Invictus
by William Ernest Henley; 1849-1903
Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.
In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.
Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find me, unafraid.
It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate;
I am the captain of my soul.
- a poem I’ve internalized since my high school years, my mantra through the ups and downs.
Clothes piled up in the laundry basket, and since this is the start of my rest day the moment I got home, I started doing the laundry. When that was done, I called up the learning center Mitchy and I visited sometime ago and talked to one of their personnel. Eric sent me a message informing me that they’re forming out a group and classes would begin this month, when I called him up, I got the details and classes would begin this monday, it’d be two sessions per week from 7Pm to 9Pm, there are 4 students listed and they’re just looking for one more. Since am interested, I confirmed over the phone so they can add me to the list and I’ll be visiting their office tomorrow to sign up for the registration and pay the initial fee.
This is the second step in realizing my long term goals, not much on moving up at work but more on moving up outside work. I have my classes for my masters degree on saturdays (whole day) then starting next week every mondays and wednesdays, I’ll have my classes for level 1 mandarin. It’s my intention to reach at least 3 before the year ends … used to think I can accomplish up to level 5 but that’d be too ambitious as each level has a duration of three months.
I need to keep myself busy … my mind occupied with positive and engaging matters otherwise I’d grow insane. So this is my way of exorcising the demons that haunt me … the fears and the deafening silence that I and only I must face alone.
