Constantly Battling
How do you distinguish one from the other? Can you be lonely without being depressed? or vice versa?
How long does it take for you to climb out of that dark hole?
From : Loneliness and Depression
There is a Reason for Loneliness and Depression
© Mark Zimmerman
“We mightn’t even be alone physically—we might be in constant contact with friends, workmates, family, and all sorts of people—but inside us is a space that none of these people can fulfill. This space, this deepest point, works on us by bringing confusion, pain, loneliness and depression, and it expresses itself as the most basic question we could ever ask: “What is the meaning of life?”
I am in constant contact with friends, workmates and all sorts of people but somehow they have not been able to fill this gnawing gap. Its like am on the inside just watching the scenes but were never really a part of any of it. It sucks and its draining the hell out of me, am doing all sorts of things imaginable squeezing every activity that I could think of just to run away from whatever it is that’s haunting me.
Took me a while to accept that am in constant battle with loneliness and depression, Bunny once told me its normal to feel this way after what I went through and that only me can pull myself up. I hate to admit it … I wanted to keep the illusion that am happy and that am perfectly alright but I can’t. Talk to RJ earlier and just like those other times she can easily tell whats wrong, well everythings upside down … *sigh*
I need help … I’ve come to accept that if I don’t seek professional help my problems would get the best of me. Suicide that doesn’t run in this family but there’s always a first for everything.
Due to stupidity and carelessness I accidentally deleted 40 or make that 60 of the recent comments!!! Huhuhuhu and I have no way of retrieving them back … am so sad…
Comment by My Pink Shoelace — September 23, 2008 @ 5:30 am