My Pink Shoelace

Something stupid like … I love you (lol!!). Me and my blabbermouth was on the loose again. A year ago I asked (quite impulsively) Are you falling for me? (assuming noh?!!) well the answer I got was sweet and cute … I think it went over my head … (did it?). It was nice though … now after a year … with all its changes both good and bad … and I waited for a year to make sure I know what I want and am sure of how I feel. Did a few turns here and there but it didn’t work … it was kinda unfair to the other party for using him to test my emotions … but a girl’s gotta make do with what she has.

So after talking to one of my besties I asked yet another assuming question. The response I got a year ago still holds true so I said … if I said I want you…if I said I need you…if I said I love you…what would you do? … its a conditional (defensive!!) question because of the word if … and I was told there was only two way to go … he’d stay or he’d run away.

Now am not sure under which side he’s response would fall under bec. it was neither … I blurted the question out w/o really thinking of the pros and cons, was taunted by the question tossed towards me … would I rather sit back and keep mum and contemplate on what could have been …. so there, I asked and was answered. I don’t even know how to face him when I bump his way … thinking bout it, my cheeks are already burning bright red.

Diva once told me he’d always tell that person how he feels and take it from there, at least he knows where he stands and then move on. I’ve laid down my cards and its up to him on how he’d take it. Good or bad … there’s always time and room for moving on.

Just a series of what if’s … no definite ending.

23 on the 23rd … presents are very much appreciated. lol!

I was on leave Sunday as we spent the whole day at Kawasan Falls, Badian in celebration of Wafa’s birthday. I missed school but what the heck … so Mik-Mik was there (its been a while since we were with him) together with his sister, Eds (the ever amiable Eds), Mitchy (my surrogate Ate), Bukie (Wafa’s other half), Wafa and Moi. Last time we were there, we (Wafa and I) were both skinny that was like 2 years ago … she was still single or was at least flirting with who knows who and I was still entrapped in my comfort zone.

The hike all the way to the top is tiring but its worth it … the place is really nice and the company was great.The gift Mik and I bought for her the day before was something I desperately wanted for myself (huhuhu … am a sucker for huggables), the saleslady at Toy Kingdom even suggested that I just buy that for myself and buy A the small one seeing that I was hugging it profusely as if my life depended on it.

Wafa’s naming the violet elephant, Wik-Wik ( from Wena and Mik) and its really cute. Weee

~ Wik Wik ~

NAME: Wik2x
AGE: (baby forever)
GENDER: male
BIRTH PLACE: Kawasan
PARENTS: Rowena Yee and Kim Carlo Tan
FAVE FOOD: Meatballs and Pizza
FAVE DRINK: Milk
EXPRESSION: duh!
BESTFRIENDS: Mumble and Gloria
SAYINGS: “real men wear violet”

With the magic words, we were able to convince Eds to go with us … not that it took much effort (lol!) but were glad he was with us. It was a gathering of common and close friends so that no one would be left out.

beautiful couple

the whole gang

My Surrogate Ate (on the left) and Moi (on the right)

Us ladies (from left to right: Mitchy, Wafa, Yours Truly)

23 on the 23rd … presents are very much appreciated. lol!

Friday was my rest day so Jyn and I agreed to meet up at school so I can pay her and so we can withdraw one subject. The last one … Music … my reason was I can’t handle the pressure. Yeah, yeah am a coward I know. So we went to school and was devastated to find out that since its a Friday, the offices were all closed; we went to SM instead to PrimeCare where I saw Momie Lai and her husband (I think) and Razel (a barkada), they didn’t have EENTs on Fridays so we left and went mall strolling. There was an ongoing promo for notebook computers, so there were loads of them on display, there were dancers too painted in silver, and sexy women … strutting their buns carrying notebooks on a sort of runway.

So women were associated long ago with wine and beers (I’ve known that since I was lil), women were also associated with cars … and almost all car adverts have sexy women in the background, women were also associated with jewelry for as old as time … but women and notebooks? Nah that was new to me …  but that was the case last Friday … sexy women in small / tight dresses carrying notebooks walking the make shift runway.

They were also the cause why most of the onlookers were men … wonder if its the notebooks they’re actually looking at or the cute sexy buns?? Hmmmphh!!!

Faery Dancing caught on with the parchment I have on the site and am amazed to find her a Sage and I assume a Pink lover like me.  We both didn’t agree on the title though, never thought of myself as Promiscuous, heck am what people would call NBSB. So contradictory with the Promiscuous thingy …

And I was touched by this 2nd parchment she has on her blog; touched in the same manner this parchment touched her.

The second parchment is more likely of who I am … not much but its all of me.

After work as has been my routine the last few days I head straight to the gym. I did my usual lapse on the treadmill, the bicycle, the stair master and on the weights. Hehehe spent 2 to 3 hours in the gym and afterwards spent another blogging session with Benita on Starbucks. Learned a few things about the wiz of globequest … met a very cute 2 year old baby girl and continued on our blogging escapade.

Drugged after 1 tall Venti Signature Hot Chocolate and 1 honey-glazed doughnut. Benita and Moi fooling around the web, dreaming of plans, like school, blogging and what not. We’re both interested in going back to school, just a short term course for Creative Web Development, am not sure when this would come to fruition but am loving the idea just the same.

So that’s me after Wafa worked her craft on me. I was running pretty late for a friend’s wedding but then we couldn’t pass the opportunity, after all this is like the first time for me to look like a “lady” whew!!. My hair’s not the easiest to manage and thanks to bobbie pins (didn’t know why they’re called like that) she was able to do something about it. Was she taking pic of the earrings or what? And that big bracelet … she pick out my ensemble last Friday with Bukie tagging along (let’s be honest am stupid with dresses and what goes with what) and on which book does it state that the color of your shoes should also be the color of your purse? Apparently everyone knew aside from me!!!! Where have I been when all this was discussed????!!!

Roy and I spent almost the whole day at starbucks working on our rough draft due this saturday, I was fresh from work just went home to get my notebook and boom we were there since 9:30 in the morning till 5:30 in the afternoon. Well he left at roughly around 4 PM he still has work at 4:30, because of that project he went on pre shift vgh good thing they allowed him. So from iced white chocolate mocha grande to strawberries and cream plus banana loaf to blueberry cheesecake there I was again awake for more than 24 hours working my brains out.

We went out, I mean my wave as two of us are resigning (Frances and Kim) so to advance our 2nd year anniversary we had dinner at Royal Concourse and then videoke session at Star Club and finished it off at the Pump.

~ Pioneer Team Keith ~

~ From left to right: Aisah; Ching Ching; Jen; Moi ~

~ Photo Shoot (char!!!) courtesy of Eds;

and the models : Majin (Jake’s girlfriend); Jen; and Yours Truly ~

~ ladies in black ~

~ sexy back (?!!) ~

~ that’s s’pose to be candid ~

~ now this one is truly candid ~

~ blogistas on the lose ~

~ us again ~

~ moi ~

~ jen, moi and ching ching ~

~ moi and ching ching ~

~ gals ~

~ commander, moi and cuddly bear ~

We’ve been planning this escapade since January, and the three of us filed for leave so we can spend at at least an overnight somewhere. That was the original plan, but with my sudden move to another LOB entailing a drastic change in my sched, we were just thankful that on the 14th I was scheduled on RD. So we went out, the tres marias, went to Cafe Georg (my favorite) to have dinner tagging along the ever amiable Eds. Dinner was superb and Razel was there (my friend and one of the supervisors of the restaurant), the food was just yummy … and since Eds and I are both narcissistic, every dish had a place in both our cameras. Mitchy got hooked with the Treasure of Persia, and as always I was addicted to a slice of Oreo Cheesecake and Double Chocolate shake … so there goes my diet and my resolution of getting maln0urishly thin *sigh*. Talk was flowing among the 4 of us, and since we arrived at 10PM, we were like the last of the customers, rose petals were placed surrounding the teeny weeny candle so basically we were having a candlelit dinner … so as to make our Valentines Dinner memorable, thanks to Razel we got a special treat of one of their desserts, Cappuccino Crambolli (did I spell that right?) … Mitchy said it was the first time for her to go out of Valentines and its special coz its with friends. Now since Aisa and I love to sing our hearts out, we then decided to go to Mango Square, to one of the videoke houses there. We were tagging Eds all along despite the fact that its 12 midnight when we left Cafe Georg and he still has work the next day or make that later during the day at 12 Noon.

So we spent 3 hours in the Videoke House, the four of us taking turns with the mic, guess you can say the three of us were at point in love … even Mitchy hehehe … Aisa’s got someone though their status is not yet clear (why are men so confusing?) but I think thats a sure go … give it till the end of this year and am sure one of us would no longer be single. And that was the plan … by the end of 2008, the tres marias would be involved with someone else. We kept on teasing Eds with someone and he keeps on denying, we talked openly about the 3 people quite and not so quite linked to me and my confused heart. Its nice that at least now … both of them knows, who I want.

After singing our hearts out, the three of us went back to I2, to Startbucks but since its already 3 AM, they’re close; we went to Bo’s instead and had more than 2 hours of nonstop girl to girl talk. These two gals I was with are just beautiful inside out, and sometimes I wonder why up till now the both of them are still single. *sigh* only fate can tell … what his designs are for us.

Mitchy would be going to Manila on March 2 for her 45 days training for MDP, and am sure gonna miss her, both of them were one of my reasons for staying. Aisa said we should go out again before Mitchy leave for Manila specially since am on LOA on April and May and am not around when she comes back.

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Called the agency earlier and am so pleased when they told me my passport’s released already. So now I can safely call my aunt and ask for ticket money. heheheh … I dread going to Thailand knowing what I have to settle there and how firm I need to be to get hold of my freedom but at the same time am eager to get this whole thing over with … so I can move on.

Plus the thought of another laag is just plain exciting. I had to get away … am so confused now … that not a mug of coffee and a piece of orio cheesecake can cure. *sigh*

Was told he’d visit for a couple of days, didn’t really mind coz he didn’t inform me.  He did text at one point informing me when he’ll arrive and asked me what’s my current schedule at work so as to plan future “laags”.  Had lunch with him earlier, watched a movie and attended the mass.  So there you go, I got the 3rd sign I asked for but it was with the wrong guy. How ironic things can be, I’ve concluded a long time ago that we’re better off as friends and its funny how the people at work whom we met along the way somehow think otherwise.

Is it not possible for a girl and a boy to go out together? *sigh* the same exact sentiment I had when we went to Bohol together,  people either pass us off as married or lovers when we were,  still are neither. We’re friends plain and simple.
He’s one of the few meaningful relationships, I tend to keep.

In my circle of friends, there are 17 of us; 15 females and 2 males … we’ve been friends since first year high school up till now. When we parted ways in college, we made it a tradition that every Christmas we’d see one another and have our annual party, not only that but when there are other occasions almost everyone would be around. During the wake of my mom they were there, trying their best to cheer me up. Now one of us is finally a mommy to a cute baby girl, and of course all of us were instant godmothers and godfathers. After my class together with a friend we visited her in the hospital, she was breastfeeding the baby … I can’t describe how I felt at the moment it was a mixture of varying emotions. The baby is just so lovely and fragile, I was afraid to touch her.

We were joking amongst ourselves who would be the next mommy… seeing her and her baby made me wish I have one of my own. *wishful thinking* first things first, look for a sperm donor … hehehe.

Oh well … in my dreams I’ll definitely find him.

Spent the whole afternoon at Ratsky with my team mates, we had team lunch, team snack and whatever you might call it. From 2 till sun down, almost everyone was there I think … it was unlimited pizza of tuna, sausage, and mushroom variety and a choice of draft beer, coke or ice tea. I must have eaten a lot coz my tummy complained and I puked everything that I ate in 4 puking sessions …

Ronmar said I must be bulimic … uhmmm I dont binge eat and puke after … I eat normal rations and normal hours but then I still puke not by will but by nature.

‘Twas fun nonetheless … had fun with the antics of my team mates both sober and drunk. Penny had a pink cast on his foot and our scheds have changed.  I requested for it given my whole day class schedule on Saturdays, I need to have the Friday night off.

Fun Under the November Sun … thats whats written on the banner welcoming us to the beach. Yeah right november sun, more like november rain … in the cold november rain. Attended the company’s sportsfest yesterday w/o any sleep and with a major headache. Dragged myself from the pc to the event coz I promised Wafa and the Creepy One that I’d go … what’d I get in return? Hehehe a major flu, a gnawing headache, friendship with a cute gal (bound to be my classmate soon), and I get to talk to Mik. The guy is just so dense to the point of being annoying, he definitely needs coaching on girlfriend 101. I’ve never seen Wafa so tired, she also informed me that bookie’s sched has changed and that he’d be working on Saturday … so there goes our plan of going to Malapascua. Hate it!! I was a bit skeptical too with the kind of weather we have and with my classes on Saturday. *sigh*

I had fun looking at the people having fun … hehehe … lil gurl said, “Weng, lets not join in the games … all we’re here for is the photo shots”. Creepy One was busy too … what with battery, ipod and mentos all in one bus, whew! must have been to much too handle. Mykerts and I liked the same gal for him … she gives justice to the word cute and pretty. Hehehe … and we’d be more than happy if he chose her instead of anyone else. Saw this girl looking at him and it definitely means something, I mean it’d be the kind of look I’d give to someone I like. Way to go girl! I’ll talk to her one of these days … heheheh … can’t help but intervene.