Hurting So Bad … It Burns
Hurt – beyond words, beyond reason and logic. Why did I fall for someone whom I know would never catch me? And why do I keep this wishful thinking and keep on getting hurt when I knew time and again that this would just be the case?
Does he abhor my company so much that he can’t find the words to say no to my simple invitation? I messaged him about something which he replied to but when I asked if he’s coming or not he didn’t reply. I stood rooted to the ground, debating whether to wait or to just call it quits. A part of me knew he’d never come but still there’s that silly voice inside my head that keeps on hoping he would.
Much to my dismay not only didn’t he show up he didn’t even send a message, so I stood there looking at schedules without really seeing for an hour … tears clouding my eyes. An hour … hoping for a simple message, I would have taken it at face value if he’d said no, that would have not been so bad. But to stay silent and leave me wondering … was downright painful.
I should have seen this coming, am not the kind of person who insist my company onto those who disdain it and that’s one painful lesson learned.
I haven’t cried this much since mom died and all the while I thought am immune to tears apparently his attitude and his insensitivity hurt more than I gave it credit for.
my dear, he’s not worth your tears. =)
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Comment by desperateblogger — November 30, 2008 @ 12:56 pm
Every rational part of me is agreeing to what you’re saying … that he’s not worth it.
But just like the song from Stefy … am a fool for love, wish I can stop … I so wish I can but am hooked to him like I’ve never been hooked before.
The best I can do is ignore him hard as it is hearing his voice every so often and seeing those eyes. Waaaaaaa
The price I have to pay for falling with the wrong angel at the wrong time.
Comment by My Pink Shoelace — December 2, 2008 @ 12:16 am
Hi sis yeh! I agree his not worth your tears. . . You feel that way right now because your mind and heart is focus only to the good things his done for you, or maybe your in denial of reality. Think back how he hurt you, do you deserve to cry a lot just for him.. well I guess not….
Be strong sis.. Life is tough but when you get over it, you will realize how beautiful life is. Oneday, you will meet someone who will love and cherish you like a princess. Believe me, I have been in that situation before. I know how you feel right now..
Hugs for you….
Honey
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Comment by honey — December 2, 2008 @ 12:26 am
let me get my hands on him (or her?)
just joking weng.
a man is not worth crying over if he’s not crying over you.
sakto bah? hehehe, cheer up weng, and hopefully we would mend our broken hearts.
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Comment by fetus — December 5, 2008 @ 12:23 pm