My Pink Shoelace

The house has been a mess ever since mom passed away, I never took the time to clean and sort things like put them in their proper places. As long as my desk and my stuff are cluttered the way I want them then that’s fine. I have this habit of leaving things where they are and not return them to their original places something that really ticked off mom I guess I haven’t changed, its just that somewhere in the twisted mechanisms of my brain am able to find things where they are … though it’d take time but hey I manage.

So while ramaging through files and files of stuff I ran into my old hard drive. Broken, damaged, useless whatever you call it beyond repair. I dunno why am still keep this trash but its certainly a good reminder that last June I spent 6K on a new hard drive and another 20K for a brand new motherboard, heat sink, fan and dvd rom. So far my notebook’s been performing like it’s suppose to.

I’ve probably written this a hundred of times and am writing it again. I hate my work. I hate waking up every 12 midnight to get ready for work. I hate standing outside the street waiting for a cab at one in the morning. I hate having to answer all those calls with sarcastic people on the other end of the line. I hate having to work out on those metrics and I hate having to follow the rules. But then in this society we’re in civilized people follow rules … otherwise you’re out.

Gosh! So much hate on there now isn’t it. I know you’d prolly say, “Stop yapping and quit”. I know I’ve told myself as much but right now am trying to persevere in the fulfillment of my plans so I’ll just rant it all out here. I certainly can’t tell my boss I hate doing what am doing now can I? lol

But it’s official, I don’t like being a human switchboard, and when all things fall into their respective places then I’ll hand in my resignation without hesitation.

Breathe … breathe … breathe … that’s what I keep telling myself.

I’ve got several things planned I barely know which once to act on first amongst them is to set up a blog for a friend. She has not decided on what the domain name would be but in the mean time we have scoured the net for the top web hosting companies searching for affordable yet reliable host. Though there are companies that I can readily recommend I want her to be able to go through the reviews online and decide for herself which ones she’ll go for after all its her website not mine. I’ll be around to help her set up and all that but as far as choosing which hosting company to go for that decisions lies entirely on her.

This is a mock-up collage of some of our pics in Bantayan last February 2007. I was just scouring through files scattered all over my hard drives both internal and external and I found this.  Seems like yesterday but really it was 2 years ago.  And a lot of stuff has happened since then and I’ve been to several places all too many places it’s now hard to keep track.

But Bantayan is great, the beach, the white sand and the tranquility something you rarely find in the city. Guess I need another alone time with nothing but the smell of the waves and a good book.

This was taken in Baguio last April at Camp John Hay … they have a very beautiful garden with a wide assortment of pretty flowers. This bunch reminds me of two persons who meant a lot to me. First is Lovely, one of my besties and the sister am never blessed to have and second is Te Kate … a friend from work. Funny how we only got closer when mom died and Vic chose her to send his condolences to me. Like Lovely she has accepted the fact that am a brat, childish most of the times and very fickle-minded. Like Mitchy she’s kinda like my big sister on the floor, the kind who never refused to give you 50 bucks when you ask for one coz your hungry and you need to dash to the pantry and grab something to eat. So yeah … am surrounded by good and affectionate people.

Scouring through voluminous pictures scattered all over my hard disk drives and memory cards when I ran into this one. There are several of them actually, flowers in the garden of the most prestigious hotel in Baguio taken last time I was there sometime in April of this year. The garden was meticulously designed with several colorful flowers in pink, yellow and purple.

I was just shopping for books at a second hand bookshop down town looking for materials, books and flashcards that I can use for my tutorial when I ran into this book. One of the Judy Moody series, I got the second book: Judy Moody Gets Famous, I totally got it off at a bargain like 55 bucks and in very good condition. When I checked on it at Fully Booked the brandnew sealed copies are sold at 349 bucks. Hehehe

So here I am hunting for the other books in the series. The book is intended for graders actually and you me … still a child at heart (lol) so am scouring the second hand shops for the other books. There are 8 of them so according to the website : http://judymoody.com

David and I seldom have this time to talk on the floor what with our schedules but I did manage to have a short chit chat with him and as usual it all revolves around music. Told him NIN would be playing live at the Araneta Coliseum this August and like me and every other music addict out there he wants to go too. Anyways he told me he found this cool album entitled Pop Goes Punk … its a compilation of punk artists doing several covers of pop hit songs. Saw the volume 2 cd as one of the best buy finds at www.buy.com question is do they ship here.

Are you living in the Tennessee area? Have you had some sort of injury due to wreckless driving or any sort of accident? If the answer to all questions is a big YES then you better get yourself one of the well known Tennessee injury lawyers to get back at the perpetrators. They need to pay for damages and should not get away with their crimes. Grrrr … I always hate hit and run scenarios, coward bastards!!

My tradition has it that I watch every HP movie with two friends from college and the last time I saw them both was last year with the movie Harry Potter and the Order of Phoenix so with the release of the 6th installment they’ve texted me confirming that we’re watching it this Sunday. But I’ve watched it with Mitchy and her bro as I cannot wait. Seems like I need to reread the book as am having difficulties separating the events that transcribed from book six and book seven.

Someone said to me once the movie is way over due by the time its released those die hard fans would have finished the book months ago and would need a little refreshing. I seem to be needing that one now … needless to say its Harry Potter and I love it.

Finally!!! Great solid rock bands coming to PI. Saw this while checking out the band’s site and they’re rocking the crowd on the 5th of August at the Araneta Coliseum and I cannot efffin go on leave. Grrrrrrrrr …. of all times to be on the loser side of the coin.

Moi: Is there vgh (voluntary go home) for TR (my LOB)?
DM: not for you yet
Moi: lol

That was the chat I’ve had with the DM on duty, he’s so used to me asking VGH everyday it became a habit for him to say none for you yet … I usually ask around 7AM and they’re usually granted around 8AM or 8:30AM, my shift ends at 10:30AM. So I was on VGH at around 8:30AM and headed straight to the lounge to sleep. I’ve been feeling wonky since Sunday, runny nose, cough, off and on fever and asthma. The nurse is so used to seeing me go to the clinic to use the nebulizer that we became fast friends lol.

I slept in the lounge from 8:30 AM to 1PM *sigh* and when I woke up I went straight to Biopath and to see the quack. She advised me to go on rest for 3 days as I had what she called viral infection, it’d be better if I stay at home.

Good luck to me and to my pay.

We had a plan that we’re gonna renew my license last Friday and he forgot, I pinged him Friday morning and he didnt reply. I was pissed and upset and disappointed so just earlier I saw him online and just like Mitchy said he said to have forgotten the basics, like apologizing for one. So since I was very pissed off, disappointed and hurt I took it out on him once and for all … he was the reason why I felt like a 3 in one from Gelatissimo only this one has a sour and ugly taste.

I pinged him and to cut it short I was blunt, straightforward and down right blunt. I did say that already right? We’ll I was and I told him that I don’t like the new him … the one who’s loud, cranky and a bit of an asshole and that I want the old him back. I did feel better after I ranted on him and told him exactly how pissed off I was. Mitchy said there’s nothing wrong with letting out how I felt … it was all about setting expectations.

So right now am fine and that even though he’s not the same person I once knew … the silent, sweet and nice person I’ve grown to adore I still want him as a friend. Mitchy does too … so all in good time.

I am so sick … I’ve been sneezing my nose off since 1:30AM till now and its close to 6PM my time and it’s still attacking full force. I’ve taken several meds already and so far none seemed to work. Crap!!!

And I have work later plus my class and a nagging migraine. Hope I get well soon.

Seeing a picture of an RV on one of the blogs I hopped into reminded me of that movie starring Robbie Williams with the same title. It also made me wanna have one or at least be able to ride one and go on a road trip for days end. Maybe rent one out and chill with friends but then again we don’t have that kind of thing here must be great if you’re in the States and be able to own one of these rides. Of course like every ride it must have its own rv insurance all secured prior to taking ownership of it.

Reactions to my shoutout are always welcome but at times they are kinda shaky and I hate it and it confuses and hurt me more than I can take. You know, it gets me cranky and unstable.

Ever had that feeling of pain that starts within your gut and goes all the way to your heart and decides to stay there. Gnawing its way deeper and deeper with no way out. It’s the same feeling I have everytime I realize am about to lose someone. It sucks to know that all I can do is just watch them disappear and just let go. I have trouble letting go of people I love and care about … but sometimes all I can do is just accept it.

Waking when the alarm goes ringing is … a challenge. Since last week I utilize my lunch time to get some sleep in the lounge and I almost always wake up on time. But just earlier darn! I overslept … way overslept like an hour … and no one noticed. Whoooohoooo!!!

Yeah, no one noticed and I don’t want that to happen again.

Working as a part time tutor is pretty cool. I mean I love all the activities am preparing and I myself am learning along the way which is fun though it kinda sucks away what little was left of my free time. I guess that means I gotta work more on my time management (not something I think am good at) and work on making room for other stuff.

I need to re-establish my routine here.

Had dinner at Pancake House with Momie Cherry and Femme after my tutorial sessions and I enjoyed every bit of morsel they served. After a voluminous meal we had ice cream at Gelatissimo and it was swell. Then a ransack at Fully Booked which I am proud to say that I managed to walk out without spending a dime. There are several titles I’d like to have but I resisted temptation and was quite damn proud of myself for self-control.

So in replacement of my broken skateboard, I asked Edwin to buy me books instead. I barely have time to read much more skate in broad daylight. He bought me, “The Time Traveller’s Wife” byt Audrey Niffeneger, “Thanks For The Memories” by Cecilia Ahern and “Ang Alamant Ng Gubat” by Bob Ong. I only asked for one but he got me three!!! Whoooopppeeee!!!!

Though I’ve read The Time Traveller’s Wife I wanted a copy for myself.

I haven’t updated my blog for quite some time now. Working full time as a human switchboard, part time tutor and studying full time certainly took all of my time. I barely have any time to do anything like grab a cup of signature hot chocolate. A good friend of mine asked me why am doing the tutorial thingy when the pay according to them “doesn’t really compensate” for all the preparations I have to go through for everydays lessons … yeah I did asked myself that. I’ve grown to like the kids, I mean they’re fun and enthusiastic and really eager to learn.

Plus I kinda liked preparing cute and colorful materials. It’s fun and really creative. I liked it a lot.

One of the things I think would complete the decor of a house is a rug. Not just any rug but a fine looking rug complete with elegant pattern, material and color combination. Something like the picture on the left, now isn’t it cute or what? When I get my own place I’ll certainly look for one of these. area rugs are common these days and they seem to be a requirement on any home ensemble.