollment (I hope its all worth the hassle), then Wafa and I took my tower and monitor to the shop so they can repair it. It’d take a bit of time for it  to get repaired. Bureaucracy and all … hehehe … they’d have the monitor sent to the manufacturer, would take  around a week for them to check on whats wrong would give me the feedback the soonest possible then hopefully we can get it up and running. (Cant afford to waste the router I purchased … hehehe). Don’t like the idea of them poking through my files … my ebooks, my photos (mine and wafa’s), my songs, my stories and all that so I asked for my hard disk … brought it home with me and tucked it safely in my drawer.

After we left the shop, we went straight to the office, I needed to get my cross stitch frame w/c is occupying our locker (wouldn’t wait for Momie Mier to complain) and to submit the loan form thingy.  On the cab we talked about this and that … the more we talked the more suffocated I’ve become. Work … the hassles at work, the rumors at work, the issues at work, people at work, all about work. And I felt strangled.

So far I haven’t heard anything good maybe am listening with the wrong ear, or maybe the right ear but with the wrong crowd. I dunno … it added to my feeling of ennui and disgust.

Must be the reason why my head is always on a spin when it comes to work. The people around me somehow appear as a blur … whew! Now that’s what I call on a high.

I should have tied my shoelace a long time ago and left without turning back … now don’t think I can … not without doing what I’ve set my heart on to in the interim of my 4^th and 6^th month.

Never thought I’d be enrolled for my masters, almost always it seems that the heavens is against my plan of studying. Either it’d rain or I’d have tummyache making me lazy to go to school to complete the enrolment. But by the grace of all the angels and demons surrounding me I finally finished my enrolment earlier.’Twas not an easy process either … grrrr … what sucks was am alone doing it. *sighs*

But never mind I finished it and am glad its over, would be going to school tomorrow. Would ask FC to let me go half day as my class would start by 8AM and my freaking shift ends at 10:30 AM. Dunno what I’ll do if they’ll say no … would prolly release all calls … heheheh am so bad … cant help it.

Am bored, to point of being suffocated. Am almost at my witts end … hopefully school, my upcoming escapade would alleviate whatever it is that am feeling … and make me almost normal again.

Was checking my yahoo mail and since I chose the new mail thingy … it showed automatically the people on my address book who are online, it also showed them that am online. TJ was not visible though he sent a message. The so familiar psssttt … it brought a smile to my face, reminds me of good ol days when he was still on the floor, my mentor and my friend. He asked if I finished my enrollment already (which I have not unfortunately) and what my subjects are. He informed me of his schedule and found out that we didn’t have anything in common. Am planning on taking two majors and one foundation, it prolly is good knowing his a bit insecure gf is with him all the time they’re prolly classmates too.

Remembered what Lex said, the people on the floor seem to link me with someone tall and dark (not charcoal) mind you hehehe, but TJ’s tall and dark and they’re teasing me with D whose also tall and dark … didn’t include the word handsome as that’s very subjective but that’s the case. Dunno how it started with TJ being the mentee and him the mentor we talked a lot and me being the talkative me and him being the silent him it made the whole thing normal. For us it was but it didn’t seem to look that way to others. Next thing we knew we were teased and we could no longer talk in the main chatroom, our conversations via Outlook, normal conversations are being monitored … got a screenshot at one point … our TL created a chatroom just for the both of us, we could no longer go eat lunch together coz that would cause bickering among the team, I was never late for lunch nor do I ever forget my sched coz he was like my human TKS. We almost always have the same lunch and he’d either drop by my station (if he’s seated far away) or would send an email in Outlook reminding me of my lunch. Hehehehe

We’re pretty close proximity wise but not emotionally or mentally, what made me say that? It was a shallow friendship … shallow in the sense that people would always see us together on the floor to the point of being inseparable but we never spoke of anything personal. ‘Twas the usual chitchat about work and school (he wants to take up education and sped), me being licensed to corrupt minds is the perfect person to talk to, though am pretty much useless most of the time as I speak nonsense but we talk nonetheless.

It was not the kind of friendship bound to last a lifetime, it was cool while it lasted. Looking back at it now he was just a plain acquaintance nothing more nothing less. Why were teased I have no clue … to say I liked him would be a lie coz I never did like him. He was just a fwend to begin with just like everyone else.

Is not an understatement but its a miracle. After all that I’ve been through with mom, work and all that. Talking to Lex and D, writing or shall I say blogging, is definitely making me content for what I have. It somehow lessened the burden I have to bear.

My very first post on this site … the name was suggested by Lex. So emo so cute.