Very Very Upset
I was silent the entire time or shall I say muted myself to oblivion. They didn’t arrive on time which under normal circumstances would have been okay but given my current state of mind the slightest things are always exaggerated. I think I’ve manage to alienate these people further by my behavior last night but waiting for close to an hour for one person and then for over an hour for another was just beyond my limit knowing fully well that I still have work at 2:30 AM.
It made me feel so left out as what seemed like half of the conversation revolved around people only I seem to not know and though I was listening I just don’t have anything to say. Am sorry but am just tired of pretending to be okay when am not and should these alienate the people around me, then so be it. 
