My Pink Shoelace

Was just doing my usual scouring on the net when I came across this site or more like a blog about the body mind spirit coexisting in harmony with one and nature. One of the posts that caught my eye was entitled how to think more positively especially since the image on the post was that of an iced tea. Read through the steps provided and simple as they seem but somehow people like me who’s on the verge of a “depression storm” havent had the time to notice. The author of the post said “Think about a positive attitude as much as you can, if not all the time.” Hmmm … tough!!! Just what like Eds said, its almost always difficult to write about positive thoughts or events coz somehow even you (the writer) would not be contented with what you’ve written and that it would appear to be so simple and shallow. Dark has always been what this blog contains … from the homepage itself all the way to the 3 months old posts, reading what I run into online somehow kinda steered me away from what I have been doing the past 3 heavily depressing months of my life.

Various categories are on the left side of this blog am reading, clicked under Personal Development and just like the homepage it has various posts that caught my eye too, Personal Transformation and Suffering Go Hand-in-Hand, how rational. The author said, Usually when I’m suffering, I’m so not happy about it. Same here, I mean who gets happy when suffering? But then again these sufferings are given to you for you to mature and grow as a person not only mentally but in all facets of your development.

Enlightening to know that these dilemmas am in, these depression am in, are just normal and though I think they’re graver than what most people suffer but hey who am I to know? Just as our mantra in my Philo class, even the dumb people have stories to tell. Would place this blog on my bookmarks, it definitely is a must read for people like me … who’se just going through the motions, looking for an escape in the hopes of find a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. Damn! Maybe … just maybe if I can steer myself away from these dark clouds I’d be able concentrate on self improvement schemes to make me better and …. sober (emotionally).

A good friend of mine is finally getting the promotion she applied for and with all confidence I know she’ll perform well with the new set of tasks ahead. I really am so happy and proud of her, we talked about this quite some time ago and now the results are to be made known officially later but through the grapevine, they told me or rather he told me about it and am just plain happy.

She deserves the raise and all that and she’s one of those people whom I know won’t crumble under pressure.  My sorta big ate … who just like me still giggles at the silliest of things, gives me those advices when I am confused (w/c according to Creepy One is often) and puts my weary soul at ease.

All the more reason for me to stay … seems like I’ve fallen in love with the floor, its issues, its people, its … everything. Hehehehe … and now Wafa is bound to pester me who A4 is … duh!!!

Herbie played this song while we were still waiting for calls, ’twas a weekend shift and as always it’d be low call volume if we’re not moved to Consumer. I’ve fallen in love with and I can’t get it outta my head. Here’s Apologize from One Republic.

I’m holding on your rope 

Got me ten feet off the ground 

And I’m hearing what you say 

But I just can’t make a sound 

You tell me that you need me 

Then you go and cut me down 

But wait... 

You tell me that you’re sorry 

Didn’t think I’d turn around and say.. 

That it’s too late to apologize, it’s too late 

I said it’s too late to apologize, it’s too late 

I’d take another chance, take a fall, take a shot for you 

And I need you like a heart needs a beat 

(But that's nothing new) 

Yeah yeah 

I loved you with a fire red, now it’s turning blue 

And you say 

Sorry like the angel heaven let me think was you 

But I’m afraid 

It’s too late to apologize, it’s too late 

I said it’s too late to apologize, it’s too late 

Woahooo woah 

It’s too late to apologize, it’s too late 

I said it’s too late to apologize, it’s too late 

I said it’s too late to apologize, yeah yeah 

I said it’s too late to apologize, a yeah 

I’m holding on your rope 

Got me ten feet off the ground...