My Pink Shoelace

When the wintery cold season arrives leather hand gloves, bonnets, jackets, ear muffs and a whole lot more if I were in  a country with heavy cold weather I’d love to have a set of pink jackets, ear muffs, gloves and a whole lot more but since I am in a tropical country I don’t get to bear boots, ear muffs and the whole lot but a close friend of mine in the States has a lot of need for them and what catches her fancy are those leather hand gloves designed by Michael Kors … a bit costly but definitely worth it or so she says.

I was with Druggie and Eds awhile back at Hebrews, a coffee shop over at IT Park and I must admit the internet connection is pretty impressive.

~ Carbonara over @ Hebrews ~

~ Eds seriously working on something ~

~ Druggie – the gothic fairy behind lakbaydiva.com ~

The food was good over at Hebrews Coffee Shop and I cannot wait to go back and sample their other dishes and hopefully with my laptop with me so I can enjoy the free wi-fi. Yohoooo … so I have taken photos of the two crazy people I have met at work. Eds has become more of an extrovert kinda person who loves to point and shoot [we're talking photography here, don't get any other ideas] and Edwin a crazy lunatic I met at work if you are in need of a good laughter then call him.

Ever since a colleague from work went abroad to work couple of years back it made me want to work abroad too, you know look for greener pastures of some sort.  Then last year another team mate moved abroad to Dubai to work and now I am thinking of following suit real soon; I mean people in the country have been going out of the country seeking high paying jobs and I think I should follow suit too. So better hit the net and so some searching.

A photo of her in a toga and graduation cap was printed and distributed as what her mom would like to call photo graduation announcements and it also serve as the invitation to attend her graduation come third week of March. Thank goodness my mom was not as flamboyant as hers or I would have died of sheer embarrassment; the photo didn’t do her justice … lol she’s way prettier in person guess she’s not photogenic. Nyahahaa *evil laugh*

One of the many reasons why a friend and I are still with the company is the insurance benefits that came with the package. Medical insurance most importantly has been a major life and pocket saver for her and me that though work sucks literally, we hang on to it as it’s our major lifeline. Both of us are working part time online and we have been keen to promote that and make it full time but unless it comes with some sort of online life insurance policy then I think it’ll have to stay in the back seat.

- wedding rings and moi???  not quite! -

Technically she’s still 24 when she tied down the knot yesterday and she’s the first in the group to settle down [or so they say]. Well I got invited to attend my friend’s wedding, back in high school we have this circle of friends, there’s like 17 of us [15 girls and 2 boys] we parted ways when we went to different colleges but still get in touch and gather for Christmas party every year [am almost always missing in these gathering but nonetheless].

So Ann tied down the knot yesterday. Heck I don’t even know the guy [some friend huh?!!] Well we are not “close” per say,  it’s  big group what’d you expect? true all of us are friends but within that group you’d always have your own close friends right?.

So I watched her walk down the aisle in a princess like wedding gown and wondered, there she was settling down at the age of 24 and here I am at 24 still waiting or shall I say still trying to grow up. Heck! What happened in the “growing up” phase? A friend said just because she’s getting married doesn’t mean she has matured already … but then marriage is a HUGE thing, it’s not a trial and error kinda game that you could just walk out of the moment you realize it’s no longer working for you especially since there’s no divorce here.

The wedding was a classic scene and I just hope she’s getting married for all the right reasons and not because circumstance forced them too. Creepy One always said I am a cynic, so what … love in this day and age is highly overrated. I’d prolly cause foreheads to frown on that last sentence but what the heck  … bite me!

Seeing this online reminded me of that time I saw one in Singapore, somewhere in Orchard Road there’s this huge Sports Boutique and on the display showcase they had a wide array of colorful golf clubs, I stopped in front of the pink one and my auntie rolled her eyes at me. Saying that I don’t even know how to play golf so it’s no use, lol, it’s not like I wanna buy it … I was just attracted afterall it’s P!nk … heheheh. So when Lizzie said they might go avail of the many Myrtle beach golf packages next month I readily showed this image to her, she said it’s very cute and pretty but asked … do they have purple???

I am one of the many younger people out there who’s in favor and thankful for the internet era which gives us the opportunity to study anywhere at anytime so long as you have your laptop and there’s internet connection. A friend of mine said she can take that vacation in Hawaii and at the same time take the LSAT prep class she found online. Afterall who says you can’t sip pina colada in a two piece while reading your online course material by the beach somewhere in Hawaii??

Back in September before RJ and Vince leave for Cagayan and stay there for over a year the three of us [Rose, RJ and moi] had lunch at Bigby’s in Ayala. we’re sure gonna miss her but then again each of us have to go our separate ways and follow the road that life takes us. For her and Vince [we just adore him too] that’d be spending a year with RJ’s dad in Cagayan as a nurse in one of the public hospitals there while processing their papers for Canada. Meanwhile Rose and I are still in Cebu, though Rose would prolly be leaving for Dubai pretty soon and join her Mom and Dad who are pretty much established there. That’d leave me … alone … again … on my own … in the city I grew up in. *sigh*

- my strawberry milkshake -

- RJ’s order … forgot the name lol -

- French Fries -

- Carbonara for Rose -

- That’s for me but I totally forgot the name lol -

- the beautiful RJ -

- the shy Rose -

- My Left Over lol -

So no photos of moi as am the one taking them! Waaaaaaaaa tugs! Anyways, the food was yummy though as usual I was not able to finish up all of mine [this is rather normal so they're used to it]. RJ and Vince are already in Cagayan safe and sound, and we missed her terribly. Thank God for Facebook, YM and IM … communication is just a few clicks away lol.

What’s suppose to come next to that phrase is the word “affection” right?? I mean typically that’s the common word but not with him. I always thought they look good together and after seeing them all sugary sweet one time I thought that was the real deal. Unfortunately it wasn’t and many of us wondered why … they just drifted apart from the sugary sweetness to the cold “hi and hello” kinda thing. Without knowing fully well why I kept on teasing him senseless and he’d say, “We gotta talk about that” … and I was like yeah … what really happened???

We never got to talk about it … we only did just a couple of weeks ago and I’ve been teasing him for months!!! Now what turned out to be the object of his affection turned out to be the very person who’s now making him wanna puke! Can you imagine???!!!!!

This is what happens when love turns ….. sour!

Leslie and her family are on the move again, this would prolly be there 5 for this year. It must suck to have to go move to another city every so often. Her father’s job is taking them everywhere that she must have attended several schools already and have really form real deep friendship over the course of the years right now they are moving to another state and so her mom’s looking for long distance movers to help them out move their stuff. Good luck Les!

Is it me or what??? But all of my friends whom I asked a whimsy as a birthday and Christmas gift gave me the … “You want a what???!!!!” tugs! I came to the conclusion that I am the weird one because all of them as in literally all of ‘em say a total of … uhmmm let me write the names: Mitchy, Te Kate, MJ, Bena, Diva, Dodong, Aisat, Druggie, Momie Alvie, Lily, Kitoy, Rich and A … they all gave the .. nevermind. But with the power of google and my explanation they finally got it. Nyahahaha so there you go my whimsy list tugs!!!

Told MJ, I can’t wait for my birthday … hahahah hope something turns up but as for Dodong oh well … he’s a hopeless case. One look at him and you’d know he knows NO ART. Weeeeeee lol.

Thats the message I got on my phone from Shelly … she is on a massive diet and serious “losing those fat” regime which includes exercise, fat burners, food control and what not … lol how long it’d last I have no clue but that’s what she’s into right now. She has gained a 20 pounds as a result of the not so long ago depression mode brought about by the recent called off engagement. Being an emotional eater she has binged on almost everything … and now she’s regretting it. Tugs!

Her: I don’t know if I should be saying this
Her: but I think I should before you would know it from other people
Her: do you know that he will be going on a date?
Moi: nope … I haven’t spoken to him in ages … and if he is then good for him
Her: he already asked her out on Sunday
Moi: cool
Her: are you sure?
Her: okies
Moi: yeah, are u worried about me?
Her: kinda…
Her: am always worried about you
Moi: ohhhh that’s so sweet and thanks … but am ok. I might not be if this thing happened two years ago … but I hardly know the person anymore.
Her:

And its true had this been two years ago I would have been disappointed like a mindless rag doll. But things are different now … what must have seemed like a sweet thing, the most likely match, the perfect symphony as others would have it doesn’t hold true now plus the person I used to know doesn’t seem to exist anymore and true people change but I’ve chosen to preserve the memory of who I used to know rather than deal with who he is now.

She might think I still hold the torch for him but I no longer do … it’s like that time when you say you’re totally in love with Leonardo Di Caprio after watching Titanic but in truth you’re infatuated with the character he played in the movie … uhmmm like falling for a highly idealized character of the person you subconsciously created. Just one of those Cinderella fantasies.

So … it’s safe to say am happy for him and if he chooses to keep me out of the loop then so be it.  As mom would have it, another person’s affair is none of your business.  But am really glad that she worries and that she lets me know … it’s very sweet and affectionate of her.

MJ and I have close to similar rest days and we’ve hanged out couple of times in the past just last Friday we decided to go to Ayala to buy scrapbooking things and writing papers. MJ has gotten an all in one printer and because of me (that’s what she said) she’s back into the penpalling and swapping hobby. lol. I never thought I’d meet someone who’d be into making and swapping of fb’s, decos, label bags and what have you but I discovered she is and now she’s back on track. Weeeee

I’ve created a different blog about it on blogspot, you guys can check it out @ Of Letters and Beyond. It’s still fairly new but am working on it the same way I am working on my scrapbooks and a whole bunch of other stuff.

MJ

Moi

Caesar Salad

Pasta w/ Giant meatball

Norwegian Salmon

After buying a whole lotta stuff from National Bookstore we ended up dining at Spaghetti House, MJ ordered that pasta with the giant meatball and I ordered the norwegian salmon which was really yummy, the caesar salad was well nevermind. lol. After Spaghetti House we headed to Maze where I bought another case for my iPod Touch, a black leather from Capdase, we then headed to iStore where I purchased a new set of earphones, the original ones that came with my iTouch is still functional, no issues with the sounds but boy it looks awful and dirty, tugs, certainly needs replacement.

We were roaming around Ayala as it was raining heavily, we met two of MJ’s classmates back in Med School they chitchatted for a bit then we proceeded buying or shall I say I proceeded buying more scrapbooking stuff from Arts and Crafts and a few more from Metro Ayala’s bookstore. Should I change the title to Friday Shopping Galore??? toinks!

Finally found the time to take a shot at it. lol This was given to me by Edwin some time last June and it took me bloody three months to get a snapshot of it … waaaaaaaa. Toinks!

the blue tarsier is safely hanging on my locker door but this pink one is safe hanging on my pink pouch which goes with me where ever I go.

so there goes the pink tarsier and the pink pouch (holds my iPod touch, monies, and mobile phone)

When I found out he was from Bohol I asked him to bring me a tarsier (not the live one. lol) and he said he’ll bring one when he goes home which would be in the next couple of weeks. Being the forgetful that I am I totally forgot about it … only remembered when dropped a small brown package on my station one day containing the pink tarsier. Weeeeeee

Thanks Dwin!

I was wondering once if the regular postal service would shop small to big boxes and how much it’d cost when a friend who heard me musing out load suggested that there are commercial companies shipping boxes worldwide of various rates according to the size of the box.  So we checked on several companies to compare rates and finally settled on one. I’ll be sending some stuff over to a few people in different continents and I’m sure this would take a rather big dent on my pockets. tugs!

My two fabulous gay friends from the office, Diva and Bena, during our cookout at Lily and Randy’s place.  These two are part of what I look forward to when I wake up and prepare for work, seeing them just makes things a bit easy.

Sometime in 2007 I went to Bohol with Vic and forgot to buy a tarsier key chain much to my dismay but there’s no one else to blame but me and my forgetfulness. A couple of months passed and then D and the rest of the management team went to Bohol so this time I asked him to buy me a tarsier and he did paired it with a couple of Peanut Kisses. Now being the forgetful that I am, I completely forgot where I placed it after a couple of months of having it so to put it I lost the tarsier that he gave me.

Then just a couple of months back I guess that was June, Druggie went home and came back with a lot of delicacies from Bohol, I didn’t know he was from Bohol till then so I asked him to buy me a tarsier when he goes back, he said it won’t be in a couple of weeks but I said that’s fine.  Now I only mentioned that once and I didn’t remember when exactly was he going home just so I could remind him. It just came as a surprise when one day on my station he approached me and handed a small brown packet and to my delight its a pink tarsier keychain … to my astonishment he didn’t forget. (Haven’t taken photos of it yet but will do later on)

What I have taken a pic though is the blue tarsier given to me by Anj when she went to Bohol with Dowell just a couple of weeks ago. I asked her to bring me one and since I was on rest day when she got back she just took the initiative of hanging it on my locker.

So there goes my blue tarsier hanging on my locker door. It was a very nice surprise to see it there.

Thanks Anj … you’re the best!

I was pinging a friend of mine over instant messenger and she said that she’s busy writing weight loss supplement reviews for a client she got most of her online article writing projects from. Whew! I guess that’s rather tough I mean, having to write about something you have not seen or touched. So I let her be and said she ought to change her status from Available to Busy so as not to be bothered at all. Or better yet to just sign out from messenger and log back in as soon as she’s able to talk to people.

Not my project but am involved just the same … *sigh* that’s what you call involvement via friendship lol. We’re helping out a friend by scouting the market for affordable grill guards hopefully we’d find a good deal which consist of it being brand new, am sick and tired of settling for secondhand car parts.  Our target in buying it is early next year most probably 3rd week of January and the latest would be 2nd week of Feb.  hopefully by that time the accumulated savings would be sufficient.

I’ve always wanted to buy her a study table as she doesn’t have one, she’s been using the kitchen table when doing her school work which is alright according to her mom but I kinda like the idea that she has her own table where she gets to put her stuff without having to remove them every so often.  classroom desks like the image above are kinda expensive so I guess I’ll settle for the typical study table. I’ve seen one already but I’ll scout some more and see what else I can find.

MJ and I had dinner last Thursday night after her shift, we were suppose to watch a movie you know catch the last full show but when we got there we were too behind so we chose not to and just had dinner at Don Henrico’s. We also spent an ample lot of talking after dinner which has always been the case with us and it made me voice out what I’ve been trying to hide for so long and I was relieved to know that she herself felt it too. You know how it is when you are single and you have close friends literally close that you spend almost all your free time with them only to have that change when your close friends finally found someone. Its like they leave you there you know … they would no longer have any time to spend with you and when you try inviting them for like drinks or a movie perhaps they’d either bail out because they’ve already have plans with their special someone or they’d say yes but then the other person would tag along making you the outsider during the entire experience, I mean hey, three’s a crowd.

So when I got really close with A it was great I guess and then Dada comes along and things just disintegrate little by little. Looking at our photos together made me ask did that really happen. But she’s happy where she is now and so all’s fine. Then I got really close with Kitoy and that disintegrated when he found someone too. This time MJ shared the sentiment because she lost her friend too (the girlfriend) and now it’s just hi and hello.

But then hey that’s the normal setup people come and go and am just thankful that at some point they became a part of my lifebook and I was a part of theirs. And when a door closes another one opens. So thanks for the memories.

A friend of mine is going nuts over this astoundingly expensive car, Ferrari. I know he’s a total nutcase to have fallen so head over heels with this car knowing it’ll always be beyond his reach. He’ll have to save worth 10 lifetimes before he can afford one, now just to remedy his desire for this car he started looking for Ferrari parts in thoughts of building himself one … what the??!!! Didn’t I just say hopeless??? lol

Out of nowhere he texted asking if I wanna go to Bora on September. That is so typical of him … we’ve had a conversation about going to Bora in passing couple of years back but they never materialize. Now he’s asking again which reminds me that Lil Gurl asked me to go to Bora with her and the other girls from work on October during sem break. So which is which?

Nah … its too early to make a choice and to set my hopes up. Filing for leave is a toughie for me and going with Lil Gurl and the others would make it all the more difficult. Imagine 5 agents filing for leave on the same dates … getting that approved would need some sort of divine intervention and if I go this September … am not at all sure I wanna see him just yet.

This was taken in Baguio last April at Camp John Hay … they have a very beautiful garden with a wide assortment of pretty flowers. This bunch reminds me of two persons who meant a lot to me. First is Lovely, one of my besties and the sister am never blessed to have and second is Te Kate … a friend from work. Funny how we only got closer when mom died and Vic chose her to send his condolences to me. Like Lovely she has accepted the fact that am a brat, childish most of the times and very fickle-minded. Like Mitchy she’s kinda like my big sister on the floor, the kind who never refused to give you 50 bucks when you ask for one coz your hungry and you need to dash to the pantry and grab something to eat. So yeah … am surrounded by good and affectionate people.

We had a plan that we’re gonna renew my license last Friday and he forgot, I pinged him Friday morning and he didnt reply. I was pissed and upset and disappointed so just earlier I saw him online and just like Mitchy said he said to have forgotten the basics, like apologizing for one. So since I was very pissed off, disappointed and hurt I took it out on him once and for all … he was the reason why I felt like a 3 in one from Gelatissimo only this one has a sour and ugly taste.

I pinged him and to cut it short I was blunt, straightforward and down right blunt. I did say that already right? We’ll I was and I told him that I don’t like the new him … the one who’s loud, cranky and a bit of an asshole and that I want the old him back. I did feel better after I ranted on him and told him exactly how pissed off I was. Mitchy said there’s nothing wrong with letting out how I felt … it was all about setting expectations.

So right now am fine and that even though he’s not the same person I once knew … the silent, sweet and nice person I’ve grown to adore I still want him as a friend. Mitchy does too … so all in good time.

Reactions to my shoutout are always welcome but at times they are kinda shaky and I hate it and it confuses and hurt me more than I can take. You know, it gets me cranky and unstable.

Ever had that feeling of pain that starts within your gut and goes all the way to your heart and decides to stay there. Gnawing its way deeper and deeper with no way out. It’s the same feeling I have everytime I realize am about to lose someone. It sucks to know that all I can do is just watch them disappear and just let go. I have trouble letting go of people I love and care about … but sometimes all I can do is just accept it.

So in replacement of my broken skateboard, I asked Edwin to buy me books instead. I barely have time to read much more skate in broad daylight. He bought me, “The Time Traveller’s Wife” byt Audrey Niffeneger, “Thanks For The Memories” by Cecilia Ahern and “Ang Alamant Ng Gubat” by Bob Ong. I only asked for one but he got me three!!! Whoooopppeeee!!!!

Though I’ve read The Time Traveller’s Wife I wanted a copy for myself.

Lets face it almost everyone would wanna have their own ride, and I must admit that it did have its own appeal to me at some point but realizing the maintenance and all that hassle that comes along with the package I decided I’d rather commute. Now a good friend of mine living and thriving in the US of A just emailed saying she’s on the look out for auto insurance quotes before filling out that auto car loan that the bank has graciously offered her. Good Luck Tish.