My Pink Shoelace

I am looking for one of these polaroid cameras, or any of those retro instant polaroid cameras and I have no way of getting them here. *sigh* I know what you’re thinking … and yeah I have a digital camera .. 10.1 mp but I love this and I want one. tugs!

I prolly look like him, I’ve had sleeping problems since I can remember and dark circles have begun to stay permanently under my eyes. I have tried to sleep several times but is only successful on certain times, guess I’ll just have to accept the fact that I am insomniac. I’ve made it a habit to try and drink milk before my bed time hours I think it helps but still I’d say am lucky to be able to get at 4 hours of sleep.

I was sick last 22 and on the 23rd, so much for a happy birthday but all’s well now so here’s a few tidbits. On the 24th Bena, Diva and I met up for lunch after my appointment with the quack. I decided that since we’re all food people we’d better go for eat all you can and we did at Family Choice. There was not that many people [must be coz of the rain] but the food was good and so was the company. It was fun!

- moi, or shall I say yours truly -

- Diva -

- Bena of bena-yot.com -

- Bena, Diva and Moi -

It was a good choice to go for eat all you can, I had two rounds lol but the bayot had 3! Waaaaaaaa lol. Till next time

*sigh* Lets just say in the course of the last 6 months I’ve grown to develop a certain pet peeve … for people who asks the dumbest of questions. God, can someone just kill me?!! I hate it when smart people [or so I used to think of them] would ask me stupid questions. What’s wrong with you people??

Okay, so I know of some really good people who turned bad and then just plain stupid in less than 1 minute. Gosh, and here I thought he was this high and mighty someone you look up to … but in a split second he became 10 centimeters tall in my eyes.

When someone is sick, common sense would tell you to say “Get Well Soon” right? I mean if you are in the normal state of mind that what you’re suppose to say to show you care and you wish that person well but no …. this apparently has been thrown of the window and instead I was told … just make sure you have proper documentation when you get back. Isn’t that standard procedure already? … Instead of feeling at ease I felt downright threatened by the tone of his voice … seems to me, he’s just about ready to throw me out. Oh well … I sure will bring my documentation amongst other things.

Weng took a SocialCalendar quiz:
What does your Zodiac sign say about you?
Weng’s result: Sagittarius

Sagittarius is the more buoyant, peppy sign. It is quite curious, adventurous and enterprising. It can sometimes be a little restless, perhaps impatient. Personal freedom is quite important in this sign, and these natives do not appreciate suffocating or oppressive situations. There’s often a great love of travel and a willingness to go. Being rather confident in itself, in a difficult chart it can become quite patronizing, conceited, strongly opinionated or dogmatic.

via facebook

Just saw my doctor earlier and am scheduled for ultrasound tomorrow at 7AM for my tummy ache if they can’t find anything on there I’d be scheduled for endoscopy next. Huhuhuhu, what an unpleasant month this has been no I take that back it has been a hellish 6 months for me since June of this year … Can’t wait for 2010.

I went home yesterday around 7AM because I can no longer take the pain on my tummy and I was puking all over the floor.  So I went home and crawled up in bed but to no avail, I’ve taken several meds but they didn’t work. So around 3PM I asked one of my close friends to come over and take me to the hospital so off we went to Chong Hua, it was rather surprising how I still manage to walk straight up but the process of filling out the papers and the wait for the meds to be given to me was just plain excruciating. The doctor asked twice if I really don’t want to go and admit myself. I said NO, he asked if maybe we should have the meds via IV as its faster that way but I said no, I’d rather take them orally. So I did and the effect was I dunno … took forever.  So much for a “happy” birthday.

When I went to Singapore and Hong Kong couple of months back one of the things a friend of mine asked me to buy him was smokes and good old classic cigar. Seems like we don’t have much of those cigar store that sells imported ones.  So when I was there I tried to look for cigarette stores but all I find were the shops inside the airport and it wasn’t really much. lol

Diva and I went to the main post office after shift yesterday and of the 13 parcels | packages for me one of them was from Bobbie [Lavender72004 via swap-bot] and it contained this …

I am glaeken via swap-bot

At first I thought this was for one of the swaps am in but no it was a birthday gift … and it’s very cute! I received a tag from her for one of the forum tags at swap-bot couple of weeks back but this was totally unexpected. Another birthday gift I received … [they sure arrived days ahead of my birthday] was from Cari, she’s my swap partner and she included a birthday gift for me on her package for our swap, something she made herself, so sweeeet.

I have met so many wonderful and artistic ladies via swap-bot and though Jovie said I have “no life” outside of home and work but I found great friendship online … it was more than I could ask for. These presents arrived unexpectedly … something I didn’t ask for which is  really really nice  …..

I dunno what to say … really, she thought I was out of earshot and called me a “B!tch”. You should have seen how round my eyes went … like flying saucers.  Brat I can handle or shall I say am used to but “B!tch” it’s totally unexpected and as am typing this am saying the word over and over it doesn’t sound right coming out of my mouth. It has this sour aftertaste.

Now you might ask, what have you done this time Weng? … we’ll she was someone I knew from college we were school mates or should I say classmates? urrrrghhh, can no longer remember but I think she was in one of my classes back then. And I think she misunderstood my silence back then, I’ve always been the aloof one. I only speak when addressed to and I only hang out with my close friends … like a small circle of goofies.

Or maybe I should just think of it this way … maybe this is what she meant .  lol come on … who am I kidding??!!!! waaaaaaaaaaaa. Oh well, I must have offended her somewhere somehow and after all these years she finally manage to let me know what she thinks though unintentionally. She’s all smiley and friendly when we are facing each other … I just pray I won’t bump into her in the next few days. I might just live up to being a “B!tch” and tear her eyes out.

Seeing this online reminded me of that time I saw one in Singapore, somewhere in Orchard Road there’s this huge Sports Boutique and on the display showcase they had a wide array of colorful golf clubs, I stopped in front of the pink one and my auntie rolled her eyes at me. Saying that I don’t even know how to play golf so it’s no use, lol, it’s not like I wanna buy it … I was just attracted afterall it’s P!nk … heheheh. So when Lizzie said they might go avail of the many Myrtle beach golf packages next month I readily showed this image to her, she said it’s very cute and pretty but asked … do they have purple???

I just adore her! I have managed to download several of her music videos as well as live performances, the way she moves her body is just amazing. Only very few ladies in this world have such perfect body without an ounce of belly fat, unfortunately am not one of them …lol. Was told learning how to belly dance is a good way to lose that flab in your tummy, yikes! I seem to have a pair of left feet bwahahaha. Guess I’ll just feast my eyes on the gorgeous Shakira.

Not me that is … am just in one of my many wishful thinking mood lol. But seriously wouldn’t you wanna spend a couple of days maybe weeks there? I know I’d love too especially during holidays when several hotels in orlando are doing major slash on their rates. Take for instance that hotel on the pic, it’s inside Disney itself and is less than a hundred dollars per night, isn’t that a bargain or what??!!!

I got a letter from a friend today, she lives in the US and she mentioned that some kids would join the army because the amount of money they make while in service is enough to get them through the entire four years in college instead of applying for a student loan which by the way is extremely expensive there. She asked about my college experience here and at the moment I am still composing the words for my reply. lol … not in a very creative mood am afraid.

I have seen the 2004 movie starring Gerard Butler as Erik, Emmy Rossum as Christine and Patrick Wilson as Raoul on the big screen and bought the DVD copy of it as well … I just finished watching it for the nth time and it still makes me teary-eyed.  I have been obsessed with this theatrical piece ever since I can remember, I have not read the original by Gaston Leroux but has read “The Phantom” by Susan Kaye over and over, I love it. So when the 2004 rendition came to the big screen I was very excited.  This part gives me the chill every time I watch it …

Here’s a stunning tv performance of the song “All I Ask Of You” by Emmy Rossum and Patrick Wilson, I find it amazing how calm he looks while singing … and Emmy is just … perfect! I love them both.

Hopefully one day I’d be able to watch it on stage … *sigh* what I’d give to be able to do that now, I know you might think am the emo/goth/rock chick but I do have a flair for Broadway and the musicals, this being just one of ‘em.

The Phantom of the Opera reminds me of Belle and the Beast the major difference is it had a happy ending and they live happily ever after … but then The Phantom of the Opera won’t be as dramatic, as haunting, as tragic as it is if Christine chose Erik now would it? … *sigh*

This rendition of the song “Phantom of the Opera” by the Finnish band Nightwish, old Nightwish that is with Tarja Turunen on the lead vocals is an absolute favorite of mine … I love it more than the Sarah Brightman and Antonio Bandera’s version. When they kicked her out and replaced her with Anette Olzon, the band declared that they will never play this song live ever again and I can imagine why. It wouldn’t sound right if Tarja’s not singing it. Her voice is just powerful.

Lets just say am one of the many fans who love old Nightwish more than the new one. These guys rock!

I thought am over it but one incident and I snapped … you know like one of those people who just got out of rehab for something to start anew only to snap and break at some point then the vicious cycle would begin all over again.

It started with a teeny weeny neglect on my part, during my last break I headed straight to my locker to get some pain reliever … my head has been hurting since 9AM, it hurt so bad I thought its gonna burst. Unfortunately there weren’t any in my med kit [I always have one with me] so I headed to the clinic where the nurse on duty ushered me to have a word with the doctor. I didn’t know that my file was rather thick what with all the accumulated med certs and when the doctor checked on my file she asked about my suppose to be admission last week. It was then when I told her that I didn’t go through it and explained my reasons.

She gave a whole lotta lecture … I told her I cannot admit myself to the hospital because I don’t have anyone to look out for me … to process the papers and run the errands. She mistook that as me being a transient here where my family is in the province or something and insisted that friends are always there.

I snapped and broke down when she said, she doesn’t want it to come to a point where the clinic has to call my family about my condition. I almost yelled at her and said there’s no one to call. Can’t you see? I said I am alone … a one man army. I could be hit by a car on my home or drop dead in the middle of the street and there’s no one to call.  She apologized but the damage was done and it dawned on me that though it’s close to two years am still not over it.

I was one hell of a mess when I got back to the floor … on the elevator ride I was composing reasons to explain my suddenly bloodshot eyes and to explain why I was way over break … Good thing there was VGH and I went home but I guess I still have some explaining to do to Te Kate … she saw my eyes and knows that something bad must have happened for me to cry like I did. *sigh* And here I thought am f^ck!n strong and well adjusted only to realize that I’d have to start rehab again and work on achieving emotional stability.

So much for being nonchalant and for the happy facade.

One of the many things you can’t do where am at lol. Snow, winter and white christmas … not here. But seeing movies with ski vacation themes and scenes makes me wonder what it must be like. I was told if you want to feel what snow’s like then just scrape the building ice on the walls of your freezer and that’s it. Tugs! But I wonder if I’ll ever get the chance to learn how to ski … maybe … someday.

and there might just be a third … lol. Okay so I filed for leave [unpaid! as always] on the 23rd and the 24th and on the 29th all the way to the 5th of December. Doi was right if I cannot find someone to accompany me on my “laags” then I’ll go on my own … what are these feet for??? nyahahaha.

But really am crossing my fingers that all of ‘em would get approved … work has been work … and there are several faces I prefer not to see and bump into the halls but as Bena said, we gotta endure, I gotta endure for the fulfillment of my plans.

So Weng, quit being stingy! yikes!

I still have my school textbooks from kindergarten all the way to college and I guess right now I am willing to let go of those really old ones like the ones from my preschool years . I didn’t let them go before thinking that someday I might have a need for them but right now they are taking up much space and are collecting dusts that I think donating them to one of those donate a book cause would be a good idea.

For the first time in 3 years I was actually smiling at something work related.  As you might already know I am under new management, female management this time and I have made a promise to myself that should I be transferred to her team [I did beg her to take me] that I would give her a shot. I have always been partial with female team leads but this time I vow to give it a positive outlook. I was taking calls earlier when the goodies above were distributed … since my team lead was around she convinced the OM and SOM to start distributing these goodies to the agents and our team was the first to get ‘em. Whopppeeee!!!

This is a first for Microsoft and I must say this surely made all of the agents happy … when Windows Vista was released we were hoping we’d be given promotional kits but given that the OS in itself is very very expensive it became just a dream … when Windows 7 was still in the making … some of us did wish to be given a copy but given my experience with the Vista launching, I didn’t think so.

The tech support for Windows 7 did get these goodies first and I thought it was rather fitting for them to be given one but as for us “human switchboards” it was too fancy to be true. Microsoft has been very generous this time and provided everybody our very own copy of a full version copy of Windows 7 Ultimate! not Home Premium but Ultimate … whooooohooooo.

Everybody’s happy and I guess this was the morale booster … everybody has been looking for. They’ve really outdone themselves this time … sure the blankets, mugs, bags and shirts were okay but they were well pretty generic but this … definitely exceeds expectations!

Will they give us promotional kits when Office 2010 gets released???? Crossing my fingers …. lol

I am one of the many younger people out there who’s in favor and thankful for the internet era which gives us the opportunity to study anywhere at anytime so long as you have your laptop and there’s internet connection. A friend of mine said she can take that vacation in Hawaii and at the same time take the LSAT prep class she found online. Afterall who says you can’t sip pina colada in a two piece while reading your online course material by the beach somewhere in Hawaii??

I’d love to have one of those fancy tv stands you see in the malls, I saw some online and I cannot believe the rather huge price difference. My friend said to think of the difference as the sales and import tax … toinks! I guess she’s right but still if I could figure out how much the shipping and handling would cost I’d prolly opt to buying one online. Hmmm … we’ll see, Christmas is fast approaching and this one sure is on my list.

Oh well … that’s the name of one of the swaps I joined in on swap-bot and though the word “happy” is a bit too much for me. lol But I liked the idea of the swap so I’ve made my list. I was not contented on just writing it on a paper or on just printing it. I’ve posted some of the pics I’ve taken on my other blog but I guess I’ll post a few of ‘em here too.

Given the fact that I am very fickle-minded the things in this lists comes in no specific order.

1. Coffee [herbal that is as am asthmatic and caffeine is not good for me]
2. Sunrise and Sunset [being a mooshy mushy person, one of the things that'd take my breath away is seeing the sun rise and set by the beach]
3. Heavy rain [so long as am at home]
4. A surprise envie from a total stranger [no chain letters though]
5. A perfectly served order from any fast food [special order: plain rice and scrambled eggs]
6. Vacation Leaves [even if it's just staying at home tinkering with my notebook]
7. Internet [am a certified web junkie, my life is mostly online]
8. A pink surprise
9. The chance to get on my skateboard and skate away in the streets in the middle of the night with no one watching
10. A signature hot choco from Starbucks
11. The neighbor’s cat purring at my feet while I try to find my keys to open the house.
12. Curling up in the sofa with a good book on a rainy Friday night.
13. School [I love school, must be coz am a geek lol]
14. Books, books, books [I spend most of my time in the mall on the books section wishing I have a huge library with all those books]
15. Watching my favorite animes over and over
16. Restdays [I don't like my work but it pays the bills]
17. Scrapbooking [this gives me peace and a sense of being detached from everything else]
18. Being able to go to another country where no one knows me and to the eyes of the people am just another tourist.
19. A silent cab ride [I hate talkative cab drivers! I want a ride in silence]
20. Rainy friday nights
21. Dinner with friends.
22. Stationeries [I have a lot but I just can't get enough of them]
23. Perfume [I collect the bottles especially those with unique shapes]
24. Stilletos  [am addicted to 'em]
25. Bags [am addicted to 'em]
26. Koalas, pandas, teddy bears, dolphins and unicorns
27. Faeries [stickers, postcards, atc's, stationeries]
28. Fantasy stories
29. Romantic comedy movies
30. A simple text message from someone special
31. The chance to be able to visit Japan
32. A trip to Xiamen and Beijing.
33. Reminiscing of the good ol days
34. A purchase from my ebay store
35. A sweet comment on my profile
36. Sales and good finds at flea markets
37. Being remembered on my birthday
38. A pink and black skateboard
39. Dinner at Big Mao
40. Talk of things not work related
41. No asthma attack for one straight week [impossible to come by these days]
42. Whimsy jar of scrapbooking goodies
43. A pink and brown themed matchbox
44. An altered journal
45. Anything Monokuro Boo
46. Anything Emily The Strange
47. Ribbons, ribbons, ribbons, ribbons and lots of scrapbooking ribbons.
48. Not having to see the face of my boss [impossible really!]
49. An uneventful day at work [no sup calls, no developer calls and most of all no sarcastic team leads]
50. Early out or voluntary go home at work [meaning I get to log off way ahead of my end shift]
51. The sound of Maaya Sakamoto on my iPod.
52. Being left alone to do my thing [no nagging please]
53. Working on Christmas Eve and New Year’s Eve [thats prolly the only times I look forward to working, I don't celebrate Christmas and choosing between spending Christmas at home and work, I chose work]
54. The silence of midnight all the way to early dawn.
55. Full moon
56. A long uninterrupted sleep
57. A simple act of kindness
58. A smile from a total stranger
59. Making an elderly smile
60. Memories of mom
61. Fulfilled promises
62. Alex Band [I just love him!]
63. A stamp album [can't find one here]
64. smell of hot choco
65. Envy by Gucci
66. Diddl [letter pads, letter sets, memo pads, note pads]
67. Pink Luggage trolley
68. Pink shoelaces
69. Chuck Taylor
70. Deco Tapes
71. Huggables
72. Paper Goodies
74. Stickers, Stickers, Stickers, and lots of stickers
75. Macbook
76. Band shirts
77. Pink and Brown matchbox
78. Card stocks
79. Die Cuts
80. Note cards [lots of 'em]
81. A 12×12 scrapbook album
82. Castles [postcards, letter sets, stickers]
83. Anything Kawaii
84. Dawn
85. Starbucks Mug
86. Pink Address Book
87. Pink ink Pens
88. Pink socks [ankles only]
89. alterned journal
90. keepsake box with teeny weeny compartments for teeny weeny things
91. buttons [for scrapbooking that is]
92. embellishments
93. cupcake goodies
94. manga [old and new]
95. notebooks [i just love them]
96. A Sweet Valley pocketbook [am working on collecting all novels staring from SV Kids all the way to University]
97. Anything of Emily the Strange
98. Any of Brandon Boyd’s books and paintings [he rocks! and am a huge fan]
99. Butterflies
100. Whimsies

His wish list is just impossible, he wants one of those plasma tvs you see on commercials. Impossible … especially when the worth of our exchanging gift is just 500 bucks. Thankfully am not the one who got his name and he doesn’t have anything else on his list. Can you imagine??!!! Such an a$$hOl3 … lol. Anyways as for me … the usual, books and books. I just hope whoever got my name would be able to find at least one of the titles am looking for.

Everything about her rocks!!!! I am currently on the lookout for everything Emily the Strange, the next time I drop by Fully Booked, I’ll check if they have the books and will definitely get ‘em. Whew!

She rocks!!!! An Emily the Strange skateboard would definitely make my day …. uhmmm my birthday’s fast approaching … anyone???? lol