My Pink Shoelace

Was checking through my emails earlier and was getting a bunch of junk mails as usual. But one email caught my eye, free online casino. A bunch of online casino sites for various games, online slots, blackjacks, roullete, video poker and a lot more. I’ve heard of poker but didnt know such a thing as video poker exists.

Sorting through my other junk mails, found out that mail adverts for casino sites are a bit unreal. What I mean is the adverts they placed on the email is not as real as it is once you get to the site. Good thing there’s a site that provides full review, editor and user ratings among various online casino. It also delayed as it categorizes the sites according to games they’re most well known for.

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One of the nice things about blogging, aside from the fact that this is one of my favorite hobbies is the fact that am earning from it. I mean lets face it, getting your own hosting does not come for free, so I rant and I rave about the things that happen to me but I earn as well coz I do reviews every now and then. The trend among bloggers right now is to blog for money, but this has never been my primary goal when I first started blogging. I started writing since I was a lil girl and that was in various diaries I still have saved somewhere in the many boxes I have her in the house, with the advent of technology now, I’ve switched to blogging.

A good of mine has introduced this blogging bug to me and to her I’ll be forever grateful, not only did I found an outlet but I get to earn extra from it. I’ve introduced this mania to a good friend of mine as well and now … she can’t seem to stop. Wait till her blog’s old enough and I’d ask her to join Smorty too.

The nature of our work makes us more prone to wearing glasses. When I started getting headaches and my sight started to blur I went to see my doctor right away. I didn’t like it at first because I thought it wasn’t cool but I made a Great Discovery: Zenni Optical offers a wide selection of prescription glasses. I’m not surprised that a number of shops are offering the Zenni Optical: Sell Rx Glasses $8 with case! at all. Best Thing Found: Zenni Optical; I’m wearing mine now.

Felt so stupid when I arrived at the locker room only to find out my key was left at home, saw Mykers in the lobby and she did offer that I place my bag in their locker, problem is I won’t be able to get as they go home earlier than I do. Good thing D was there and being the nice super human that he is, I had my bag placed in their locker for the whole shift. So dilemma solved. When I went to the floor the first thing I noticed was Creepy One’s 7th heaven smile … and he said “yes”, I can’t describe how happy I was with his news, I figured sooner or later it will be them but getting the confirmation just sealed it. Last monday morning had breakfast with Ching and MJ, was with the cute one on our way to Ila Puti and Creepy One was there too … they left after we reached Ila Puti and the way she referred to the both of them as one was enough for me to tell that it’s either they’re done with the lecture or is on their way to finishing it.

Happiness is such a hard commodity to come by, that though I don’t have it for myself its safe to say am happy seeing it in people who means a lot to me. Creepy One is one of them and knowing him and what he’s been through, he deserves it and I wish them well.

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Was a bit disappointed when Kathy told me Vic can’t go with us to Palawan, he didn’t have any VL credits left so he won’t go. So its gonna be just me, Kathy and Rich; Was stunned by the way Rich asked me straight out yesterday if there’s anything between me and Vic, the way he pointed out that we went to Bohol together …. Is it so hard to believe that a girl and a guy are just plain friends nothing more nothing less? *sigh*

I just hope they’ll approve my leave for March and hopefully for February too … Out of nowhere Bebang and I decided to go to Bohol this Feb. 24 and 25 … since I have a class on Saturdays, we’ll prolly leave at night .. I’ve been to Bohol once, one of the memorable moments in this “emo” life I’m living, and am excited to go back with someone though not so close but someone I admire for the strength and positivity that she has.

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They let me go half day as am scheduled for appearance at DFA for my passport, was told I should be there at around 10 AM, called up their office to get hold of their agent’s number only to find out that am rescheduled at 1 PM … Grrr … After coming up the nerve to ask my TL if I can go half day, this is what I get. *sigh*

I’ll have my mandarin class again tonight and damn! its tough … there are like 6 of us and our teacher is a native speaker … its fun but it really is difficult. Am not giving up though, was asked why I studied mandarin, do I have any intention of migrating to China? … my answer is I dunno … I still have a lot of issues to settle, mom’s passing unearth a lot of old promises and deals … I need to make a stand on. Only then can I move on, once they’re closed as resolved.

One of the things I wanted to do online is setup an online store, I mean its what Wafa and I used to talk about. Initially what we wanna start doing. But when we got started to blogging we got hooked and now we’re stuck, not that we’re complaining mind you, we still talk about setting up our own online shop one of these days. Now that we both have our own lil corners in cyberpace, we barely have time to sort out our plans for the online store. We got one important detail settled though, the shopping cart software we’re gonna use, that’s the toughest aspect of the plan. Selecting the software you’re gonna use for your store is very crucial as this would be the tool used in processing the charges. It has to be secure and safe enough against the renegade hackers scouring the net. We’d be using ashop should we decide to setup our own online shop coz of the positive clients review we’ve read.

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There’s actually a site that lets you compare credit offers from several providers at one stop so you can find the perfect offer for you. This site aims to make it much easier for consumers so you should be able to come around financially in no time.

Am on PTO today and one of the TL’s around was surprised why am around and is taking calls.

To make matters worst for my “feelings” a colleague said am working for charity … grrrr…good thing one of the TL’s around created an email and sent it to the FC’s so they can do whatever it is that needs to be done … sucks to work and not getting paid for it.

Now am concerned on the leave that I filed for the 14th of next month, me and Aisat already have plans of going somewhere during those dates.

On the side … Steven Strait is just freaking hot!! And he’s a year younger than I, he’s got the body of a hunk and … and … nevermind (hehehe) would want him to be a sperm donor (yikes!).

After all other agents left …

I was queuing, if there’s such a phrase, there were calls waiting and it sucks to hear the team lead asking TR people to be reskilled to Pro to help me out, especially when I get to hear their voices and see their faces asking why … pouting. For my last break only took 5 minutes “kay naikog ko” … *sigh* why am I alone for the closing shift? The queue spikes up every now and then, and I had two contract creation cases in a row and the tool that I use is just not cooperating. Grrrrr ……. am typing this in my notepad, would upload this later, when am at home .. 40 more minutes and I should be outta here.

I lost my credit card!!!! Was in Starbucks Ayala earlier then was looking for a new phone (the one I bought last friday I sold to Ching, don’t like it anymore), now when my feet grew tired with all the walking and my arms numb with the paper bag am bringing, I went to Citibank to pay (Mitchy commented once why I pay them more than twice in a month) ’twas then I realized that I don’t have my card with me, I have my wallet which contains my money but I lost my card holder. Good thing I had my atm card for my pay and my two savings atm card in another wallet I left at home. So it’s my credit card, and my two debit cards. Grrrr … in the States they have this product called Walletlock from Lifelock.com wherein clients who are suffering from lost or stolen wallets can just make one single phone call to a Lifelock specialist who would do all the phone calls in having all the cards and other documents canceled and replaced. Ain’t that nice? With my case I had to call three banks, repeat the details three times which was draining and I dunno time consuming. So now I have to wait 7 to 10 working days for them to deliver my new cards.  Comparing the LifeLock promotion codes, they seem to be running a variety of subscription, dunno if such a company exist in my location and I don’t think they are running this service worldwide. It’d be added security I think and a hassle saver.

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In my circle of friends, there are 17 of us; 15 females and 2 males … we’ve been friends since first year high school up till now. When we parted ways in college, we made it a tradition that every Christmas we’d see one another and have our annual party, not only that but when there are other occasions almost everyone would be around. During the wake of my mom they were there, trying their best to cheer me up. Now one of us is finally a mommy to a cute baby girl, and of course all of us were instant godmothers and godfathers. After my class together with a friend we visited her in the hospital, she was breastfeeding the baby … I can’t describe how I felt at the moment it was a mixture of varying emotions. The baby is just so lovely and fragile, I was afraid to touch her.

We were joking amongst ourselves who would be the next mommy… seeing her and her baby made me wish I have one of my own. *wishful thinking* first things first, look for a sperm donor … hehehe.

Oh well … in my dreams I’ll definitely find him.

Got this from Lorie. Thank you girl!

1. I love to eat: lasagna and french fries …
2. I hate to eat: very salty foods
3. I love to go: to the beach and to different tourist spots.
4. I hate to go: out when its raining.
5. I love it when: we’re talking *ahem!*
6. I hate it when: he leaves without even informing me and am left hanging. (grrrrr….)
7. I love to see: the sunset and sunrise; and his smile (charrrrrroooottt!!)
8. I hate to see: men beating women.
9. I love to hear: music and his voice *sigh*
10. I hate to hear: the voices of women nagging

Am passing this meme on to friends I’ve met in person and online: Eds, Lex, Raquel, Wafa, Sarah, Jeanne.

Invictus

by William Ernest Henley; 1849-1903

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find me, unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate;
I am the captain of my soul.

- a poem I’ve internalized since my high school years, my mantra through the ups and downs.

Clothes piled up in the laundry basket, and since this is the start of my rest day the moment I got home, I started doing the laundry. When that was done, I called up the learning center Mitchy and I visited sometime ago and talked to one of their personnel. Eric sent me a message informing me that they’re forming out a group and classes would begin this month, when I called him up, I got the details and classes would begin this monday, it’d be two sessions per week from 7Pm to 9Pm, there are 4 students listed and they’re just looking for one more. Since am interested, I confirmed over the phone so they can add me to the list and I’ll be visiting their office tomorrow to sign up for the registration and pay the initial fee.

This is the second step in realizing my long term goals, not much on moving up at work but more on moving up outside work. I have my classes for my masters degree on saturdays (whole day) then starting next week every mondays and wednesdays, I’ll have my classes for level 1 mandarin. It’s my intention to reach at least 3 before the year ends … used to think I can accomplish up to level 5 but that’d be too ambitious as each level has a duration of three months.

I need to keep myself busy … my mind occupied with positive and engaging matters otherwise I’d grow insane. So this is my way of exorcising the demons that haunt me … the fears and the deafening silence that I and only I must face alone.

Mitchy waited for me till the end of my shift as were going downtown, Momie Mitch did the same; for the last hour of my shift I was s’posedly on Uptraining doing Knowlagent but when the FC’s not near I faced Bebang and Momie Mitch and engaged in another round of chikka session. Whenever he comes near I’d face my monitor again pretending to do Knowlagent (I only finished one assignment … hehehe) but only a fool would  believe am doing it.  *sigh* life, men, babies, marriage, and all the many complications in life we’ve tackled in an hour.  Me and my emotions, Bebang and her baby … so the joy of motherhood were the subject of our conversation, admired the new mom for her strength and in her I see hope and the future … I should stay near positive minded people, maybe their aura would influence mine.

Ate lunch in the pantry with Momie Mitch and Mitchy then we went to Robinson’s after, I need to have my passport done before February. So I had it changed from regular processing to rush processing and added an additional fee which was fine by me. I need to have things settled before August or September otherwise I’d be locked in an arrangement I don’t consent.

One of the pleasant things that happened for me today is Vic’s text message informing me he’ll come visit Cebu by the last week of January and that if time permits we’ll go somewhere with Kathy and Rich. It’d be nice to see him, he’s one of those people I actually trust and whom I know I’ll be safe with.

When we parted ways after our window shopping moments in Robi, I went to my old school to see a good friend and former classmate who’s now practicing the profession as I need to give him money and ask him to process my Honorable Dismissal for me, then I had a trip down memory lane.  Looking at the buildings, the benches, the rooms, and everything else made me think of the good and the bad times I’ve spent in it. Was smiling that “dreamy” kinda smile as I walk along the corridors and headed to the canteen … I must have looked foolish, but I can’t help it. Here I am after two years of not being there reminiscing …  when at one time …

A girl in her first year was asked by one of the instructors in charged of the recruitment process to accompany the team to the various satellite schools in the provinces of Cebu to recruit graduating high school students. So off they went visiting from one branch to the other … where at certain times she’d be asked to talk in front of the graduating class … blah blah blah.  That was early March … weeks just before the graduation ceremonies of these students.

June of the same year, she was standing in the lobby looking at the students below in the student’s lounge timidly when out of nowhere someone called her name.  She didn’t mind it … after all she was a bit known in her department. And so it went on like that for the next couple of months.  The guy who knew her name was a freshman and she was a sophomore at that time, they had different courses, he was  one of those students in one of the satellite schools she has visited.  He likes her but the girl is numb, he blushes and stutters when she’s around and would have that silly look on his face. These lasted till she graduated, it’d take a while for him to finish a sentence when talking to her, he somehow managed to get hold of a copy of her schedule and pass by her classroom every once in a while.

Now two years has passed since she graduated and visiting her old school, imagine who would she ran into, that same guy who blushed and stutters, fate? She doesn’t think so … she smiled he smiled and damn he still stutters.  They talked over spaghetti and shake in the canteen and he was still that very same guy he was two years ago … who looked silly and funny and cute at the same time. She pointedly asked why he’d stutter around her when he doesn’t with others … the smile he gave was one of the sweetest and silliest she has ever seen.

When they parted ways … he said … nothing compares to you … waved and walked away.

I was that girl and here I am smiling, pondering and thanking heavens for what occurred. It gave me butterflies in the stomach to know that someone liked me that much after all these years. But just as I’ve told Bebang … I don’t see any spark … not a single spark to at least make me picture out an “us” and a “future”.

Was just doing my usual scouring on the net when I came across this site or more like a blog about the body mind spirit coexisting in harmony with one and nature. One of the posts that caught my eye was entitled how to think more positively especially since the image on the post was that of an iced tea. Read through the steps provided and simple as they seem but somehow people like me who’s on the verge of a “depression storm” havent had the time to notice. The author of the post said “Think about a positive attitude as much as you can, if not all the time.” Hmmm … tough!!! Just what like Eds said, its almost always difficult to write about positive thoughts or events coz somehow even you (the writer) would not be contented with what you’ve written and that it would appear to be so simple and shallow. Dark has always been what this blog contains … from the homepage itself all the way to the 3 months old posts, reading what I run into online somehow kinda steered me away from what I have been doing the past 3 heavily depressing months of my life.

Various categories are on the left side of this blog am reading, clicked under Personal Development and just like the homepage it has various posts that caught my eye too, Personal Transformation and Suffering Go Hand-in-Hand, how rational. The author said, Usually when I’m suffering, I’m so not happy about it. Same here, I mean who gets happy when suffering? But then again these sufferings are given to you for you to mature and grow as a person not only mentally but in all facets of your development.

Enlightening to know that these dilemmas am in, these depression am in, are just normal and though I think they’re graver than what most people suffer but hey who am I to know? Just as our mantra in my Philo class, even the dumb people have stories to tell. Would place this blog on my bookmarks, it definitely is a must read for people like me … who’se just going through the motions, looking for an escape in the hopes of find a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. Damn! Maybe … just maybe if I can steer myself away from these dark clouds I’d be able concentrate on self improvement schemes to make me better and …. sober (emotionally).

A good friend of mine is finally getting the promotion she applied for and with all confidence I know she’ll perform well with the new set of tasks ahead. I really am so happy and proud of her, we talked about this quite some time ago and now the results are to be made known officially later but through the grapevine, they told me or rather he told me about it and am just plain happy.

She deserves the raise and all that and she’s one of those people whom I know won’t crumble under pressure.  My sorta big ate … who just like me still giggles at the silliest of things, gives me those advices when I am confused (w/c according to Creepy One is often) and puts my weary soul at ease.

All the more reason for me to stay … seems like I’ve fallen in love with the floor, its issues, its people, its … everything. Hehehehe … and now Wafa is bound to pester me who A4 is … duh!!!

Herbie played this song while we were still waiting for calls, ’twas a weekend shift and as always it’d be low call volume if we’re not moved to Consumer. I’ve fallen in love with and I can’t get it outta my head. Here’s Apologize from One Republic.

I’m holding on your rope 

Got me ten feet off the ground 

And I’m hearing what you say 

But I just can’t make a sound 

You tell me that you need me 

Then you go and cut me down 

But wait... 

You tell me that you’re sorry 

Didn’t think I’d turn around and say.. 

That it’s too late to apologize, it’s too late 

I said it’s too late to apologize, it’s too late 

I’d take another chance, take a fall, take a shot for you 

And I need you like a heart needs a beat 

(But that's nothing new) 

Yeah yeah 

I loved you with a fire red, now it’s turning blue 

And you say 

Sorry like the angel heaven let me think was you 

But I’m afraid 

It’s too late to apologize, it’s too late 

I said it’s too late to apologize, it’s too late 

Woahooo woah 

It’s too late to apologize, it’s too late 

I said it’s too late to apologize, it’s too late 

I said it’s too late to apologize, yeah yeah 

I said it’s too late to apologize, a yeah 

I’m holding on your rope 

Got me ten feet off the ground...

*sigh* … received an email earlier from “He who mustn’t be named” asking me when I’ll get my passport, I was like “oh uh … this doesn’t sound good”. My long overdue out of the country escapade might be just around the corner, I’ve told him countless times not to pressure me about it. Grrr … and here he is asking me about it for the nth time. He means well that am sure of, after all I’ve told him over and over that if I remained here I might just as well get myself a reservation in an asylum.

I seem to be messing up lately … old bones being dug up causing hurt to people I never ever in my wildest dreams wish to hurt. Am thankful that they understood though and am not losing the people I’ve grown to care.

Went to the cemetery earlier to visit mom, if she was still around she’d be able to tell me what to do … I seem to be messing up since she left and I hate to think that in a way I’m disappointing her. This is not what she expected from the daughter she raised all on her own … couldn’t believe I have to think about multiple things at the same time.

Work – which if not for the increase I wouldn’t have returned; oh well there are a few people I don’t want to leave just yet.

School – what with midterm coming up next week and the many reports I have to make.

Life – uhmmm … struggling … trying to put back what’s left of the broken me.

Love life – can’t believe am using this term, but damn! which part of the word NO does he not understand?

I don’t need his family name damn! I like mine better, I don’t need a “f^cking” wedding ring, I don’t need to hear church bells, I don’t need a man to tell me what to do, to pressure me, to domineer me, to feed me (heck! I can still eat three times a day, thank you). I want love, affection, care and understanding not pressure, not someone to tell me how to live my life.

I’ve had near misses with the altar and I certainly don’t want a trip anytime soon. Single? So? Is that a crime? By choice mind you, fitting 3 white dresses and have someone tell me, I didn’t do justice to the dress by being so big was just a hellish experience.

My next catwalk on the aisle to the altar, I should be wearing pink and the guy waiting for me at the alter should be someone I can call my best friend, my brother … in short my all around handy man (waheheheeh … wicked!!)

*sigh* …. and I thought I’d live the rest of my years as a nun.

Ranting? hell yeah … I have every reason to do so.

We talked for two hours, the creepy one and I,  I wrote it a month ago and a lot of things have changed since then. The emotions I felt for one day were gone, it was over the next day so sad that they have to read it now when I can barely remember the feeling. For what I wrote … I came out as the villain when am just an onlooker describing the riot of emotions I felt then and there.  But no matter, I’ve told him that things are different now … he will always be the brother am never blessed to have … and in a span of a month I’ve grown to trust bit by bit a few people.

Was talking to D last night and I thought things were okay that the slight change in the “weather” was just normal. Why didn’t he confront me bout what I’ve written? *sigh* I was at the mercy of what they thought about what I wrote and about me as a person. Creepy One said their first reaction was that I was plastic for not showing what I feel. *sigh*

Creepy one and I are okay … he will always be what he is to me now … was just saddened why D didn’t ask me about it. He was there when they read it, for all the change I know now what causes it.  If I had any inclination as to what just occurred when he said he was reading through my blog I would have gotten the idea. So so so sad … am at a loss.

So its my fault now … that she has read what I’ve written months ago, that she found it out before he has and now the both of them are mad at me for writing what I think, what I’ve felt at that time some time ago. The post was not only intended for them, it was a regular ranting of what’s going on around me just so happen that they were there. Am not working on a disclaimer, just sucks to have people sulking for what I’ve written and now … now am feeling bad because they’re mad at me for writing what I wrote, for feeling what I’ve felt, for thinking what I thought so long ago. A friend said am not s’pose to feel bad as I don’t mean them it was someone else or it was something else, the whole experience itself ….  And why does she have to read our blog anyway??? *Sigh* The damage is done …  and guess I’ll be facing the consequences for what I thought to be another useless ranting.

Kiss The Rain – Billie Myers

Hello
Can you hear me?
Am I gettin’ through to you?

Hello
Is it late there?
There’s a laughter on the line
Are you sure you’re there alone?

‘Cause I’m
Trying to explain
Something’s wrong
You just don’t sound the same

Why don’t you
Why don’t you
Go outside
Go outside

Kiss the rain
Whenever you need me
Kiss the rain
Whenever I’m gone, too long.

If your lips
Feel lonely and thirsty
Kiss the rain
And wait for the dawn.

Keep in mind
We’re under the same sky
And the nights
as empty for me, as for you
If you feel
You can’t wait till morning
Kiss the rain
Kiss the rain
Kiss the rain

Hello
Do you miss me?
I hear you say you do
But not the way I’m missing you

What’s new?
How’s the weather?
Is it stormy where you are?
You sound so close but it feels
like you’re so far
Oh would it mean anything
If you knew
What I’m left imagining
In my mind
In my mind
Would you go
Would you go
Kiss the rain

And you’d fall over me
Think of me
Think of me
Think of me
Only me
Kiss the rain
Whenever you need me
Kiss the rain
Whenever I’m gone too long
If your lips
Feel lonely and tempted
Kiss the rain
and wait for the dawn

Keep in mind
We’re under the same sky
And the nights
As empty for me, as for you

If you feel
You can’t wait till morning

Kiss the rain
Kiss the rain
Kiss the rain
Kiss the rain
Kiss the rain
Oooooohhhhh
Kiss the rain
Oooooohhhhh
Kiss the rain

Hello
Can you hear me?
Can you hear me?
Can you hear me?
Can you hear me?

Waaaaaaaaa … first class for the year 2008 was earlier and whew! We were bombarded with requirements to be submitted next week, reports and reaction papers left and right. This is what I miss the most, the feeling of being busy with something academic in nature. So for the first subject, I got a 3 page full critique review to make and a 2 page reaction paper to make due next meeting. For my second subject which happens to be my major, its my turn for the research presentation then last but not the least for my third subject, another major subject, 5 sign language lessons to master, 3 song interpretations to master as we’re gonna present it next meeting.  Kinda busy … well feeling busy and I love it … at least it would take my mind out of some crappy thoughts even if its just for a short period of time.

Since my masters degree is to be finished in two years  if you don’t do summer classes, I plan to file for LOA for two months that would be April and May so I can enroll 3 subjects (9 units); as its just two months; classes are from 8AM to 6PM daily therefore it’d be difficult for me to work and study at the same time. Hopefully management would allow it, I still don’t want to resign, I’ve grown to love quite a number of people at work, leaving would be heartbreaking (char!).

Would definitely ask my supervisor later and see if such long a leave would be granted.

Got a tag from Retchel, thanks girl
1. Name one thing you do everyday.
-  Listening to music.

2. Name two things you wish you could learn .
-  Learn how to speak French and Mandarin.
-  Learn how to swim.

3. Name three things that remind you of your childhood.
-  Studying for exams.
-  Playgrounds
-  Stuff toys

4. Name four things you love to eat but rarely do.
-  Fried Bolinao with spices
-  Sweet and Sour Fish
-  Vegetable Soup
-  Sardine Omelet
-  Mango Float

5. Name five things that make you feel good.
-  Talking to “ahem!’
-  Listening to music.
-  Blogging / Writing
-  Going to the beach.
-  Pondering

5 people to tag for this meme

- Eds of Soloflighted.com
- Wafa of My Restless Feet
- Lex of Parisukat.com
- Witchy Boop
- Still have to think of the fifth one ….

To keep my mind off from unpleasant things I signed up this blog with PPP now that its 3 months old I was hoping they’d accept it. Thank goodness they did, it’s a nice feeling to be earning a bit from one’s blog just so to cover for the monthly hosting payments and all. So though this blog is my personal space on the web I might be diverting from my usual dark rantings every now and then. Joining payperpost is one of the nice things that happen this year, at the start of the year matter of fact, and every blogger should sign up with them too. Coz though money is not the primary reason why I blog but then again it wouldn’t hurt to have extra income on the side.

Am glad this blog gets accepted and I look forward to doing reviews every now and then, my usual rantings would still be on here though of course. This has been my outlet through the rough times and hopefully through the good times as well.

A friend of mine is already approved for PPP and she has been telling me nice things about it and how she has been generating income from it for quite some time. It’d be nice to try and I look forward to earning not just from my regular job but from doing what I love most. Blogging.

Being the bratilda that I am, an only child and your typical spoiled brat, I never knew household chores. Even washing the dishes was something I started doing when I was 16 years old. I don’t know how to cook, I never washed my own clothes till now, much more ironed them.  Back then when mom would cook all I’d do is watch, this goes with all other household chores she’d do them while I watch. Now that am alone, I told our neighbor (I call her tita) that I’d do the washing and ironing of my clothes. It’s better that way, I’d learn and I’ll be able to save what I use to pay her.

I’ve grown tired eating out, not only is it costly but it made me feel like an imbecile … so after going to the bank and who knows where else, I went home and prepared my own dinner. All the while I was preparing it, I told myself and the winds that she’d be proud seeing me cooking my favorite viand. Countless of times before when I used to bug her about cooking it for me … sardines omelet, that’s what she’d call it. Almost always its a perfect circle when it’s done but mine is far from the perfect circle … well at least I know how.  *Sigh*  Mom’s lil princess has grown up mentally in such a short span of time. She doesn’t have to worry bout me now, I can stand on my own and I’ll survive despite being so broken emotionally.

The smile she’s perfected all through the years to hide away the pain and the loneliness. Looking at it who would have thought she’d be so broken.

When I was a lil girl used to have this huge teddy bear made by my mom for me, I was 5 then and it was as big and as tall as me, carrying it would block my sight and slow my movements and at a time it cause me to trip over a stone and I bruised both knees and my elbows. Seeing that she threw away that huge bear, I used to think it was a mother bear and from then didnt create any new ones for me. Also my being allergic to its fur is one of the reasons too, but now wish I can have one back …. it’d be comforting to know its there on your bedside looking over you as you sleep.  Might sound so childish but I always thought it somehow keep nightmares away.

There’s a bear I got my eyes on at a store somewhere in my area, its huge a friend of mine even said its obese (toinks!) and it was expensive but I think its worth it.  Still thinking if am gonna buy it, a friend said its always special if someone gives it to you as a gift. Hehehe no one would ever buy that for me … its just way too expensive and somehow no one would think spending that kinda money for a gift for me is worth it.

Hotel Paris, City of Light, World’s Romance Capital, ad so much more, the city has been booming ever since time immemorial what with being the center of the Erik and Christine’s romantic tragedy, many a tourist visit this beloved city day in and day out. The typical tourist would most probably book with one of the many a 5 star hotels in the area, that’d mean setting aside a large budget on the accommodation. Good thing there’s another accommodations setup called the Paris Bed and Breakfast which gives the traveler an option aside from the typical and a bit expensive hotels. With B&B Paris, not only do travelers get a cheaper accommodation they also get breakfast alongside it and a closer interaction with the native Parisians operating the B&B (Bed and Breakfast). Not only would you be able to observe in close quarters their way of living they can even give you insight tips on where to visit and what to do during your stay in the city.

Have you always wanted to learn more but feel that at this point of time in your life, a classroom environment is not something that your comfortable with? Let’s say you want to earn another degree but you have a full time job that makes the conventional classroom training really difficult. Another scenario is that you find classroom classes slow you down, you would rather learn at your own pace. We each have our own reasons and because there is a steady growth in the number of people who prefers computer learning, the courses that are being offered are directly increasing as well. It used to be just computer courses but now it extends all the way to programs in excel training and pmp training as well. This system basically makes learning convenient for everyone to take advantage of!