My Pink Shoelace

This year is the first time ever for me to greet someone happy father’s day. Being an only child raised by a single mom I never had anyone to call a father figure so truth be told am a bit biased when it comes to fathers. Especially when in the neighborhood I grew up the fathers were not much of a good example.  What was important to me and it still is, is the Mother’s Day celebration but after meeting a few cool dads at work, some were in blissful marriage others in single blessedness found out they’re not so bad after all.

At the office when Ron arrived (his shift was begins at 7 AM) colleagues greeted him Happy Father’s Day and yeah he’s one good example of a good dad I think, sensible person as well, its like a balance of sense of humor and practicality that talking to him at times made me feel stupid and senseless.

But nonetheless Happy Father’s Day to Ron and to all those wonderful dads out there. Too bad didn’t have the chance to meet mine.

When I arrived at work I was dead on my feet went to the clinic and since it was a different nurse on duty she looked up my file as I told her what my situation is. I was also at the clinic the other night coz of constant vomiting, I was just on my station pulling up my tools when out of nowhere this urge to puke hits full blast. Moved the waste bin next to me and puked every now and then, my tl seeing me in that condition advised me to go to the clinic and there the nurse gave me something to drink which I puked after a few seconds.

She gave me a tablet to take which I puked just the same after a few minutes, I grew beat with all the vomitting I’ve done, she asked me to wait for the doctor so that the doctor can prescribed me something. While waiting I befriended another sick agent, she lost her voice and has difficulty breathing, she was also asked to wait for the doctor. ‘Twas 10PM, the nurse said the doctor is due to arrive 11:30 PM, meantime as we were hungry we went down … out of the building as the food in the pantry sucks.

What little I ate (the nurse said I can only eat soup and noodles) I puked when we went back to the clinic. When the doctor arrived she prescribed something and explained to me what I can eat and what food to avoid. Definitely no more coffee for me and thats devastating. Coffee is literally my lifeblood!!!

I was advised to go home which was a relief as I can’t picture myself taking calls with the waste bin next to me.

We started with the ISV earlier and since we’re doing it by alphabetical order, I’d be the last … and the agony of waiting is at times too much. I was restless and sleepy and who knows what else, my mind keeps on wandering to matters that shouldn’t surface while am at work. Grrrr …

The only consolation I got was the email we got from Aisat containing a list of those people eligible for dress down the whole of February, I was so girly earlier … even the “kikay” jonp says so .. flowing skirt, black blouse and a 3 inch stilleto heels. Would definitely go dress down later … jeans and my all time favorite chucks.

Am happier than usual … and I got annoyed when Creepy One said am cynical … am not .. shoot maybe I am … a teeny weeny bit, but at least am changing … mom would be happy seeing me bubbly like this … recent events, teeny weeny sweet words from people who mattered had an amazing effect … and am grateful for my angels who blessed me with these wonderful people. True to what they said … its the lil things that matter most, simple kind words were more than enough to make me smile and complete my day.

Will go to work at 2AM, we’ll continue with ISV, those done earlier would proceed with MSV and am scared … developer issues are tough, and a misroute would not only mean a failed call but is definitely a cause for an escalation. *sigh*

Now tell me, what exactly have I gotten myself into again???????

Was s’pose to go on lunch at 6AM, when on my way to the pantry I pass by Creepy One’s station and he asked me, what’s the aux, his chat room window was open and blasted there were the names of ten people who will have a meeting with Momie Lai, my name was on there. From our team there are like 4 of us, me, creepy one, david, and penny … so off we went to the huddle room. What I thought to be an hour meeting ended up to be a 2 hour meeting and we were informed (though we already had a gut feeling long before we were gathered) that we will be training for another LOB, the last of all 3 LOB’s within the account. I know this would happen but I didn’t expect it to be so soon, am not sure if am happy with the change. I’ll be leaving my current team, we’ll be having a different team lead (the thought makes me grouchy), and the change in my sched would definitely affect my studies. *Sigh* I can’t say no to it … its not even an option, though the thought of moving up means an increase in the pay in the next 3 months or so … but the adjustment is what scares me.

Training would start this monday and am still floating, Momie Lai said let it sink in … am not sure if it has already. Huhuhu though I’ll be with friends during the training but its still scary…. made me ask myself over and over why am I included, after all am not one of those top agents, am somewhat in between if not close to the bottom.

I dread for monday to come … *sigh*

Am on PTO today and one of the TL’s around was surprised why am around and is taking calls.

To make matters worst for my “feelings” a colleague said am working for charity … grrrr…good thing one of the TL’s around created an email and sent it to the FC’s so they can do whatever it is that needs to be done … sucks to work and not getting paid for it.

Now am concerned on the leave that I filed for the 14th of next month, me and Aisat already have plans of going somewhere during those dates.

On the side … Steven Strait is just freaking hot!! And he’s a year younger than I, he’s got the body of a hunk and … and … nevermind (hehehe) would want him to be a sperm donor (yikes!).

After all other agents left …

I was queuing, if there’s such a phrase, there were calls waiting and it sucks to hear the team lead asking TR people to be reskilled to Pro to help me out, especially when I get to hear their voices and see their faces asking why … pouting. For my last break only took 5 minutes “kay naikog ko” … *sigh* why am I alone for the closing shift? The queue spikes up every now and then, and I had two contract creation cases in a row and the tool that I use is just not cooperating. Grrrrr ……. am typing this in my notepad, would upload this later, when am at home .. 40 more minutes and I should be outta here.

I went to the office last night around 11pm to see A as I have to give somethings and to check on the status of my LOA, if its paid or not. We talked a bit, I saw Eds too which reminds me that he still owe me a hundred bucks, I talked to Aisat, always busy as ever, to D who doesn’t know what the process is for my LOA and all that . *sigh* Was s’pose to go home when Kathy asked me to grab a chair and stay a bit while we make “chikka”, just so I’ll remain in the office she said … Weng, you gotta stay I have chikka … someone likes you in the account.

Intrigued (who wouldn’t be?) I asked, consumer, commercial or tr? She laughed and said none of the above. Waaaaaaaaaaa so I said, so service master? She laughed again. I said give me a clue, and so the clue was he has a 3 letter initial as he has two names. Hmmmm … (only one person came to mind), I tend to assume but this one is already confirmed (he did mention at one point he likes me; the word falling is not in his vocabulary). Kathy said its someone close to her, she found out coz they went home together and it was in the jeepney ride chikka session that this guy (must have been a slip of the tongue or something) inadvertently admitted that he likes me (what’s the deal, anyone could like anyone, aight?). She keep on asking me to guess … alright guess it is. I asked if its anyone in production she wouldn’t say anything … grrrr … is this human being from management, facilities, HR, training, production or what?!!!!!!! She just smiled and smiled. Damn!

So for my first guess, I asked her if its that guy over there (pointing over to D), she said we don’t walk home together …. hallllleeerr … so one down (he does have a 3 letter initial), I asked her is it Vic (who has a 3 letter initial too) she said … halllerrrr … Vic is no longer with the account. Oooopppsss …. my bad.

Another clue she mentioned is, this human’s salary grade is A4, which explains D’s B1 and Vic is still an agent like me. Now who has A4 salary grades? Uhmmm….let me narrow down the possibilities here. Quality Evalautors are A4 and so are people on the training side of the account. When I got it figured out, she smiled and denied … duh!!!! We were laughing the whole time I was there and she had to remind me that we were s’pose to look like were on a coaching session so we had to keep our voices down. But damn … everything that she said was just flattering and funny in an odd sort of way. Didn’t put meaning to everything this human being said to me all through these time … we’ve never been team mates and I can no longer recall why we ever became friends. But now … I can safely assume there was “hidden agenda” in everything that he’s said, he’s nice and all, a good friend I should say but am looking at him in a different light, I always do that after my assumptions are proven (hehehehe).

The funniest thing Kathy said, was when this guy said quote and quote ” if he likes her then I will give way”. So what now love triangle? Do I have a say in this matter?

On my way home as cabs were pretty rare these days good thing Alex offered to drive me home.

Went to the office earlier just so I can submit my IJP form for the In Team Trainer position for a different account, I had it signed by my boss, then my our OM, he was quite surprised to see me hand him my application and asked why In Team and not TLI and he asked me if am a hundred percent sure, I told him I didn’t apply for the other posts coz I didn’t like them. I want to be a trainer so I can put my 4 years of college nonchalant to use. Heheheh He smiled and signed it, off I went to Momi Lai’s station to have her sign it.

She explained the job to me and told me she won’t endorse me if after speaking with Ces, the job would only be what she thinks it is. I’d still be an agent, I’ll be starting from scratch actually learning all about the new account and they’ll just pull me out if the new trainer needs an assistant, there’s no increase in the salary and there’s not even an assurance that I’ll be a trainer in the long run. The account is not even shelling out money for a new PST Trainer, she said she won’t let me leave the account as an agent still to a different account.

That makes a whole lotta sense and yeah … must admit I’d rather stay with people am already comfortable with. Anyways there will still be other openings in the coming months, and what’s the hurry? Its not like am going anywhere.