My Pink Shoelace

I was on leave Sunday as we spent the whole day at Kawasan Falls, Badian in celebration of Wafa’s birthday. I missed school but what the heck … so Mik-Mik was there (its been a while since we were with him) together with his sister, Eds (the ever amiable Eds), Mitchy (my surrogate Ate), Bukie (Wafa’s other half), Wafa and Moi. Last time we were there, we (Wafa and I) were both skinny that was like 2 years ago … she was still single or was at least flirting with who knows who and I was still entrapped in my comfort zone.

The hike all the way to the top is tiring but its worth it … the place is really nice and the company was great.The gift Mik and I bought for her the day before was something I desperately wanted for myself (huhuhu … am a sucker for huggables), the saleslady at Toy Kingdom even suggested that I just buy that for myself and buy A the small one seeing that I was hugging it profusely as if my life depended on it.

Wafa’s naming the violet elephant, Wik-Wik ( from Wena and Mik) and its really cute. Weee

~ Wik Wik ~

NAME: Wik2x
AGE: (baby forever)
GENDER: male
BIRTH PLACE: Kawasan
PARENTS: Rowena Yee and Kim Carlo Tan
FAVE FOOD: Meatballs and Pizza
FAVE DRINK: Milk
EXPRESSION: duh!
BESTFRIENDS: Mumble and Gloria
SAYINGS: “real men wear violet”

With the magic words, we were able to convince Eds to go with us … not that it took much effort (lol!) but were glad he was with us. It was a gathering of common and close friends so that no one would be left out.

beautiful couple

the whole gang

My Surrogate Ate (on the left) and Moi (on the right)

Us ladies (from left to right: Mitchy, Wafa, Yours Truly)

23 on the 23rd … presents are very much appreciated. lol!

Just passed the licensure examination last year and now she’s off to the US. Well her family is moving to the US that is, the entire family so off she goes. As a certified public accountant she has spent the last couple of weeks online searching for Accounting Jobs In California as they are moving to LA. Am not sure if she’s happy with the thought of moving so suddenly but she doesn’t seem to have much choice. So last week we had a despedida party for her at one of the beach resorts here, she was also collecting our email addresses and phone numbers with the promise that we’d still get in touch no matter what. With the help of sites like friendster, multiply and myspace this shouldn’t be difficult.
If its any consolation another friend of ours moved to California a year ago but her house is like an hour away from where her family’s gonna stay but still I guess its comforting to know that there’s a friend over there. This friend of ours is also an accountant and is working as a bookkeeper in one of the companies there, he has offered to help Lee look for a job as Find Accounting Jobs In California or in any other state for that matter can be difficult at times.
So they left last Thursday and we’ve received one email from her saying that the place is amazing. They’re moving into a nice house in the suburbs and she’s made quite a few friends with their neighbors and has gone shopping in some of the nearby malls. Talk about settling in!! But we’re glad with her updates, her mom has even invited us to save up so we could spend sometime there. Lol! As if it’d be that easy. But maybe someday … who knows?

23 on the 23rd … presents are very much appreciated. lol!

Whew!!! Arrived at Mactan International Airport loaded with a rainbow colored stroller bag, a duffel bag, and a plastic bag all laden with assorted items for pasalubongs and the like.

Met up Mitchy earlier and dang was I late … good thing she still arrived after having gone home. I gave her half of the pasalubongs I bought for the people at work. All of them were bags from BKK for the ladies, a laptop bag for Momie Lai and the elephant pillow for D. He asked me jokingly once to bring home a pink elephant for him and yep I did found one a pink elephant pillow but I bought it for myself and I got him the brown one. He’ll just have to settle with that one. Bleeeeeeehh.

The scarves for Bena and  Rich are still in my duffel bag along side the candies and durian chips for Ronmar. Weeee BKK is definitely a place for shoppin, loads of cheap buys to choose from.

Mitchy and I talked about future plans and I just hope that they’ll push through, afterall whom better else to do what planned best with other than someone you trust and someone you consider close.

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My wallpaper turned into my very own Rubix Cube, with the variety of stuff you can do online nothing seems impossible. Got this idea when I visited Jean; she’s got her own Rubix Cube too.

Rainy Wednesday afternoon. Found myself in my favorite spot in Starbucks with Bena in what would seem like Blogging 101. He’s new to it and is still grasping on the ropes of blogging, setting up his tagboard, changing the template, setting up his own blogroll, signing up in communities and the like. Am sharing with him what Lex has taught me when I first started in the hopes of unleashing another blogger who would maximize his potentials as a blogger to the fullest and would like us (Lex and moi) earn from it. Its not so much on the earning part but on the experience of being one … to be able to write about anything under the sun without inhibitions. After all its his own space in the world wide web.

We’ve been here since 1 PM and its already 6PM whew!!! dunno how long we’d be here but am enjoying the experience plus Starbucks is like my second home. So comfy … so peaceful.

So, the picture above is of a pink pig given to me by Wafa and Bukie, that’s what she got for showing me her own pink pig (a gift from Bukie during there 1st year anniversary). Named her Eybu … from Ey and Bukie (the givers), an addition to my furry friends, all of which were given by friends at some point.  Given last June 9th, she certainly fits well in the family. Weeeeeeeeeee

Am not at all savvy when it comes to downloading files from the internet using torrent, and truth be told I don’t have the patience to wait for the completion of the download. So since D knows all that, how it works and where to get those files (don’t understand what seeds and leechers are) I gave him my flash drive and asked him to look for the albums of certain bands, *sigh* bands which I think he has not heard of before. Weeeeeeeeee but he was able to find them, so am moving them to my hard disk so I’d be able to empty this up and give it back to him for more. Weeeeeeee (talk about abusing friendship … hehehe) he doesn’t seem to mind or at least I don’t think he does. Owe him a lot for all those other times I’ve whined about my notebook not working and him ending up fixing it while dozing off in between Doesn’t take much to make my day complete, non-stop music, coffee and am all set.

“A wedding and a funeral … we can’t really tell what God planned for us, just trust him that he knows way much better than what we think.”

Received two messages containing the same info, one was from Vic, the other one from Jen informing me that Jen’s dad just passed away of heart attack. Stared at my phone for a good minute or two, numb. Its like seeing mom’s passing away all over again before my very eyes knowing the riot of emotions she must be feeling. I didn’t know what to say coz I know no amount of words could ease the pain and things would seem different now that you’ve lost someone dear.

I dunno how she’s holding on, I hope she’s doing better than I did when mom passed away. Am not sure if I can muster the courage to go to the wake … I’ve pictured it in my mind what its like and I don’t want to go. Am sorry but I can’t explain it.

She’s getting married!!! weeeeeeee … a friend of ours already told me but I wasn’t that convinced not till I hear it from her. So after exchanging a couple of messages on Friendster, I gave her my IM address and walah … we chatted for quite sometime, she’s at work but is about to go home just waiting for her fiance to pick her up. July 26 is the big date and too bad the wedding’s gonna be held in Perth. Was looking at all the photos they’ve had together and *sigh* its happiness I see in her.

Arrrrgh .. am such a hopeless romantic, just so happy for her. Seems like people from my batch are off getting married, she’d be the fourth and another one is thinking of getting married next summer. So happy for them …

Wedding bells .. here they come!!!

Thats what I told him and he said, “You wouldn’t want this, I thought I did but now am not sure”. He’s mad and his emotions are on the extreme making him say things I know he’ll regret the moment he’s calmer and has taken control of his emotions. This is not the only time he’s told me of their fights and I hate it when he’d say things about giving up on her, on them. Am not the world’s greatest optimist but when it comes to him, to her, to their relationship, the positivist in me takes full force. I saw what he did, I know what he’s done to win her heart, I know how he feels about her, heck I’ve seen happiness in him with her thats why I believe all of these are just tests, ugly phases every couple has to face in the relationship.

I sound like a freaking, marriage counselor grrr … when I don’t have any to get my insights from but I’m such a nutcase over love and him and her is just like … a fairytale come true, and just like every fairytale there’s that wicked someone … that devilish rogue and a whole lot more thats why I keep telling him, you love her she loves you thats all that matter.

Apparently its now and we both know it. A part of me still clings to this fairytale romance that so long as there’s love things ought to work just fine. It scares me to see so much wrath in one chat session and am glad we weren’t talking face to face, he has always been the calm one so it was scary to read all those words and I realized no amount of positive vibe coz subdue him. He’s hurt and there’s nothing I can do about it.

What they’re going through, this rather very ugly phase, doesn’t change my mind and heart for wanting what they have. Someone told me, he’s looking forward to that day he won’t have to go home to an empty apartment and that there’ll be someone waiting for him to ask him about his day, to cook dinner for and to plan the future with, and I realized I want that too …  to once again have a reason to look forward to going home, to have someone to share how my day’s like … trivial things like that. Maybe someday I’ll have that.

In the neighborhood where my friend Josh grew up he said drugs, weeds and whatever you call it is rampant … even before he started high school he already smoked by the time he finished high school he was what people call a drug addict. From syrups, marijuanas and cocaine … you name it he’s tried it … the sad thing about it is he knew what’s wrong with him but he can’t seem to stop. No, in his own words, he doesn’t have the strength to stop … he cannot deny the strong craving … so day in day out he did everything he can … stealing … robbery … everything just so he can buy whatever he needs to buy to satisfy his craving. He has grown thin, was never able to enroll for college, sunken eyes and cheeks. No longer the cute guy next door, but all that changed after 4 years of misery … at the age of 23 he was admitted for addiction treatment somewhere in Malibu. The location, our support, he’s will to overcome it … made the treatment smooth sailing. Now we have a totally reformed Josh, healthier than he was 4 years ago, happier than he ever was. He’s gone back to painting and arts … and to writing too, the staff at the local rehabilitation center has been very understanding and kind … making the place an easy environment for him. Can’t wait to see him when he’s treatment’s done … after all the pain he has gone through its high time for him to be with us … the people who cared and loved him the most.Can’t wait for you to come home bro …

Wednesday shift

It was 4AM when they offered VGH; on my previous post  I mentioned hanging out with Wafa at Mocha Blends were we ate like there’s no tomorrow, so here I am grabbing the images from the other site. I didn’t have my camera at that time so capturing the moment was all up to her.

- So in between taking calls from all three LOBs, I was able to write a post on my calendar of activities. At around 4 AM they offered VGH and since I love VGH (nevermind the deduction on my pay) I raised my hand and was granted what I wanted. Spent a good old bonding moments with Wafa at Mocha Blends where we ate to our hearts content (so much for the diet). Australian Beef Stew and Strawberry Kiwi for me during the first round and Carbonnara and a reddish flavored iced tea for her. We accdg. to her were celebrating Bukie’s birthday, so ironic as the celebrant was not there eating with us. Over food we talked about a bunch of stuff like we normally do which led us to ordering another batch of pasta for the second round. ‘Twas a food trip like the old times and I was full to the brim; it was close to 7AM when I got home and I had to go back to I2 at 9AM to meet up with Roy.

- Was waiting up for Roy at Starbucks to work on our project when I realized that there wasn’t much of me on the entire outcome. True I did have a say on the colors, positioning and on the layout but it was him who did the flash presentation and the coding for the site. Initially when the project was given to me what I wanted was to use an open source cms either joomla or mambo then will just tweak on the template add plug ins and thats it. But with Roy he’s kinda the old fashioned designer would prefer a first hand experience on the coding process. Wants to know which div goes with what so we’re back to good ol dreamweaver, photoshop and flash.

- So he showed me the output and asked what I wanted to be changed; being me I said a lot of things … from the color to the size to the positioning of certain images on the page. He was doing the work while I was busy sipping my hot choco (I finished 2 in a row!!), Mitchy joined us a couple of minutes after and so while Roy was working Mitchy and I were doing chit chat catching up on things. Missed the old times when we both have the same lunch time or when we used to go out just cause we feel like it. But am glad for this day … I get to spend it with her from Starbucks to Robinsons (though the mall is closed) to Gaisano Metro where she helped me pick a swimwear (a first for me … I literally dont swim!!!) and she bought a belt and a nice handbag to Ayala (where to our dismay is close) to SM (which was also close) back to IT Park. Currently hanging out at Cheesecake talking over tuna mayo sandwich and blueberry cheesecake.

- Who knows where we might go next, I still have work tonight but it doesnt matter if I wont get any sleep at least am able to spend quality time with people I missed the most. There are still others whose company I terribly miss but I dont have the guts to tell them how I feel or ask them that we go out sometimes I’ll just wait for fate to let our paths cross at some point so I’ll get to relish their company. I know am a loser on emotions and such a nut case!!

- Back at Starbucks with Mitchy dunno what time I’ll go home later all I know is am enjoying this day and it never occured to me till now how much I miss her company.

My notebook was infested with a multitude of spyware and adware so since am not blessed enough to understand how to make them go away the only solution I could think of was have it reformatted which was basically what I did yesterday. Went to the store where this was purchased and asked one of the tech guys to reformat it for me, he didn’t even asked for my receipt the moment he saw me he just took my bag and asked whats wrong. Ain’t that sweet?

Lovely and I were in this together and since I was sick last three days (don’t think I am now) its time to celebrate for health, youth and life (though the last one sucks at the moment). We headed out to Cafe Georg were a friend is working and though the quacks told me I can only eat cereals for the next two weeks, I’ll be damned!!!! I had my fill of the their chicken lemongrass, banana oreo and oreo cheesecake.

After draining my battery, we decided to watch 10,000 BC (can’t say I like the movie though) despite the fact that I got papers due next Saturday and so many pending online assignments. *sigh* Well I had fun, that was way out of the ordinary and though she’s s’pose to be studying for the licensure examinations she didn’t mind either.  We’re out we had fun and I just made up my mind on getting a new notebook, 12.1 inches this time … 14.1 is just not for me.

Don’t feel like sleeping, first off my finals for my masteral class is this Saturday and am agitated with all the deadlines I have to meet. I feel guilty everytime I see David knowing I haven’t watched the DVD he has lent me for a band we both like and I haven’t burned the cd he asked for. *sigh* In between my routinary depressed stage characterized by non-stop crying and trying to meet my deadlines for projects online to learning Expression Web and working on my papers due this Saturday I barely have room for anything else and that by the way includes sleeping.

So now am actually switching from one window to another, working on my projects online to researching for a paper due this Saturday to finishing the installation of Dreamweaver and Fireworks to this notebook to writing this post to bloghopping and finally to working on Creeepy One’s request.

His request for me to download music videos and then burn them to a dvd copy for the Cute One made me smile. The kid in him came out when he made the request, good thing he told me of his target date for giving this to the Cute One otherwise I would have procrastinated some more and work on it at a later date, so here I am scouring the net for these videos.

The thought was just so sweet and I know she’d appreciate it, hell I would … nyahahahaha … not that I’d want one, heck I’ve basically downloaded almost all of the music videos I like to my player and to my notebook but its the thought … the effort exerted by that person to get to know you and compile the songs that make you smile is what made the whole thing so sweet and amazing.

Which reminds me I need to do the same thing for Mitchy and Aisah … hehehe … for those songs we sang on videoke when we went out last Valentines Day … grrr …. the result of procrastinating!!!

Quality of Care. Quality of Life. This was the tag line that caught my eye when I saw website. As usual, am doing my wanderings online searching for this and that using words that first popped into mind. So I find myself opening up my browser and going to google (as always) and searched for nursing homes. What triggered this was the conversation I had with a friend and a former classmate since elementary (we parted ways in college). She’s now a certified nurse and she’s planning abroad to practice her profession there. According to her she has read various reviews of skilled nursing facilities in multiple states in the US and has made her application to several facilities.

What inspired her more to work there is the fact that her grandparents (fathers side) are living there together with several cousins and aunts. Nursing is never the course for me, I mean I puke seeing little blood so you get the picture, nonetheless a lot or should I say more than 50% of my friends took up nursing right after we finished highschool. Some of them shifted to other courses later on, while others am happy to say succeeded in their chosen fields.

We’ve been planning this escapade since January, and the three of us filed for leave so we can spend at at least an overnight somewhere. That was the original plan, but with my sudden move to another LOB entailing a drastic change in my sched, we were just thankful that on the 14th I was scheduled on RD. So we went out, the tres marias, went to Cafe Georg (my favorite) to have dinner tagging along the ever amiable Eds. Dinner was superb and Razel was there (my friend and one of the supervisors of the restaurant), the food was just yummy … and since Eds and I are both narcissistic, every dish had a place in both our cameras. Mitchy got hooked with the Treasure of Persia, and as always I was addicted to a slice of Oreo Cheesecake and Double Chocolate shake … so there goes my diet and my resolution of getting maln0urishly thin *sigh*. Talk was flowing among the 4 of us, and since we arrived at 10PM, we were like the last of the customers, rose petals were placed surrounding the teeny weeny candle so basically we were having a candlelit dinner … so as to make our Valentines Dinner memorable, thanks to Razel we got a special treat of one of their desserts, Cappuccino Crambolli (did I spell that right?) … Mitchy said it was the first time for her to go out of Valentines and its special coz its with friends. Now since Aisa and I love to sing our hearts out, we then decided to go to Mango Square, to one of the videoke houses there. We were tagging Eds all along despite the fact that its 12 midnight when we left Cafe Georg and he still has work the next day or make that later during the day at 12 Noon.

So we spent 3 hours in the Videoke House, the four of us taking turns with the mic, guess you can say the three of us were at point in love … even Mitchy hehehe … Aisa’s got someone though their status is not yet clear (why are men so confusing?) but I think thats a sure go … give it till the end of this year and am sure one of us would no longer be single. And that was the plan … by the end of 2008, the tres marias would be involved with someone else. We kept on teasing Eds with someone and he keeps on denying, we talked openly about the 3 people quite and not so quite linked to me and my confused heart. Its nice that at least now … both of them knows, who I want.

After singing our hearts out, the three of us went back to I2, to Startbucks but since its already 3 AM, they’re close; we went to Bo’s instead and had more than 2 hours of nonstop girl to girl talk. These two gals I was with are just beautiful inside out, and sometimes I wonder why up till now the both of them are still single. *sigh* only fate can tell … what his designs are for us.

Mitchy would be going to Manila on March 2 for her 45 days training for MDP, and am sure gonna miss her, both of them were one of my reasons for staying. Aisa said we should go out again before Mitchy leave for Manila specially since am on LOA on April and May and am not around when she comes back.

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Called the agency earlier and am so pleased when they told me my passport’s released already. So now I can safely call my aunt and ask for ticket money. heheheh … I dread going to Thailand knowing what I have to settle there and how firm I need to be to get hold of my freedom but at the same time am eager to get this whole thing over with … so I can move on.

Plus the thought of another laag is just plain exciting. I had to get away … am so confused now … that not a mug of coffee and a piece of orio cheesecake can cure. *sigh*

Friends Forever Award

I got this award from Nookie, one of the many awards he has graciously bestowed upon this blog; now am passing it on to Wafa (SoReal) … for being around through the bad and the good times … for the wacky friendship, the laags, the photo sessions, food trips, the shopping expeditions and much much more.

To another year of crazy friendship and more!!! Cheers!!

The dilemma he is currenly in is affecting me and I have no idea on what to do about it. It sucks to see a friend troubled and I hate the thought that its hurting the Cute One as well. *sigh* a terrible mistake thats what it is … and now he’s gotta face the consequences and inadvertently hurt someone else.

Told him to just be grateful that the Cute One chose to be with him despite all these. I’ve appreciated everything she has done for him and told her to hang in there … they love each other and thats all that should matter.

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So now Mitchy knows … telling her was a total relief … and knowing her side of the table was enlightening.

Will continue this later … am so confused, I can barely complete my sentences. Grrr…

When he texted me about going to dinner with him, I was still inside the training room and that was around 1 PM. He knows my training ends at 2 PM, it was the last of the four signs I asked … but the invitation didn’t come from the guy I asked the signs for. Being this week the time of the month for me, am just plain tired … as in literally tired,  like am carrying the weight of the world on my shoulders.

When I got home, I told him I’d skip on dinner and sleep … his reply made me change my mind though.  There was a bit of urgency between the lines, and has been the case when he visits Cebu, there’s always that day where we’re together and it’d usually fall on a Sunday.  Amazing how we’re able to pickup where we left off 6 or 8 months ago, conversation is always easy with him … so we strolled along Ayala while deciding where to eat.

When we were on the jeepney on our way to Family Choice (our choice of restaurant was so far off…heheh) he handed me what he claimed from the courtesy booth. Now I know why he really wanna see me … dinner was great … he was one of those few people who remained consistent all through out; the appreciation and the affection he has spontaneously shown is just flattering and overwhelming.  Just felt so special and lucky … despite what I’ve lost.

She told me when she sat by the station next to mine, that she approached him asked what time would his shift end and if they could possibly talk. I was stunned. Swallowing her pride and talk to him first, coming up with the courage and the nerve to actually speak to him is just unbelievable. I’ll never understand the situation she’s in or how difficult it must have been for her. But one things for sure, she one hell of a strong woman. Dunno why they can’t be friends, I know its awkward but then again they did it in the first place both consenting adults and though they’re not lovers but it resulted and now they have a baby who never asked to be made in the first place.

She did agree with me that it’d be nice if they can still be friends after what happened. After all they’re both parents now though not tied to one another. When they’re done talking, I noticed that she was happy … though they’ll never be called a couple but at least they’ve reached some sort of compromise and are civil with one another. For the baby and I think for her peace of mind … sad to admit but we (women) always need some sort of closure, only then can we move on.

Now speaking of babies … heard the sound her baby’s making on the phone, so cute. She said she misses her even when she just saw her … tough to become a mom, how much more a single mom. Fully appreciated everything my mom has done for me and I guess I won’t be doing her justice if I end up becoming a nun or worst a spinster. *sigh*

As I’ve told others, I’ve never been good at talking … I mean I can’t usually express myself through speaking especially if it would deal with emotions. *sigh* Am such a nut case. Somehow I manage to lose the ability to coherently express what I feel … heheh … but no matter.

Had my mandarin class, 2nd session last night, and though I was having a hard time during the first session I was able to catch up, even our teacher was impressed at the change and at the progress. After my class I head on straight to the office, and slept in the lounge. I enjoyed the class very much but somehow the constant lack of sleep has taken its toll, that the moment my head hit the bean bag I was asleep. I would have been asleep till who knows when if D didn’t wake me up, I asked him to do me a favor and wake me up the moment he arrives as we have the same shift. I know he’s got a lot of things on his mind (what with anj … oppppsss) but am just grateful that he didn’t forget. And I used to think I can make it on my own but this and many other incidents proved that am nothing without people who care *sigh*

Used to think he was just like one of those other people who come and go, that all those question and answer sessions where he pries my mind to try to understand what I think were just out of curiosity and sheer pity but now I know am wrong. Looking back at all those conversations we’ve had, the way he cares for his friends is just amazing. I feel so lucky to be one of them, I may not know how to show it but just wanna let him know (he reads my blog once in a while) that I’ve appreciated everything that he’s done, that despite seeing the worst in me he’s still around and hopefully continue to be so.

*sigh* so emo … I gotta end this entry here otherwise I’d be late and Ching Ching will kill me … the constant pain in my head and my sorethroat has finally prompted me to see the quack. So am headed there in the next 20 minutes to see the quack and Ching Ching and to grab one tall Coffee Jelly plus Honey Glazed Doughnut at Starbucks … heheheh.

Felt so stupid when I arrived at the locker room only to find out my key was left at home, saw Mykers in the lobby and she did offer that I place my bag in their locker, problem is I won’t be able to get as they go home earlier than I do. Good thing D was there and being the nice super human that he is, I had my bag placed in their locker for the whole shift. So dilemma solved. When I went to the floor the first thing I noticed was Creepy One’s 7th heaven smile … and he said “yes”, I can’t describe how happy I was with his news, I figured sooner or later it will be them but getting the confirmation just sealed it. Last monday morning had breakfast with Ching and MJ, was with the cute one on our way to Ila Puti and Creepy One was there too … they left after we reached Ila Puti and the way she referred to the both of them as one was enough for me to tell that it’s either they’re done with the lecture or is on their way to finishing it.

Happiness is such a hard commodity to come by, that though I don’t have it for myself its safe to say am happy seeing it in people who means a lot to me. Creepy One is one of them and knowing him and what he’s been through, he deserves it and I wish them well.

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Was a bit disappointed when Kathy told me Vic can’t go with us to Palawan, he didn’t have any VL credits left so he won’t go. So its gonna be just me, Kathy and Rich; Was stunned by the way Rich asked me straight out yesterday if there’s anything between me and Vic, the way he pointed out that we went to Bohol together …. Is it so hard to believe that a girl and a guy are just plain friends nothing more nothing less? *sigh*

I just hope they’ll approve my leave for March and hopefully for February too … Out of nowhere Bebang and I decided to go to Bohol this Feb. 24 and 25 … since I have a class on Saturdays, we’ll prolly leave at night .. I’ve been to Bohol once, one of the memorable moments in this “emo” life I’m living, and am excited to go back with someone though not so close but someone I admire for the strength and positivity that she has.

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They let me go half day as am scheduled for appearance at DFA for my passport, was told I should be there at around 10 AM, called up their office to get hold of their agent’s number only to find out that am rescheduled at 1 PM … Grrr … After coming up the nerve to ask my TL if I can go half day, this is what I get. *sigh*

I’ll have my mandarin class again tonight and damn! its tough … there are like 6 of us and our teacher is a native speaker … its fun but it really is difficult. Am not giving up though, was asked why I studied mandarin, do I have any intention of migrating to China? … my answer is I dunno … I still have a lot of issues to settle, mom’s passing unearth a lot of old promises and deals … I need to make a stand on. Only then can I move on, once they’re closed as resolved.

A good friend of mine is finally getting the promotion she applied for and with all confidence I know she’ll perform well with the new set of tasks ahead. I really am so happy and proud of her, we talked about this quite some time ago and now the results are to be made known officially later but through the grapevine, they told me or rather he told me about it and am just plain happy.

She deserves the raise and all that and she’s one of those people whom I know won’t crumble under pressure.  My sorta big ate … who just like me still giggles at the silliest of things, gives me those advices when I am confused (w/c according to Creepy One is often) and puts my weary soul at ease.

All the more reason for me to stay … seems like I’ve fallen in love with the floor, its issues, its people, its … everything. Hehehehe … and now Wafa is bound to pester me who A4 is … duh!!!

 ‘Twas Sunday, November 24, 2007 where Eds, Lex and I had our share of pizza marathon. After shift Eds and I waited for Lex at Chow King and ate … long before she arrived we were able to finish chao fan and rice toppings and siomai. When Lex arrived we moved to Shakeys and ordered Family Deal #1 which was a combination of one whole pizza, a platter of spaghetti, a basket of garlic bread and a pitcher of iced tea.

Over those food, we talked about work, the issues at work, who’s with whom and what’s with what. Then we talked about blogging and the whole blogging industry, from the rising mogul herself we learned a couple of valuable tips. People who’ll over hear us would most probably think we’re nuts from outer space, seems like we’re talking alieniesie when we’re on Earth. Heheheh I had fun and a full stomach, which was fine … it doesnt happen all the time.

There were pics taken but as Lex and Eds wants anonymity then I’ll just store them in my hard drive for memory’s sake.

Am writing this from work … low call volume due to the holidays in the US . Was looking for creeepy one coz TL just asked us to log off and go team meeting.

Since I was unable to locate him, I asked her the person sitting closest to me where he is. If I could paint or if it was in my capacity to capture the look on her face that would have been a masterpiece.I dunno, she was looking at me when I approached her but the moment I voiced out my question she looked down … dunno where she’s looking at … but she did answer my question while eyes were so intent on her screen and she was smiling.

Whew! Definitely a change … nyahahah … and I thought it was only creeeepy one thats affected … well its good to know that its not just my friend thats affected by the “virus”. I’ve come to accept the fact that he’s gonna continue what he has started with her and I think its only fair given that the girl is expecting it. Just glad to know that with the other one … they’re becoming “platatonic” waheheh … I know its platonic but thats what he used when describing us …

So for the moment I can safely say am happy for him and for the other girl … and yeah I’ll support him with her … and maybe just maybe I’ll be comfortable with her. Am crossing my fingers hoping or shall I say wishing for the best.

Blessed be …

Creeepy One was just plain happy … always grinning and is so damn busy with “outlook support”. Nyahahah what with 3 gals to respond to then you add me to the list *the assuming wife* accdg. to him. We talked via outlook, it was only there that somehow I get to speak my mind … I’ve never been good at talking … cant say he’s confused but is somewhat torn between the two … he said what his friends have to say do matter and me expressing my outright vote on someone else all the more made it buffling for him. We’re not close with the other one … the one whose got my vote, the one who seems to be more complicated, heck we’re not even friends. But why she got my vote … cant say. Aside from the fact that she’s cute … I like the way she thinks … creeepy one did let me read a few lines she said during their email exchange and damn! I so agree on what she has to say …

Creepy One forwarded a specific line she said … on her stand about courtship and the whole bs … just told him what she said made me like her more. *haaaayyyy* … If I had my way it should be them and not the other one, don’t have anything against her its just that when it comes to the “love lives” of the people I care about my hunches were never wrong … the very reason why am careful … why I tread on tip toes when it comes to mine.

But then this gal I like for him is “taken” … so? I told him … that doesn’t mean she can’t look for someone else. Am not pro on stealing girlfriends … but then if you think you can love that person more than anyone else can then you gotta show it. Stealing is bad but proving your intentions to be as real or more than anyone else certainly doesnt hurt. Shouldnt say he’s a coward but am on the verge of thinking he is … the girl is taken … so let it be it.  Hahay … why do most people think that way?

The way I see it the gal likes her too … but being the girl … she certainly cant come up to him and say ” hey you know what, I really like you … care to take this platonic relationship to the next level? ” … I’d worship the ground she walks on if she can muster the nerve to say that … even I can’t do it … the pride … the embedded nature of being a girl would stop me from doing so.

Arggghhh… the agony of being a girl … of waiting for what might and what might not be.

I did tell creepy one to finish what he’s started coz the other girl’s expecting it … he asked “how do you know? are you speaking from experience?” … laughed at him and said … “never mind that creepy one … am a girl and I should know” … he was like … “somehow what you’re saying makes sense.”

Nyahahah … what am saying almost always makes sense its just that the party listening is either too stupid to make out whats emaphasized between the lines or is too numb to even care.

Am I ranting? No … just blabbering … why does love have to be so confusing … is it even love he’s feeling? Toinks .. good question … can’t ask him that … don’t have the right to after all I myself never knew how that feels … its a commodity  so hard to come by and somehow people are just too occupied to spare some.

Just got off the phone with Creepy One … I’ve never heard him so happy. Heheheh that made me happy too. He texted me asking if am awake then when I said yes, he asked for my home phone number … next thing I knew he was calling me and was such a blabbermouth. We talked nonestop about this girl he likes … though I dont like her for him coz I like the girl for someone else and there’s someone else I like for him … but who am I to intervene? I’ve always believed in doing whatever makes you happy … no matter what the cost is. Happiness is so hard to come by now a days that whenever it presents itself then it shouldnt be taken forgranted. So where was I …we talked for more than an hour I think and just cant miss the laughter and happiness in his voice. Told him to continue what he’s started and told him that though am not all out support for the girl but am all out support for him and whatever makes him happy. Then if she makes him happy then go … hehehe … The whole time we were talking it was a combination of laughter and the usual bickering … with a serious note.Love … or whatever it is thats taken its toll on him sure made him happy and brought out the child in him. Heheh if I’d have a brother I’d want it to be just like him. Funny and childish and plain creepy.Am smiling as I type this .. cant wait to see his face tonight. Another reason why I changed my mind about going absent