My Pink Shoelace

Many people seek refuge to money lenders for financial aid especially when they’re unable to make both ends meet. When the cash they have left won’t last till the next payday they’d go to loan sharks and succumb to exorbitant rates. Good thing there are various companies online that offer cash loans for a very minimal interest rate. You don’t have to physically visit their office, wait in line for your turn and fill out the application form which could possibly take hours, with their website all you need to do is turn on the pc and get hooked up to the internet, visit their website and fill out the form there in the comforts of your pajamas, in your very own living room, secure in knowing that your applying in anonymity. Only you and the lending company who accepts your application knows what you’re doing. Safe, fast, easy and secured are amongst the various description of these types of lending companies which has grown rampant over the internet through the years.

Felt like crying …. am so pissed and its seems like only Wafa and Daddy Joe seem to understand … wish I could just cry it all out and then when its done, things would be okay …

Am trembling with anger … I barely have the coherence to complete my sentences … grrrr

Often times I’ve heard amongst other bloggers and read online on SEO, now what does it mean and what does it really do? Simple, SEO or Search Engine Optimization can help potential customers easily find your website, resulting in increased sales and more traffic. This is done by having your website appear on the first results page. Many companies out there offer search engine optimization, helping companies have their websites appear amongst the first results, now the question is which company to select to this task for you?

This service does not come for free too, I mean to have your website appear amongst the top search results comes with a certain fee, so it’d be wise if you check on various quotes first before signing up a deal with one.

Ran into a site offering search engine optimization pricing wherein you give them the details of your project, they’ll match you with pre-screened vendors and then you get to receive upto 5 competitive quotes. No obligations attached when you request for these quotes, at least you’ll have a range of options to choose from.

Superstitions aren’t meant for lovers
Under covers, undiscovered is your skin
I am lonely, please let me in
You’re probably wondering what I was proving
Are you choosing?
Am I losing you tonight?
Is it over, over?

Are we fading?

I never wanted anything the way that I want you
But my words don’t seem to matter
My words don’t seem to matter
And you look at me and I can see
The lies you’re running to
But my words don’t seem to matter
I’d rather have you tested and true

Now you’ve had your chance
So lets try my way, it’s my day
To show you what you’re missing, turn around
And feel the winds of change upon your face again
The warm breath of your closest friend
I’m waiting, I’m waiting

Are we fading?

I never wanted anything the way that I want you
But my words don’t seem to matter
My words don’t seem to matter
And you look at me and I can see
The lies you’re running to
But my words don’t seem to matter
I’d rather have you tested and true

I’m scared we’ll fall apart tonight
Under the moonlight
Under the moonlight
I’m scared we’ll never make it right
Under the moonlight
Under the moonlight
Take my hand and hold it tight
Hold it tight

I never wanted anything the way that I want you
But my words don’t seem to matter
My words don’t seem to matter
And you look at me and I can see
The lies you’re running to
But my words don’t seem to matter
I’d rather have you tested and true

~ by Secondhand Serenade, the song thats constantly playing over and over in my head and in my player ~

A different kind of financial aid if you can call it that, I mean with the number of various loan/lending companies rampant online am a bit suprised with what I found. If am understanding this correctly, this company offers inheritance cash advance, and these cash advances are not to be considered loans becuase they dont have an interest rate of a payment schedule of any kind. I think the cash advance they’re offering you would be dependent on the value of your inheritance of any probate estates. Its like making a collateral with your inheritance
rights so even if you have poor credit standing that wouldn’t get in the way because you make no payments. Since its not a loan with an interest rate but rather a flat fee assignment that is paid back when the inheritance is distributed from probate you actually need not worry about an accumulating interest rate which normally in a typical cash advance setup grows higher each month.

So I think this new way for cash advance is beneficial to those with inheritance in probate and is much more advantageous than the regular loan types.

I spent the whole day of Tuesday in Ayala with Mitchy, from breakfast (where I found sisig’s made of hog brain … am so not eating that again ever!!!) to coffee and cake at Starbucks then to Ayala where she got a new pair of shoes (too flat for me) and I got something for myself … my new “boyfriend”; my music library.

Twas around 1pm when I got home, tired and sick with a grumbling stomach and ready to collapse; so called work around 8 and said I wont be coming in. First absent for the month and that means I won’t be eligible for the dress down incentive next month … not that I care much about it … I’d be on leave for like 5 days next month and that’s what am looking forward to.

Mitchy and I were at the mall earlier, on the lobby there was an exhibition of a real estate developer and since both of us were actually looking for a house, we looked into the model houses they have on display, chitchatted with one of the real estate agents and ended up giving her Mitchy’s number and getting hers in return. We might wanna join them on their next site trip to see the location and the model houses somewhere in Talamban … which got me to looking back at the model houses especifically at the garages they have. Saw one that caught my eye which was kinda similar to what I found online, on this website especializing in garages they call it the Pent. Its made up with the markets Hormann fully retractable steel framed metal up over door; pre-finished in white powder coating that requires little or no maintenance.

This one is most common on the model houses we saw on display at the mall that I wonder if the developers of the said real estate has contacts with the developers of these garages I found online. These company I found online does not only deal with Concrete Garages but also do garden sheds and workshops of various sizes to suit your homes.

Was shopping at one of the malls here when out of nowhere bukie had his hands on my shoulder, looked around and saw Wafa, they were doing their own share of shopping escapade. After a bit of chitchat we parted ways and I started browsing through the jazz pants to see if there’s anything I like. Was looking for a shirt with my headsets on as always when this song came on, never knew it was in my phone till now. I stopped in my tracks when the chorus came on and it was like *whew* if I have all the guts in the world I would have said those very lines and hopefully make him change his mind and we’ll live happily ever after but then … I am me and all am capable of is write what I feel and look at him from a far. *sigh*

I never wanted anything the way that I want you
But my words don’t seem to matter
My words don’t seem to matter

From Tested and True by Secondhand Serenade … the song playing on the background.

I love u most when we share a place
those special good times together
it seems like our love cant get much better, no
‘cuz we were as close as two could be
we knew love would last forever
we’re more than just lovers, we’re
good friends

And even if our love
Could drift away
I wouldn’t even think twice
If I wanted love back again

Chorus 1
Because I’d still say yes to you again
My darling for you I’d do it all again
Yes I’d still say yes to you again
Darling for you I’d do it over and over again
To you ya know I’ll say yes
Oh my darling, oh my darling only for you

verse 2
Where does it go, how does it end
True love it seems so easy
‘Cuz we have no doubts
where we belong, where we belong

They say time can heal a broken heart
And true love never ends
So why not start where we began

Chorus 2
Because I’d still say yes to you again
My Darling for you I’d do it all again
Yes i’d still say yes to you again
Darling for you i’d do it over and over again

Bridge:
They say time can heal a broken heart
And true love never ends
So why not start where we began, baby

Repeat Chorus

Often times in the sidewalk of the downtown area where I live there are lots and lots of display of original movie posters with sizes ranging from 8 by 11 to those huge wall sized ones. The posters they have are not limited to movies, I mean they also have posters of movie stars and music artists to choose from. Now online I ran into a site offering a collection of such posters but what they offer is not limited to those posters, if you are setting up a theater either for business or just for home use they have the furnitures needed to set you up not to mention popcorn machines too.

Am so engrossed reading the Shopaholics Series by Sophie Kinsella that right now my mind is full of people having issues juggling their finances. I mean lets face it not all of us are earning that much to totally avoid debts, like Becky I know of a couple people who shop and shop and then would have problems later on when the bills arrive; I do have the tendency to shop around but I make sure I have the means of paying it after all having tremendous bills causes headache and sleepless nights. Debt Management is the solution, when we’re submerged in deep debts, we think is already hopeless to get out of then thats our queue to seek professional help and thats when like Clear Debt comes in. To provide assessment, unbiased professional assessment, on your current financial standing and then offer you choices of solutions you most agreeable with to keep you back in track.

We do have our tendencies of splurging a bit every now and then especially when we saw the word SALE on the store’s window, and then we come up with excuses, rationalizations why such a thing needs to be purchased aside from the fact that there’s a 50 percent slash down to the original price. We tend to think that its a need, the items on sale are a need therefore we must buy them and that we’re actually saving a lot seeing that its on sale, but most of the time when we really dig into the matter … these items are either just plain “wants” or are a redundant to your household.

Maroon 5 or Incubus, I love both bands and would love to see both, when I checked on the ticket prices I was overwhelmed at how expensive Maroon 5 is, I mean the Patron VIP seats are priced at P10,500 each and general admission was like at P1,585. Mitchy loves the band and since she might be in Manila on the 5th of March she said she’d like to watch and if I can file for leave on that day why not? Texted Vic yesterday of my plan and see if he can accompany me, turns out he was planning to see the concert too but then the price is what stopped us, he said with the Lower Box A rate that’d be a ticket back and forth to Hong Kong, *sigh* so  that’s off the list. Even Daddy Joe said to better watch Incubus on the 9th instead as the tickets are 50 percent cheaper than those of Maroon 5. So I filed for leave on the 9th of March and should Vic’s leave be approved will go together to the concert.

Am crossing my fingers for luck and hopefully things are gonna work my way again. Heheheh …. also I need to check on the embassy for the requirements of the visa application. So its like hitting two birds with one stone. Aight?

Watched “Jumper” last night with Lil Gurl, Wafa and Bukie can’t really say the movie was good, I seldom watch movies in the theater or even at home for that matter and I was disappointed how the movie appears to be just a bunch of trailer cuts pieced together. The very same sentiment Penny has after we saw each other outside the theater. Oh well, there’s always a first for everyone. Anyways as bukie still has work at 4AM, they went home and so did lil gurl and noela, alongside MJ, Diva, Kitoy, Tin and Penny we find our way to the exit to hail a cab. I intended to withdraw money as I dont have any cash left so Diva and I walked a few steps to the nearest ATM machine and from there hailed a cab to work.

Both of us are on RD but he wanted to do something in I2 and I wanted to see Ching, so off we went, when I checked my emails I was surprised by the number of spams on it and with Mark’s email on VL feedback. My leave application for March 30th to April 3 got approved … whooopppeeee!!!! … ’twas also a good thing that I went to the office last night because my freaking schedule has changed. I was expecting to work on Sunday night but when I double checked on the sched FC sent and on my schedule on the portal it shows am off on Sunday night but will be working straight 5 weekdays next week which means I’ll be attending school on Saturday w/o any sleep like Julius and Mykerts.

I know I should’nt feel bad I’ve been so lucky with the schedule long before when I had Friday and Saturdays off while the both of them have been going to school sleepless since the start of the semester. Maybe its high time I share their schedule, *sigh*. So there I was at work talking to Ron, Ching and Frances while plotting the many Vacation Leaves approved by the gods above and realized that one day the gods above would tell me to just resign coz it seems like I have more scheduled vacation leaves than schedule working days. Heheheeh and at one point it did occur to me how minimal my pay would be given that some of my VLs are already unpaid.

I got my passport yesterday so now am working on getting a passport for Portugal, I have no clue on where to begin, the agency who processed my VISA application does not process VISA for Portugal and is clueless on where I should start. So now its either I go to the embassy itself which is in Manila or scour the ends of google for answers to my queries or I could ask Vic to inquire for me as he’s in Manila. *sigh*

So if the winds are on my side … I should be off to malapascua by the 24 of Feb. with Bebang, Wafa and Bukie; to Bora with Kathy on the 23 of March and finally to Thailand on the 30th of March.

Hopefully all goes well and for once things will go my way.

When I was browsing through many sites jumping from one site to another I finally found this site which reminds me of Becky Bloomfield who seems to have difficulty keeping her finances in a healthy state. Now this site offers Debt Management plans, solutions that will put you back in control of your finances no matter what your status is. Never thought such a company existed, I mean normally people with huge debts don’t talk about their finance issues with others much more discuss it with professionals in seeking help to juggle them back to a healthy state.

But thats where am wrong coz with Abacus, they have advisors who would assess your financial status using their ethical advice model and will give you unbiased assessment with choices open to you.

So if you’re like Becky … and is having a hard time staying out of over draft then better have a word with them so you can regain your debt free life.

Golf one of the many sports am interested in but never had the chance to learn. Why? I dunno, I’ve never been the athletic type what with my asthma and I seem so fragile since birth. But for those golf enthusiasts out there, Branson resorts would be a nice venue for you. A change of scenery can do wonders to the soul, aside from this resort being a perfect golf course for you they offer other amenities if not within the resort but a good walking distance take for example the Andy Williams Moon River Theater, the White Water Amusement Park and so forth. So for your next golf tournament, consider having it at Thousand Hills Resort.

We’ve been planning this escapade since January, and the three of us filed for leave so we can spend at at least an overnight somewhere. That was the original plan, but with my sudden move to another LOB entailing a drastic change in my sched, we were just thankful that on the 14th I was scheduled on RD. So we went out, the tres marias, went to Cafe Georg (my favorite) to have dinner tagging along the ever amiable Eds. Dinner was superb and Razel was there (my friend and one of the supervisors of the restaurant), the food was just yummy … and since Eds and I are both narcissistic, every dish had a place in both our cameras. Mitchy got hooked with the Treasure of Persia, and as always I was addicted to a slice of Oreo Cheesecake and Double Chocolate shake … so there goes my diet and my resolution of getting maln0urishly thin *sigh*. Talk was flowing among the 4 of us, and since we arrived at 10PM, we were like the last of the customers, rose petals were placed surrounding the teeny weeny candle so basically we were having a candlelit dinner … so as to make our Valentines Dinner memorable, thanks to Razel we got a special treat of one of their desserts, Cappuccino Crambolli (did I spell that right?) … Mitchy said it was the first time for her to go out of Valentines and its special coz its with friends. Now since Aisa and I love to sing our hearts out, we then decided to go to Mango Square, to one of the videoke houses there. We were tagging Eds all along despite the fact that its 12 midnight when we left Cafe Georg and he still has work the next day or make that later during the day at 12 Noon.

So we spent 3 hours in the Videoke House, the four of us taking turns with the mic, guess you can say the three of us were at point in love … even Mitchy hehehe … Aisa’s got someone though their status is not yet clear (why are men so confusing?) but I think thats a sure go … give it till the end of this year and am sure one of us would no longer be single. And that was the plan … by the end of 2008, the tres marias would be involved with someone else. We kept on teasing Eds with someone and he keeps on denying, we talked openly about the 3 people quite and not so quite linked to me and my confused heart. Its nice that at least now … both of them knows, who I want.

After singing our hearts out, the three of us went back to I2, to Startbucks but since its already 3 AM, they’re close; we went to Bo’s instead and had more than 2 hours of nonstop girl to girl talk. These two gals I was with are just beautiful inside out, and sometimes I wonder why up till now the both of them are still single. *sigh* only fate can tell … what his designs are for us.

Mitchy would be going to Manila on March 2 for her 45 days training for MDP, and am sure gonna miss her, both of them were one of my reasons for staying. Aisa said we should go out again before Mitchy leave for Manila specially since am on LOA on April and May and am not around when she comes back.

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Called the agency earlier and am so pleased when they told me my passport’s released already. So now I can safely call my aunt and ask for ticket money. heheheh … I dread going to Thailand knowing what I have to settle there and how firm I need to be to get hold of my freedom but at the same time am eager to get this whole thing over with … so I can move on.

Plus the thought of another laag is just plain exciting. I had to get away … am so confused now … that not a mug of coffee and a piece of orio cheesecake can cure. *sigh*

Got this from Rai … thanks sis and Happy Valentines to all.

Got this meme from Andrea; thanks so much sis …

Friends
Anger is only one letter short of danger
If someone betrays you once, it is his fault;
If he betrays you twice, it is your fault.
Great minds discuss ideas;
Average minds discuss events;
Small minds discuss people.
He, who loses money, loses much;
He, who loses a friend, loses much more;
He, who loses faith, loses all.
Beautiful young people are accidents of nature,
But beautiful old people are works of art.
Learn from the mistakes of others
You can’t live long enough to make them all yourself.
Friends, you and me…
You brought another friend…
And then there were 3…
We started our group…Our circle of friends…And like that circle…
There is no beginning or end…
Yesterday is history.Tomorrow is mystery.
Today is a gift.

So now, let’s see how many circle’s of friends we can make by simply adding your link on this Friendship Meme! 1-Catsy Carpe Diem , 2- Catsy Download s, 3-Out of the Blue , 4- A Day to Savor and Relish 5- A Piece of Idea 6- Write Shy 7- Stupid Wise 8-http://onlinememorylane.blogspot.com/9 – http://www.jk-nocargo.blogspot.com/10- Teacher’s Corner 11- Abby of Mom and the City 12- My Views On My So Called Life / 13 – A Reality Bite 14-Life Is A Journey 15 – My Pink Shoelace

Now am passing this meme onto SoReal, Eds and Lex

A friend of mine plans to purchase a notebook pc but the thing is its too much if you pay it in cash, told him it’d be better if he pays through credit card. Problem is he doesn’t have one, he’s been working for more than 2 years and still has not applied for one. Credit cards are advantageous for emergency and big purchases, I mean lets face it not all of us are lucky enough to incur a big amount then and there. Got one credit card of my own and just the other day was informed that my application for a loan which includes a credit card from the bank has been approved and that we’ll have our orientation this 19th. Am excited, not that am gonna use it to swipe on my next shopping escapade (am not like Becky on Shopaholics) but am excited coz I think I’ll be using that in my next laag which is gonna be out of the country, hope they’ll incur miles and such … hehehehe … oh well I better check their website and see what I can find.

Filed for leave on the 14th of Feb. coz Mitchy, Aisat and I would plan to go somewhere, that was when I thought my rests days are still on Fridays and Saturdays. The scheduler, for whatever reason, plotted me on leave on January 14th … *sigh* so now my Feb 14th leave is cancelled, the good thing is with my new sched, I’ll be on rest day on this date. Mitchy said we’ll have dinner somewhere and can’t wait for it, the tres marias (as daddy joe calls us) would be going out together despite the recent changes of schedules.

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We went live last night, wave 4 for the last LOB of the account and the floor couldnt be any noisier … my wavemates are just so noisy, hehehe, fun loving more like it, my first call was a developer call and grrr … it was difficult. I hate developer calls they’re mind buggling. Time passed by quickly and I missed this sched, used to be on the opening sched for more than a year since I started and now am back. Give me three months in this sched and am bound to lose weight drastically. Sleep is very elusive for me during the day; my notebook and coffee would be my constant companion. I’ll be working again tonight … and hopefully I won’t commit a misroute, I won’t get any fatal errors and most of all I’ll pass the evaluation by our QE.

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Was just finishing up the documentation of a call, when out of nowhere he approached and touched my right cheek nonchalantly, looked up surprised to see it was him looking out for someone. He came near my station twice that day, has been doing that quite often the past few days and its strange seeing that he has no business on the floor.

When motives are unclear but stupid though I am , I haven’t grown so insensitive so as not to feel anything. *sigh*, why can’t people be just straightforward with what they feel and with what they want?

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My LOA was approved, or so I think, my TL sent an email to whom it may concern that its approved from his end and so does Momie Lai, it’d be a bit long leave of absence, close to two months … this is gonna be my first ever to enroll during the summer and though many of my classmates told me its gonna be dragging and one hell of a bore but am quite excited.

TJ and I still communicated through friendster and he has somehow encouraged me to pursue the teaching profession, afterall this is what I was trained to do. He’s also taking up Masters in SPED with MR as his major and we bumped into each other around campus couple of times. He has plans of working abroad and has encouraged me to do the same, after all career opportunities for the profession we’ve chosen are rampant overseas.

Am contemplating, I mean … I don’t have anyone else to worry about here … its just basically me, myself and I. I dunno what the future has in store for me, death when it came so close was willingly accepted afterall what could be worst, but seems like fate has its own designs for me and here I am drifting like a wood into the unknown.

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I got drowned when I was 5 years old, to the point where I turned blue and they have to apply mouth to mouth resuscitation to revive me. This is the reason why am scared of the sea or any major bodies of water and of swimming in general, that’s why up till now I never learned how to swim. Don’t get me wrong but I love the beach, the view and all especially the sunset and sunrise, I love taking photos of the views here and there with or without me, but it’s the thought of swimming, of drowning that scares the hell outta me.

When I was with Vic in Bantayan, he knew am scared of the waters but still we went island hopping … now … I still feel like am floating, guess this is what people call sea sickness … the four of us (Diva, Penni, Vince and Moi) still feels that way as if we’re still on the boat in the middle of the sea with the big waves crashing … hanging on to dear life. I’ve never been that scared my entire life, the transfer to the second boat was already a tremendous thing for me, I knew I was scared with the act because I did something I don’t normally do … and that’s bit on the edges of my thumb. We were s’pose to go island hopping, but due to who knows what, the fanbelt (dunno what that is) got ripped/broken that we were literally floating in the middle of the sea … stranded … no panic whatsoever as everyone was having fun and there were still food and drinks in the boat. When the rescue came after a good deal of waiting (the second boat) arrived we have to transfer, I had to summon the nerve to “climb” to the next boat, grasp one of the proffered hands and settle safely on to the second boat.

What was my reason for joining this island hopping when I don’t know how to swim, when I’ve promised myself that I won’t ever ever drink alcohol again, when I’ve just been to the beach and has grown terribly dark …. Simple … the people, my team or should I say my previous team, I fell in love with the team, and am sure gonna miss it, but just as my team lead said, I’ll always be his agent … he’s definitely one of the reasons why am staying.

Now I sidetracked, when we transferred to the second boat I thought we’ll be visiting at least one of the many islands around us but I was disappointed, never did we land on an island and all I saw was the sea, the waves, and other boats. Since I don’t know how to swim I was amongst the people who stayed in the boat, photo sessions were rampant here and there, talk, talk and all talk were scattered from one small group to another. At one point I was talking to Eds and then tried to get some sleep, next I was off to talk to Mitchy … then later on the narcissistic in me took over and I was busy taking pictures with my cam. When we started to head home the sea was okay but when the moon takes over that’s when the waves started getting bigger and the sea was not as calm as before. Everytime a big wave comes up, the people sitting at the front got wet and I was one of ‘em … I didn’t intend to get wet but there I was, wet and shivering and scared.

When those waves crashed in, and you can hear shrieks and curses from all side there was only one thing on my mind; “Ma, mag-uban na jud ta ani” …. It was a possibility I willingly accepted, after all it wouldn’t be so bad, miserable as I am now, what could be worst? Penni was starting the headcount to make sure no one’s missing, people were cursing and others must have been crying, I hugged Mitchy and like a lil child said, “Mitchy, am scared”; it took her a couple of seconds to finally respond, “don’t be” … I know she was scared to some degree but she summon the nerve to reassure me that things are gonna be okay. Am not sure what effect it has on me but when D said he felt genuine fear, I was struck … When we knew we were “officially safe” and was about to dock at the back of Hilton hotel my next problem was crossing to the other side. I mean it was dark, and one misstep could mean falling down to the sea, not to mention it was slippery.

Was able to cross successfully but darn I hate the feeling, tears of relief did fall down …. The next thing I had to think of would be our shift at 9PM, it was close to 8PM already and this would be our first time to go “Live Via Satellite w/ No Commercial Break” for TR … Diva, Moi and Penni resolved that no matter what happens we’ll never go absent (though the thought crossed my mind millions of times); went home to shower and change clothes then head straight back to work … and begin one working shift without any sleep.

Got this tag from SoReal, tosha yot.

1.Are you in a complicated love situation?
- “are you gonna stay with the one who loves you
or are you going back to the one you love” – so yeah … I think its complicated

2.Do you hate more than 3 people?

- I gave up hating people a long long time ago … I simply don’t care anymore

3.The last thing you drank?
- coffee

4.Favorite chocolate bar?
- cadbury will do

5.How many pairs of shoes do you own?
- 5 pairs

6.Favorite genre of music?
- emo, punk, alternative, mushy ones too

7.Do you like beer?
- nope

8.What are your favorite color(s)?
- pink, pink, pink and all pink … include blue and black as well

9.Is anyone in love with you?
- yeah … but she passed away

10.Pepsi or Sprite?
- Sprite

11.How many video games do you own?
- nah … don’t even know what they are

12.Does look matter?
- not quite … the one I fell for is tall, dark and … not too handsome but kinda cute .. (unsa ba woi)

13.Are you too forgiving?
- a big NO

14.Do you own a gun?
- would love to have one

15.What did you do last night?
- cried and slept and cried again … its a cycle

16.Nicknames?
- Wena, Weng-Weng, Shobi

17.Are you thinking about somebody right now?
- yeah … (and I think am wasting thought space … for sure he’s not thinking of me *sigh*)

18.Are you happy with your life right now?
- NO

19.Do you like your hair?
- Couldn’t care less

20.Does anyone like you?
- think so

21.Last thing you read?
- transcript of conversations

22.Are you afraid of the dark?
- depende hehehe

23.Have you ever stripped?
- nah ah … don’t even know how.

24.Can you cook?
- am a complete klutz in the kitchen

25.Money or Love?
- in between

26.Do you enjoy scary movies?
- hell no …

27.Marriage Or Live In?
- dont wanna talk about it

28.When was the last time you said “i love you” ?
- long long long long time ago …

I lost my ATM card for my savings account. Grrrr …. was at the bank earlier after we had our shopping expedition with Diva and April to deposit some cash to my account. I must have left it in the counter where I was filling out the form, you see I don’t memorize my account numbers so everytime I have over the counter transactions with the bank I would have to take out my card and copy the account number from there. Felt so so stupid coz this is like the second time this happens to me the first was primarily my credit card which took less than 5 weeks to be replaced.

When I called the call center for the bank, I was on the verge of being hysterical, this atm card is like my primary savings account and I’ll be damned should there be any other transaction after my deposit earlier in the afternoon. Good thing the lady I spoke with assured me that there was none and that she has blocked my card so as to prevent any unauthorized withdrawals and such.

*sigh* At least I can sleep peacefully tonight, will just have to wait till Friday, next week for the arrival of the replacement card. I know my mom seeing this dilemma would have been furious at my stupidity and carelessness. *sigh* can’t help it, I’ve been lost in space even when she was still around, how much more now that’s gone.

The agony of waiting for my turn was almost unbearable … it was so boring I can barely stand it. When our shift was finally over, went to SM with Ronmar … we shared the cab so as to save on the fare; I had to pay my bills, go to the bank and all that … when that was done … got a text from Mitchy requesting that we see each other in Ayala, since I was still somewhere downtown, told her am on my way.

Since the “girl thingy” struck me at the moment, spent quite sometime looking for toiletries, when that was done we went straight to the grocery section as she’s gonna buy chocolates for her team. I asked for two and later during my shift I’ll be asking for another one. (Am such a glutton … heheh) … we ate and she accompanied me to look for a book.

Now this book, I read when I was in Bantayan, it got me hooked coz somewhat I can relate to the heroine … she’s a shopaholic just like me … but there’s a major difference though. She spends more than she earns and thats not so me. Its so hilarious even Vic agreed when I asked him to read a few specific lines. Got the first part of the series, the one I read in Bantayan was part 2 and haplessly I didn’t find it in the bookstore.

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Was the last to have MSV, was the last to get certified for the third LOB … and am not sure if am happy that I passed. Truth be told, the change brought about by my inclusion to the new wave for this LOB, messed up my plans big time for the whole year. Most of all, my mandarin class which was scheduled from 7PM to 9PM Mondays and Wednesdays has to be changed as my new schedule is from 9PM to 6AM, I dont want to be late for work … thats unthinkable … and I can’t request for my old schedule coz its just not available. So the center suggested that I move to One on One Instruction wherein the schedule is flexible but that would mean a drastic change on the tuition. When I say drastic its like doubling what am s’pose to pay for the Small Group Discussion Class that I originally enrolled in. Practically speaking am not so convinced the amount am gonna shellout would be worth it, it made me re-evaluate my reasons for learning the language. My classmates all have their reasons and its all business related, mine seemed so shallow, am quite ashamed to even admit it. Grrrr … a friend said its too much … so now am thinking of just cancelling the whole thing and this made me dislike my recent transfer all the more.

I know I should be adaptable to any changes at work after all I signed a contract binding me to things like these … but being the spoiled brat that I am, it’s terrible how I ought to rearrange things to accomodate the change.

*sigh*

Creepy One has fallen in love with the song Stolen by Dashboard Confessional and damn listening to it … am about to fall too, things would have been easier if it was Vic who has “stolen my heart” but its not him and now am stuck.

I know you need a friend
someone you can talk to
who will understand
what you’re going through
when it comes to love
there’s no easy answer
only you can say
what you’re gonna do
i heard you on the phone
you took his number
said you weren’t alone
but you’d call him soon
isn’t he the guy
the guy who left you crying
isn’t he the one
who made you blue…oooh
when you remember those nights in his arms
you know you got to make up your mind

Chorus:
are you gonna stay with the one who loves you
or are you going back to the one you love
someone’s gonna cry when they know they lost you
someone’s gonna thank the stars above

what you gonna say
when he comes over
there’s no easy way to see this through
all the broken dreams
all the disappointment
oh girl…whatcha gonna do?
Your heart keeps sayin it’s just not fair
but still you gotta make up your mind

chorus

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Why does it have to be so complicated? And for once, why can’t I just have who I want?

*sigh*

Was browsing online for books, April mentioned that there’s a book she found online but couldn’t find it in local bookshops here. I offered to order the book for her and she’ll just pay me the moment the book arrives, ran into shelfari, a site showcasing various books of multiple genres. One of the members, Neil, had quite a taste of books on his profile’s bookshelf. He seems to be a fan of Grisham and Rowling and Michaels. Of the books he has on his shelf I’ve read all expect one, a romance I think from Fern Michaels, am such a sucker for Harry Potter so I’ve read all the books released, the last I’ve read from Grisham was The Partner and I haven’t touched anything from him in the last couple of months.

I like this site I found and am thinking of joining, it definitely is a hub for book lovers like me, the good thing about it is that registration is for free.

Didn’t have any sleep at all yesterday … after shift went straight home only to find myself spaced out for 4 hours, doing nothing but stare blankly at my notebook’s screen. Four hours of non productivity, this happens to me every now and then, it has been sorta frequent since mom passed away. My uncle knew what was going on since the song played during mom’s funeral kept on playing over and over. It was the only song on my playlist and I had it set to playback.

And I thought things like these don’t happen to people, that its purely controllable but damn, now that it happened to me .. am able to relate to those people experiencing a downhill pattern emotionally. When happiness is short lived and a single teeny weeny incident can interrupt it and start the depression pattern all over. Bunny used to say only I can help myself … guess thats true, am trying my damnedest and for a while I thought things are gonna be okay … I was happier and bubblier than usual and thought that’d last, that it’d be the start of my moving on.

But somehow things are not meant to be that easy for me, when I went to work yesterday there’s that deafening silence constantly accompanying me, was restless and just plain bothered. The only consolation I got was the solution to my dilemma pertaining to my summer class, Momie Lai said that I go plot my LOA as early as yesterday, anyways I can cancel it anytime … was glad that she’s allowing me to do it. Not only do I need to go to school … but I need to get away … from the floor , its people, … my emotions are constantly on a riot that at times I felt so choked…. I had to get away even if only for a while.

And hopefully when I come back … I wouldn’t be feeling this way … and seeing him,them, all of ‘em would no longer cause this turbulent rush of unknown emotions.

Why can’t I have what I want even just for once?

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