My Pink Shoelace

Sweet Valley Collection

My Sweet Valley book collection in one box … one of the five boxes actually that got my uncle asking if am in some mad escapade of building a library. I got several others in several boxes stashed at home and I can not imagine where I can place it should I continue to have more … so at the moment I am avoiding book shops and book stores, I lose myself when I see those 20% off tags on books.

I am finally doing what I should have done last October 2009 but it cannot be helped as I was sick then but now I seem to be alright, thank God so I am taking the comprehensive exam for my masters degree this March and am hoping to ace this one.

I emailed my boss and our OM that I’d like to go on leave for a week so I could study and prepare for the exams and I am quite happy to say that he approved it. Yiipppeee! I reminded my team lead and she send an email to the FC’s to have it plotted whoooppeee! So in the next few days I will be busy compiling my notes and studying … time to hit the dusty library.

So wish me luck! and do pray for me guys I’d love to pass during the first try and be done with it.

I was just about to open my yahoo email when the news on the homepage got me hooked, seriously! Sleeping Beauty ain’t at the top of my favorite fairy tales but watching her video I envy how she manage to sleep for up to 13 days. Heck! I had to take valium to be able to sleep for at least 12 hours straight lol.

Such a rare condition which baffles the medical community… watch the video below. The real life sleeping beauty is Louisa Ball, she’s 15 years old and she looks pretty sweet. Must be weird to wake up 13 days later and miss a whole lot of things …. not to mention school.

I am going to take the exam this March [first week of March] and I cannot live with myself if I fail. Sheyt! I am book smart and it’d be a major disgrace if I don’t ace this; problem is I have been on hiatus from school for close to a year … so I’d have to cram 2 years worth of lessons into my cro-magnon skull. Grrrrr …

So safe to say I am scared shitless and I am hoping the vl I filed for a week gets approved otherwise you know what  would be EFFECTIVE IMMEDIATELY!

Isn’t it gorgeous??!! I looooovveee the design and the stone on it. I’ve always been fascinated with loose diamonds; it’s a wonderful and one exquisite stone that is said to be every woman’s desire. I must admit I love them and would love to have a diamond engagement ring someday somehow. Whooohoooo … a diamond necklace, bracelet or earrings would prolly be the perfect ensemble.

I have been asked several times what my profession is and instead of saying … am a licensed elementary school teacher, I’d end up saying, “I am licensed to corrupt minds”. So I have the license card to prove it but none of the experience that’s suppose to go with it.

I had this conversation with the Dean of Commerce back in my 3rd year in college … I was typing out some documents for her in the office and she was very busy with the upcoming review for the licensure exams when I asked ..

Moi: Ma’am Rose, how does your PRC ID look like?

So the dean took her wallet from her bag and showed me her ID … it says “Certified Public Accountant”

Dean: When you pass the board exams soon your ID would have “Professional Teacher” on it.

I made a face which made her laugh and asked why, I said … mine would sound so ordinary so plain while hers well it was classy at least I thought so when I was 18.

So 3 years ago I took the exams and passed got my ID and looked at my face staring back at with the inscription beneath, Professional Teacher; since I still think it’s pretty ordinary when anyone ask what am licensed to do … I’d always say … I’m Licensed to Corrupt Minds.

There sounds better. Nyahahahaaahaha.

New Year’s Resolution per say lol.

By December 2010

- I should no I must [yikes!] be able to watch and understand “Turn Left, Turn Right” with the sub titles off.
- I should be able to sing with complete comprehension Sun Yan Zi’s Yu Jian [crossing my fingers]

By April and May

- Attend Language school in Kumming

Hmmm … how I go about fulfilling them is something I still haven’t figured out … but am crossing my fingers.

You know how there are several shops along the streets of Colon selling DVD’s? well I went there and asked if they still have a copy of Meteor Garden. The look on their faces before bursting out laughing was unbelievable until finally one managed to ask, “Where have you been when they were popular?” Ah … they were popular when I was in my first year or second year in college which made me what 17? … I replied, “I must have been asleep”.

So talk about a 7 year set back huh …lol Oh well my head was buried in books that time and yes I can still remember my classmates and neighbors going bananas about it and it never affected me. I know am weird but am watching Meteor Garden now all because of a totally different reason. This show is in Mandarin and by year’s end I should be able to watch and understand it with the subtitles off; though I must admit it’s sort of funny.

2009 was a blast both in a good and bad context … people always wanna hear the bad things first so let’s do a quic recap  ..

March – I had a major skin allergy [like super major ... I cringed at the memory. I was itching all over and was on SL for close to 4 weeks!]

Later part of the year found me dealing me close to daily asthma episodes which caused me to miss the comprehensive exam and a very messed up scorecard … beyond repair, ouch!

As for the good … heck I’ve been to several places Hong Kong, Macau, Singapore, Baguio and Bangkok in a span of three months! It was amazing … the places, the food, the shopping and most of all the people were worth it.

Looking forward to another round of trotting across Asia … weeeeeeeee

- wedding rings and moi???  not quite! -

Technically she’s still 24 when she tied down the knot yesterday and she’s the first in the group to settle down [or so they say]. Well I got invited to attend my friend’s wedding, back in high school we have this circle of friends, there’s like 17 of us [15 girls and 2 boys] we parted ways when we went to different colleges but still get in touch and gather for Christmas party every year [am almost always missing in these gathering but nonetheless].

So Ann tied down the knot yesterday. Heck I don’t even know the guy [some friend huh?!!] Well we are not “close” per say,  it’s  big group what’d you expect? true all of us are friends but within that group you’d always have your own close friends right?.

So I watched her walk down the aisle in a princess like wedding gown and wondered, there she was settling down at the age of 24 and here I am at 24 still waiting or shall I say still trying to grow up. Heck! What happened in the “growing up” phase? A friend said just because she’s getting married doesn’t mean she has matured already … but then marriage is a HUGE thing, it’s not a trial and error kinda game that you could just walk out of the moment you realize it’s no longer working for you especially since there’s no divorce here.

The wedding was a classic scene and I just hope she’s getting married for all the right reasons and not because circumstance forced them too. Creepy One always said I am a cynic, so what … love in this day and age is highly overrated. I’d prolly cause foreheads to frown on that last sentence but what the heck  … bite me!

Am such a bad photographer … yikes! But that’s the view every 2 AM when I stood by the street waiting for a cab to go to work. Every Christmas season they would hang Christmas lights on every tree and the way it illuminates on a dark silent street is just peaceful and mysterious in a way, especially if you’re like me whose head is almost always in space then yeah … you’d think something this nonsense to be something worthwhile.

I noticed the lights on the Christmas of 2008 and I’ve been meaning to take a photo of it since then but I never got to not till last night. It’s not something but I finally got to do what I’ve been procrastinating to do … talk about a year’s setback.

So there goes my view every 2AM while waiting for a cab to take me to the office.

That was the question Jenny asked when she saw me outside the house on my way to the grocers. She said, “Te Wena, your hair is uneven, what’d you do?” I replied, “I cut it after I came out of the shower”.  She grinned. I’ve always had long hair … waist long curly hair that I almost always wear in a tight bun or in a pony tail. When I do cut it it’d always be longer than shoulder length and I don’t mind it much; would only notice it has grown waist long again when a friend comment on it. Bena would always say to have it cut because it’s already very long already … but going to the salon is my least favorite thing to do. It’s like cooking … something I do once in a blue moon. So scissors let me use you to cut my hair and ta … da!

- hair be gone lol -

Those who know me personally would ask, “Has the world turned upside down?” if they found out that I tried my hands in the kitchen in attempts of “cooking” something edible. I have spent the last two years since mom died eating out coz am a disaster in the kitchen and when there are times when am too lazy to go out to eat then it’s either instant noodles or good ol coffee. [Not good for the health, ... oh well, I should marry a chef!]

- It’s fried bolinao [baudnon] with lots of onions and tomatoes -

I haven’t eaten this viand for 3 years … this reminded of two things:

1st: the summer of 2001 where I spent training to become a CAT officer. Everyone had to bring their own lunch and the first time I brought this everyone liked it so we made a deal that I’ll ask my mom to prepare one every week. We all share our food back then and it was fun.

2nd: it reminds me of mom, I love this dish for what its worth and would always grab the opportunity to ask her to prepare it whenever possible. The way she mix sugar and vinegar then spread it all over the fried bolinao then top them with lots and lots of tomatoes and onions is just … amazing.

So today, I went on VGH as usual and went to the grocers, came home and cooked … and for the first time in my 24 years I made something edible. Not burnt or half done. Just cooked.

I miss my mom *sigh*

I have always been fascinated with school and all the things you could learn lets just say am a geek, with the advent of the internet several transactions are now possible online, from banking to shopping and now one could just enroll to an online university to get a degree. Must be cool to be sipping pina coladas and at the same time attending an online school. I should try that sometime.

I am looking for one of these polaroid cameras, or any of those retro instant polaroid cameras and I have no way of getting them here. *sigh* I know what you’re thinking … and yeah I have a digital camera .. 10.1 mp but I love this and I want one. tugs!

*sigh* Lets just say in the course of the last 6 months I’ve grown to develop a certain pet peeve … for people who asks the dumbest of questions. God, can someone just kill me?!! I hate it when smart people [or so I used to think of them] would ask me stupid questions. What’s wrong with you people??

Okay, so I know of some really good people who turned bad and then just plain stupid in less than 1 minute. Gosh, and here I thought he was this high and mighty someone you look up to … but in a split second he became 10 centimeters tall in my eyes.

When someone is sick, common sense would tell you to say “Get Well Soon” right? I mean if you are in the normal state of mind that what you’re suppose to say to show you care and you wish that person well but no …. this apparently has been thrown of the window and instead I was told … just make sure you have proper documentation when you get back. Isn’t that standard procedure already? … Instead of feeling at ease I felt downright threatened by the tone of his voice … seems to me, he’s just about ready to throw me out. Oh well … I sure will bring my documentation amongst other things.

Just saw my doctor earlier and am scheduled for ultrasound tomorrow at 7AM for my tummy ache if they can’t find anything on there I’d be scheduled for endoscopy next. Huhuhuhu, what an unpleasant month this has been no I take that back it has been a hellish 6 months for me since June of this year … Can’t wait for 2010.

I went home yesterday around 7AM because I can no longer take the pain on my tummy and I was puking all over the floor.  So I went home and crawled up in bed but to no avail, I’ve taken several meds but they didn’t work. So around 3PM I asked one of my close friends to come over and take me to the hospital so off we went to Chong Hua, it was rather surprising how I still manage to walk straight up but the process of filling out the papers and the wait for the meds to be given to me was just plain excruciating. The doctor asked twice if I really don’t want to go and admit myself. I said NO, he asked if maybe we should have the meds via IV as its faster that way but I said no, I’d rather take them orally. So I did and the effect was I dunno … took forever.  So much for a “happy” birthday.

Diva and I went to the main post office after shift yesterday and of the 13 parcels | packages for me one of them was from Bobbie [Lavender72004 via swap-bot] and it contained this …

I am glaeken via swap-bot

At first I thought this was for one of the swaps am in but no it was a birthday gift … and it’s very cute! I received a tag from her for one of the forum tags at swap-bot couple of weeks back but this was totally unexpected. Another birthday gift I received … [they sure arrived days ahead of my birthday] was from Cari, she’s my swap partner and she included a birthday gift for me on her package for our swap, something she made herself, so sweeeet.

I have met so many wonderful and artistic ladies via swap-bot and though Jovie said I have “no life” outside of home and work but I found great friendship online … it was more than I could ask for. These presents arrived unexpectedly … something I didn’t ask for which is  really really nice  …..

I dunno what to say … really, she thought I was out of earshot and called me a “B!tch”. You should have seen how round my eyes went … like flying saucers.  Brat I can handle or shall I say am used to but “B!tch” it’s totally unexpected and as am typing this am saying the word over and over it doesn’t sound right coming out of my mouth. It has this sour aftertaste.

Now you might ask, what have you done this time Weng? … we’ll she was someone I knew from college we were school mates or should I say classmates? urrrrghhh, can no longer remember but I think she was in one of my classes back then. And I think she misunderstood my silence back then, I’ve always been the aloof one. I only speak when addressed to and I only hang out with my close friends … like a small circle of goofies.

Or maybe I should just think of it this way … maybe this is what she meant .  lol come on … who am I kidding??!!!! waaaaaaaaaaaa. Oh well, I must have offended her somewhere somehow and after all these years she finally manage to let me know what she thinks though unintentionally. She’s all smiley and friendly when we are facing each other … I just pray I won’t bump into her in the next few days. I might just live up to being a “B!tch” and tear her eyes out.

I thought am over it but one incident and I snapped … you know like one of those people who just got out of rehab for something to start anew only to snap and break at some point then the vicious cycle would begin all over again.

It started with a teeny weeny neglect on my part, during my last break I headed straight to my locker to get some pain reliever … my head has been hurting since 9AM, it hurt so bad I thought its gonna burst. Unfortunately there weren’t any in my med kit [I always have one with me] so I headed to the clinic where the nurse on duty ushered me to have a word with the doctor. I didn’t know that my file was rather thick what with all the accumulated med certs and when the doctor checked on my file she asked about my suppose to be admission last week. It was then when I told her that I didn’t go through it and explained my reasons.

She gave a whole lotta lecture … I told her I cannot admit myself to the hospital because I don’t have anyone to look out for me … to process the papers and run the errands. She mistook that as me being a transient here where my family is in the province or something and insisted that friends are always there.

I snapped and broke down when she said, she doesn’t want it to come to a point where the clinic has to call my family about my condition. I almost yelled at her and said there’s no one to call. Can’t you see? I said I am alone … a one man army. I could be hit by a car on my home or drop dead in the middle of the street and there’s no one to call.  She apologized but the damage was done and it dawned on me that though it’s close to two years am still not over it.

I was one hell of a mess when I got back to the floor … on the elevator ride I was composing reasons to explain my suddenly bloodshot eyes and to explain why I was way over break … Good thing there was VGH and I went home but I guess I still have some explaining to do to Te Kate … she saw my eyes and knows that something bad must have happened for me to cry like I did. *sigh* And here I thought am f^ck!n strong and well adjusted only to realize that I’d have to start rehab again and work on achieving emotional stability.

So much for being nonchalant and for the happy facade.

and there might just be a third … lol. Okay so I filed for leave [unpaid! as always] on the 23rd and the 24th and on the 29th all the way to the 5th of December. Doi was right if I cannot find someone to accompany me on my “laags” then I’ll go on my own … what are these feet for??? nyahahaha.

But really am crossing my fingers that all of ‘em would get approved … work has been work … and there are several faces I prefer not to see and bump into the halls but as Bena said, we gotta endure, I gotta endure for the fulfillment of my plans.

So Weng, quit being stingy! yikes!

Everything about her rocks!!!! I am currently on the lookout for everything Emily the Strange, the next time I drop by Fully Booked, I’ll check if they have the books and will definitely get ‘em. Whew!

She rocks!!!! An Emily the Strange skateboard would definitely make my day …. uhmmm my birthday’s fast approaching … anyone???? lol

Hahaha that’s what I’d like to think of my situation now lol. The doctor’s recommendation was that I be admitted but I don’t want to so she said the next best thing is to have me stay at home and rest so HOUSE ARREST bwahahahah.

I will have a new team lead starting next week, an obsessive compulsive female who normally would have cause my insides to go upside down but given the several choices of the available team leads on the floor she’s okay. I mean she was my friend first before she becomes my team lead and we’ll see how this goes otherwise there’s always the option to leave. My resignation letter is just one print away; and oh they bloody issued an NTE for me … for not calling in when I was absent for a day.

When you’re breathing is not as normal like most people and the air around you seems to run out calling the office is the least of your worries but then management is always management and being the lowly agent that I am all I can do is bow down and curse all of ‘em under my breath.

ADVISED FOR ADMISSION to the hospital. That’s what my doctor said but being the stubborn brat that I am I said NO WAY. But truth be told, I don’t want to be admitted because I have no one to look after me, am a one man machine you know. If I’m gonna be admitted no one’s gonna run errands for me like buying the prescription from the doctor or processing the papers, no one’s gonna do that for me. So NO WAY am I gonna go admit myself.

What pissed me off were the stupid questions someone from work asked.

Me: I left my med cert in the office earlier today, do I have to call in every day am absent.

Person on the other line: Okay and Yes, I’m afraid you’d have to. What’s wrong with you again?

Me: [didn't you just read my med cert? It's on your f^ck!ng table] Asthma attacks again.

Person on the other line: Are you still having that condition?

Me: [*sigh* dum dum] Yes

Person on the other line: Can’t you come on in today?

Me: [bloody hell! you sure are stupid, aren't you???!!!] No, I can’t.

Person on the other line: Oh I see….. blah blah blah blah

For someone I thought rather decent and cute this person sure sounded stupid earlier. It was clearly stated, Doctor’s Recommendation: ADVISED FOR ADMISSION.  Now you reader, if you read the doctor’s recommendation,  would you still ask that person if he/she can come on in to work????!!!!

Here’s a list of things I hope to accomplish for this week’s rest days: [Am crossing my fingers to get them all done!]

- Visit Mom [Priority 1; Severity 1!]

- Mail out all the envies [for my swaps, tags and sales]

- Update my ebay store and the rest of my blogs.

- Go to the Chinese Embassy and process a Tourist Visa

- Email someone [I have been neglecting his mail for the past two weeks now, lol. Am dead!]

- Sort out my stuff [stickers and what not]

- Scrapbook [here we go again!]

- Finish my swap-bot organizer [I need to have this done ASAP!]

- Get ready for the launch of Windows 7 [I can't believe I just f^ck!ng said that ... tugs!]

- Clean up my cluttered [hard disk drives]. Files are just everywhere.

- Try to stay WELL, I mean NO ASTHMA ATTACKS pls. [but with these past few months, a day without one is like a miracle from heavens!]

Did I just tell you am busy??? No wonder am the oldest 23 year old I know!