Lonely In A Crowd : An Eerie Insight
It was 1PM, finally am on with my last subject for the day, a good 1 hour of discussion as there’s the orientation program at 2PM that we need to attend. The discussion went smoothly with interaction from my classmates who were just more than willing to share their ideas … the usual me just keep mum. She did throw out a question, and luckily I was able to give out an answer but that didn’t stop her from sharing to the class her observation of me and my passive demeanor.
She said, ” I don’t mean to pry Ms. Yee but seeing you since the first day made me think that you’re one of those people who no matter how crowded the place is you’re somewhat alone with your thoughts if not lonely.” I was speechless, she continued, ” Don’t get me wrong I know you’re paying attention to the discussion and that you’re understanding it but it doesn’t stop me from seeing thats there’s more to that silence. Its like you’re lonely in a crowd”.
Now the class had their eyes on me and all I can do was smile, that must have been her cue as she resumed her discussion, stirring the topic away from me and back on the lesson at hand. It was eerie knowing how transparent I was to her despite me being a complete stranger. I wouldn’t mind hearing those words from friends who knew what I went through and am still going through but from her it was completely off balance.
She finished psychology and a doctoral on guidance and counseling and I “blame” that for her accurate, way too accurate insight. I’ll be seeing her again tomorrow and hopefully she wouldn’t venture the subject of me being lonely in a crowd again.
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