My Pink Shoelace

Creeepy One was just plain happy … always grinning and is so damn busy with “outlook support”. Nyahahah what with 3 gals to respond to then you add me to the list *the assuming wife* accdg. to him. We talked via outlook, it was only there that somehow I get to speak my mind … I’ve never been good at talking … cant say he’s confused but is somewhat torn between the two … he said what his friends have to say do matter and me expressing my outright vote on someone else all the more made it buffling for him. We’re not close with the other one … the one whose got my vote, the one who seems to be more complicated, heck we’re not even friends. But why she got my vote … cant say. Aside from the fact that she’s cute … I like the way she thinks … creeepy one did let me read a few lines she said during their email exchange and damn! I so agree on what she has to say …

Creepy One forwarded a specific line she said … on her stand about courtship and the whole bs … just told him what she said made me like her more. *haaaayyyy* … If I had my way it should be them and not the other one, don’t have anything against her its just that when it comes to the “love lives” of the people I care about my hunches were never wrong … the very reason why am careful … why I tread on tip toes when it comes to mine.

But then this gal I like for him is “taken” … so? I told him … that doesn’t mean she can’t look for someone else. Am not pro on stealing girlfriends … but then if you think you can love that person more than anyone else can then you gotta show it. Stealing is bad but proving your intentions to be as real or more than anyone else certainly doesnt hurt. Shouldnt say he’s a coward but am on the verge of thinking he is … the girl is taken … so let it be it.  Hahay … why do most people think that way?

The way I see it the gal likes her too … but being the girl … she certainly cant come up to him and say ” hey you know what, I really like you … care to take this platonic relationship to the next level? ” … I’d worship the ground she walks on if she can muster the nerve to say that … even I can’t do it … the pride … the embedded nature of being a girl would stop me from doing so.

Arggghhh… the agony of being a girl … of waiting for what might and what might not be.

I did tell creepy one to finish what he’s started coz the other girl’s expecting it … he asked “how do you know? are you speaking from experience?” … laughed at him and said … “never mind that creepy one … am a girl and I should know” … he was like … “somehow what you’re saying makes sense.”

Nyahahah … what am saying almost always makes sense its just that the party listening is either too stupid to make out whats emaphasized between the lines or is too numb to even care.

Am I ranting? No … just blabbering … why does love have to be so confusing … is it even love he’s feeling? Toinks .. good question … can’t ask him that … don’t have the right to after all I myself never knew how that feels … its a commodity  so hard to come by and somehow people are just too occupied to spare some.