My Pink Shoelace

One of my two close friends, the sister am never blessed to have just passed the CPA licensure examination on last May 5′s examination. Whooohooo. It’s just amazing to see her pass knowing that this board examination is pretty tough and that the passing rate with each year tends to be on the small side.

So that’s us with empty plates during her Thanksgiving and B-Day dinner celebration last Sunday, several of our friends are there as well Lovely’s family. It was nice to be able to catch up on friends, dinner was amazing and all except for Lovely head up for a couple of beers and lots and lots of talk.

I said goodbye to my second family earlier today. I handed my resignation letter effective immediately and I am just glad that the big boss accepted it … otherwise my four years tenure would go down the drain. People were surprised, they knew that at some point I would leave they just didn’t expect it to be so soon.

I filed a leave for the first two weeks of June last April and there no feedback whatsoever and no response to the follow up I made, I only knew last Wednesday that it was disapproved because of staffing issues.  For personal reasons I have to be overseas for these dates and I chose to leave … what I didn’t expect was it to hurt the way it did and I cried, cried like I did when mom died. Anj told me not to cry much, she said it’s not a loss but an opportunity for me to venture out on something new.

I guess I wasn’t ready emotionally to let go of the people I have come to love … it sucks and a part of me is afraid that with the separation I made with the company comes the separation of the friendship I have with so many people. I have become rather clingy ever since mom left after all friends are all I have right now and I hate the thought of losing them.

Before I went to the office to tender my resignation I made a promise to myself that I won’t cry … my friends would always be around no matter where I work and we’re just one text away from each other.  But that changed when I said goodbye to dodong and cried, I cried when I talked to Te Kate yesterday and I’m just glad I didn’t see Mitchy on the floor earlier otherwise it would have been too difficult to stop the tears from coming.

Weng, you are such a crybaby! I mentally scolded myself over and over … but you my dear reader must understand, this is my first job, a job I held for four years and leaving all these people behind was harder than I could ever possibly imagine. We said we’d keep in touch and am holding that thought close to my heart; my comfort words.

**Sayonara – It Has Been Sweet‏**

I suck at saying Goodbyes … so I’d do it in writing.

It has been an amazing four years with you guys, I’ve found my second family here and it’s painful for me to leave but the circumstances forced me to choose … I’m at the point where no matter how I want to compromise I can’t seem to have both.

I cannot begin to describe how thankful I am to have met all of you … so I guess this it …  and I’ll see you guys around.

 —-

 Weng

————– end of chapter 1

————– looking forward to starting chapter 2

My last entry was dated May 9, 2010 tsk tsk tsk been gone for a while hehehe … so let’s see what has happened since then.

- the election [w/c I chose not to partake ... as I am politically illeterate]

- Bena’s “farewell” lunch

- Mother’s Day [ Mommie Cherry's pasta was super delicious]

- school, school, school

I started this December 2007 and after say 6 sessions I stopped, why? let’s just say it was full moon and head started going bananas. So close to 3 years after … I picked up where I left off and heaven forbid for another round of full moon madness. lol.

September is fast approaching … and I can hardly wait I just hope they’d allow me to go,  at 1/4 of the things that I need to paper is already done … weeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Him: It’s been close to 3 years since I last saw you. I hope you still remember the basics.

Me: *just grinned foolishly*

Him: Can you at least make a sentence?

Me: Wo xihuan ni.

Him: Hen Hao.

Me: Xie Xie

I have just made my intentions of studying in China for 1 semester known to my team lead, well I’ve mentioned it to her before but now I’ve discussed the details with her and am crossing my fingers that the big boss would approve it. Ever since the change in management the new SOM has been nothing but a dummy, or so that’s how I see him. I have mentioned my plans to my auntie as well and I just hope she’d agree to shoulder the tuition fee while I worry about the plane tickets. So am holding down the fort and changed my mind about leaving …. am staying for a while but it won’t be long now. At the moment all I could ever think of is China and calligraphy.

If this plan goes well, MJ will be accompanying me and we’ll head there a week before my class starts to explore the city. Then on my birthday Mitchy would visit … she said she’d celebrate my birthday with me, isn’t that sweet? Am so so so so excited!

I was with Druggie and Eds awhile back at Hebrews, a coffee shop over at IT Park and I must admit the internet connection is pretty impressive.

~ Carbonara over @ Hebrews ~

~ Eds seriously working on something ~

~ Druggie – the gothic fairy behind lakbaydiva.com ~

The food was good over at Hebrews Coffee Shop and I cannot wait to go back and sample their other dishes and hopefully with my laptop with me so I can enjoy the free wi-fi. Yohoooo … so I have taken photos of the two crazy people I have met at work. Eds has become more of an extrovert kinda person who loves to point and shoot [we're talking photography here, don't get any other ideas] and Edwin a crazy lunatic I met at work if you are in need of a good laughter then call him.

What’s suppose to come next to that phrase is the word “affection” right?? I mean typically that’s the common word but not with him. I always thought they look good together and after seeing them all sugary sweet one time I thought that was the real deal. Unfortunately it wasn’t and many of us wondered why … they just drifted apart from the sugary sweetness to the cold “hi and hello” kinda thing. Without knowing fully well why I kept on teasing him senseless and he’d say, “We gotta talk about that” … and I was like yeah … what really happened???

We never got to talk about it … we only did just a couple of weeks ago and I’ve been teasing him for months!!! Now what turned out to be the object of his affection turned out to be the very person who’s now making him wanna puke! Can you imagine???!!!!!

This is what happens when love turns ….. sour!

My two fabulous gay friends from the office, Diva and Bena, during our cookout at Lily and Randy’s place.  These two are part of what I look forward to when I wake up and prepare for work, seeing them just makes things a bit easy.

MJ and I had dinner last Thursday night after her shift, we were suppose to watch a movie you know catch the last full show but when we got there we were too behind so we chose not to and just had dinner at Don Henrico’s. We also spent an ample lot of talking after dinner which has always been the case with us and it made me voice out what I’ve been trying to hide for so long and I was relieved to know that she herself felt it too. You know how it is when you are single and you have close friends literally close that you spend almost all your free time with them only to have that change when your close friends finally found someone. Its like they leave you there you know … they would no longer have any time to spend with you and when you try inviting them for like drinks or a movie perhaps they’d either bail out because they’ve already have plans with their special someone or they’d say yes but then the other person would tag along making you the outsider during the entire experience, I mean hey, three’s a crowd.

So when I got really close with A it was great I guess and then Dada comes along and things just disintegrate little by little. Looking at our photos together made me ask did that really happen. But she’s happy where she is now and so all’s fine. Then I got really close with Kitoy and that disintegrated when he found someone too. This time MJ shared the sentiment because she lost her friend too (the girlfriend) and now it’s just hi and hello.

But then hey that’s the normal setup people come and go and am just thankful that at some point they became a part of my lifebook and I was a part of theirs. And when a door closes another one opens. So thanks for the memories.

Out of nowhere he texted asking if I wanna go to Bora on September. That is so typical of him … we’ve had a conversation about going to Bora in passing couple of years back but they never materialize. Now he’s asking again which reminds me that Lil Gurl asked me to go to Bora with her and the other girls from work on October during sem break. So which is which?

Nah … its too early to make a choice and to set my hopes up. Filing for leave is a toughie for me and going with Lil Gurl and the others would make it all the more difficult. Imagine 5 agents filing for leave on the same dates … getting that approved would need some sort of divine intervention and if I go this September … am not at all sure I wanna see him just yet.

We had a plan that we’re gonna renew my license last Friday and he forgot, I pinged him Friday morning and he didnt reply. I was pissed and upset and disappointed so just earlier I saw him online and just like Mitchy said he said to have forgotten the basics, like apologizing for one. So since I was very pissed off, disappointed and hurt I took it out on him once and for all … he was the reason why I felt like a 3 in one from Gelatissimo only this one has a sour and ugly taste.

I pinged him and to cut it short I was blunt, straightforward and down right blunt. I did say that already right? We’ll I was and I told him that I don’t like the new him … the one who’s loud, cranky and a bit of an asshole and that I want the old him back. I did feel better after I ranted on him and told him exactly how pissed off I was. Mitchy said there’s nothing wrong with letting out how I felt … it was all about setting expectations.

So right now am fine and that even though he’s not the same person I once knew … the silent, sweet and nice person I’ve grown to adore I still want him as a friend. Mitchy does too … so all in good time.

I haven’t been able to log in to Friendster for a couple of days now, seems like someone’s foolin with my account sending spam messages to all my friends. So I changed my password to something I know will never come true. Waaaaaaaa thinking about it made me feel so pathetic!! Anyways when I logged in today these images are what I saw on my profile page. Weeeeee done by Lovely and its cute.

~ rockstars on the making ~

~ sisters to the core ~

My besties since grade school … look how grown up we are all now … whew!!! Used to remember playing jackstones and chinese garter with these two. Heheheh … and she knows I adore pink so she’s done it on pink!!!