My Pink Shoelace

if I said I Love You … What Would You Do?

June 19, 2008

Food

So I love to eat, but who doesn’t? My problem is I don’t know how to cook. Hehehe I was told girls should know how to cook but then am not your typical girl next door. So all I do is look at shiny cookbooks admiring at the glossy images of all those wonderful foods, peeking at the recipes and most of the time not understanding a couple of the listed ingredients. So I take out my frustrations to the restaurants.

Crying Like A Church On Monday

Woke up to the feel of a wet face and the sound of heavy knocking on my door. My uncle got this worried look on his face seeing my face and hearing my cries. I was lost in a dream and in my dream I was crying like there’s no tomorrow, didn’t know I’d end up crying for real. So I woke up with an unfinished dream and with me crying. I’ve never had anything so real, so vivid that it scares the hell out of me. I was following her down the stairs and she told me with her back on me that I need to get married to be happy which I actively dispute, the next thing I remember was I was going up the stairs to some grotto crying, she was urging me on and next I know I was on what seemed like an impossible feat of climbing until I reached the grotto where there were lots of burning candles and with a few people praying. A woman approached me and lead me to a room where there was another woman waiting who asked me to sit down and tell me my troubles. In the dream I was crying like I dunno … the tears were nonstop…. It was at this point when I woke up and my face was soaking wet and I was crying still.

So I went to work with buggy eyes and made an issue with my boss who I know is concerned about whats wrong.

Heart Library

Am not a medical student therefore the anatomy of the human body never for once interest me not until mom was diagnosed for CHF. It came to a point where I was hooked to the internet researching for oxygen generators in the hope of minimizing our oxygen refill expense, it was never realized. Never had the chance to fully understand the doctor’s explanation of how her illness is affecting her, I only got it from a layman’s perspective. Finally found a human heart video online and though I’ve downloaded and saved it on my HD, I still don’t have the courage to look at it and dig what could have beens. Still haven’t fully understood how something to right could go wrong.